Not signed in (Sign In)
Categories
- Main Junction
- CROSSED
- London Zoo
- Freakangels
- Music
- Printheads
- Culturegasm
- Web Nuggets
- WorldWeird
- Blogs
Welcome, Guest
Vanilla is a product of Lussumo:
Documentation and Support.
-
Deleted because, well, it just is...
I dreamt about the Crossed last night. There's something in the water! -
Annnnd that insanity has gone too!
-
Smothered by a veil of purple guilt...
-
A bitter pill to swallow
Abstinence would make the hurt grow fonder
Using methadone as a substitute for opiate addiction is like weaning vampires off human blood and on to artificial plasma
1937, Nazi Germany...
Straaaaaaange Times. -
Hideous using dreams where I'm injecting heroin into my lower lip and squirting it all over my face.
Fuck you, Desire! Leave me alone, subconscious malcontent entity! -
The city is a bombed wreck of bacon-flesh coils.
Prime targets lie on the tracks, salted by a lack of happy-dance.
Engineers howl in unison, each one skilled in outdoing the other.
That feeling, when your alone in a dark room and looking at scraps of old newspapers.
Your so sensitive, open to suggestion and the will of other people.
You drink more brandy, and the throat rattles as you cough-up last nights cigarettes.
Instead of making that important call, you pick at a piece of renegade plaster.
You can't even get the strength to kill the bugs that crawl over your skin.
Biotech augmentations ripple under the skin, each rising to crying orgasm.
Some would say it's morbid introspection, too much time alone.
But you know better.
You've been with people; good with their words, with jaw-yapping.
Pointless quests to make meaning from the anxiety that ripples under reality.
The face melts at the window, the door slams shut.
Something you don't understand is now in the room.
As the air-hostess said, it's all shit.
She'd just lost someone she loved, her handsome features crossed with lines of crashing.
You stumbled past her grandiose house, aware that she is damaged.
She's as desperate as you to make a connection, but your morality stops you from taking advantage.
Do you really want to catch her eye over the technology, guilt making you crawl?
Brandy and cigarettes are all you have now.
Knock yourself out.
Eat a bug. -
There are certain memories that never really reach your brain. They stay in your blood like a dormant virus. Then something triggers them and you don't remember the moment; instead, you relive every detail . It's the reliving, not the original experience, that your brain registers. (I) think this happens more as you get older.
I didn't write that, but I concur. -
It's not resembling a hotel at the moment; it's more looking like a small block of offices converted into mini-flats. The souls, of which there are plenty, seem to be going about their own business.
I'm lost here, I really am. Since signing an agreement of tenancy, I'm just getting by on a day-by-day basis.
I occasionally start a story, but after a page or so it just shrivels into a waste of bloated weirdness that probably needs a sick-mind to see it come to fruition; I'm slightly better nowadays, no-longer fueled by insanity, resentment, bile, revenge and murderous intent, but still prone to bouts of depression. All that shit is always lurking, ready to rip a hole at any time. -
I fear I'm going back into an old mode of behavior. Dirty cracks springing up to trip me up. Shaking like a bastard from anger and irritability from being in too close proximity to some of these people.
All this bloody work - detox, rehab, meetings etc. And I still feel the same. Fuck's sake - I will fight this depression and early drug free bollocks until I get well. Until then...
BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY: SURVIVAL OF A RAT-FUCK BASTARD.
Ha-Ha - I'm listening to Glen Campbell! What's happening to me?
1 to 9 of 9