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    @nelzbub-
    Complete Idiot's Guide to Positive Dog Training, 3rd edition, by Dennison.
    One of the smaller books on dog training and canines and whatnot, but not the worst, covering the basics of a positive approach to dog training, and why and how it works.
    It says it also is applicable to working with other animals; I'm going to test it out on my coworkers.
    • CommentAuthorPooka
    • CommentTimeApr 2nd 2012
     (10580.22)
    Huzzaaahh!
    UK won the championship. Woot! Lexington is going to be fucking crazy tonight!
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      CommentAuthormister hex
    • CommentTimeApr 3rd 2012
     (10580.23)
    One -If I had access to nuclear weapons, I would certainly not hesitate to use them. ALL OF THEM. ALL AT ONCE. And I couldn't really care less about who was on the receiving end, as long as they were human. My first target would undoubtedly be myself, if that's any consolation to any peaceniks who might be eavesdropping. Nothing is good in this world, absolutely nothing. It's touching that you people can find joy in small things like (I presume) a sporting event or a job or something. Right about now, the only thing that would make me smile is news that an asteroid the size of Baltimore was headed straight for us and we all have fifteen seconds to live. (PS - in this scenario, I would still deploy the nukes. But not to destroy the Baltimore-sezed asteroid, oh no sir.)

    I'm so tired and depressed and sick and tired and fed up and lonely and angry and tired. I'm tired of living. Another forty ears of boredom, frustration and loss is more than I can reasonably be asked to endure.

    Two - My novel's coming along quite well. It's doing things that I wanted it to do and it surprises me almost every day. Several characters have started talking to me of their own accord and I like this. (The problem with this is the subject matter is so bleak and fucking depressing, it's making me fantasize about genocide.)

    And I still have my sense of humour. YOU may not like it but it's mine.

    Three - @all experiencing Teh Problems - "If you're going through Hell, keep going." Winston Churchill
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    BOO: There's a company on the other side of the city. Within that company there's a job. A job I would be perfect for. They're asking for two things, essentially: proficiency in Microsoft Office Suite, and basic Aviation/Avionics knowledge. The gig is "Courseware Development", mostly for training pilots. They aren't looking for too high a level for either. First of all, they're saying they actually train people in on how to use Excel, Photoshop, etc. Not only am I familiar with Photoshop, I actually have a tiny bit of Design experience. When it comes to Aviation knowledge too, I surpass the requirement by a long short. I'm a recently liscensed FAA Dispatcher and hold an Air Traffic Control degree. There's no reason why I wouldn't, at the very least, get an interview. But they haven't called me yet.

    HUZZAH: I'm starting to really dig into the album. Really, really excited about it. The downside is rifling through old films to find the perfect quotes I need to tell my story... but hey, nobody forced me to make an album this way. And when I'm done I know all that digging will be worth it. I completed the opening song yesterday (short of a bit more turntablism that I ran out of time to lay down), and started the first part of the first track. It'll be 3 tracks, all 15 to 20 mins. long separated into different "parts". I have a bit of material I had been experimenting with prior (mostly Sun Ra samples), but for the most part I'm going through and making this in chronological order the same way it'll be presented. Very exciting.

    APPLAUSE: Brittanica- It's called being human. It happens to all of us, just a matter of what form it takes. In my opinion -- I'm no psychologist -- episodes like that are good for us. If there's one thing Ned Flanders taught me it's that holding in all your frustrations is a sure fire way to make it worse. That, and apple cider is tangy and brown, and apple juice is sweet and yellow. You're not alone either, we all go through these things; the people who claim they don't are lying or suppressing something. Just look at all the people self-loathing in this very thread. We all don't like parts of ourselves. Because we all aren't perfect. Don't feel alone, you're in the company of billions.
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    BOO: Because of the stress of getting to this tribunal I had this morning I have been unable to write. Which massively sucks because it's my passion and I fucking hate it when I can't write.

    HUZZAH: I won the tribunal! Back dated benefit, future benefit at the rate I was on before. No stress about it for, ooh, 15 months or so until they decide I need to go through it again. But fuck it, 15 months of trying to GET SHIT TOGETHER so I don't need to bother with it again.

    THE UPLIFT: @Rootfireember I have real trouble with calling people on the phone, one of those things where the more you think the harder it gets to start. Often when you finally do the thing you have been avoiding, it's so much easier than you thought. I hope that's the case for you. Good luck.
    • CommentAuthorroadscum
    • CommentTimeApr 3rd 2012
     (10580.26)
    The Boo: Same old same old, the legs are starting to seize up again, i'm aching and cramping up at night and generally feel like shite. According to my doctor there is no discernible cause and i will pretty much just have to put up with it. Oh joy. I am disappointed with myself on a number of counts, there is much i had hoped to have finished by now that isn't - i just can't seem to string things together like i used to, there was a time when i could write reasonably well, these days hah! It's like i'm slowly unravelling, losing my ability to think and the worst thing is i can see it going. Not nice, not nice at all.

    The Hurrah: Had an excellent day out with KK, we went up town to see the Ladykillers, had a fine pub lunch and finished the day off wandering about the West End, hunting for Easter eggs. Very nice indeed.
    Also, there is food in the cupboard, money in the bank and a roof over my head and I AM STILL BREATHING YA BASTARDS, I AM STILL BREATHING!
    So yes, things could be worse.

    The applause: @ Mr Hex - your cheery optimism gives me the strength to carry on, you are an example to us all sir.

    @ brittanica, Roo, JP Carpenter and everyone struggling with the sads and the head pressure - for what it's worth i'm with you, be afraid to go for help if you like, but go for it anyway and take what you can get, talk to whoever you can, whoever you need to, hang on in there, endure. Eventually the shit subsides, the trick is to still be standing when it does.
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    The Boo: It's 7:20am and I'm in the office. I have about five day's work to do with only three days to get it done in. The boss is away on holiday, and the secondary boss is at his home, struck down by some kind of death flu with a side serving of migraine. One of our two servers is down, and only the boss and secondary boss have the permissions to get in and fix it. The secondary boss isn't answering his phone. Instructions for a situation such as this are available, but they're hosted on the server that's down (who thought that was a good idea?). A particularly aggressive client who's already pissed off with us over another issue is expecting me to solve all his problems today - his site is hosted on the server that's down. In addition to all the other work I have to get done, I'm stuck answering the phone which is already ringing with people wanting to know why their sites are down and demanding a time estimate for when they'll be back up. "I don't know" is apparently not an acceptable answer in this situation.

    I expect stress-induced total organ failure to set in in a few hours.

    The Huzzah: Umm.... I have a nice casserole in the fridge for lunch? And I suppose the fact that only one server is accessible makes the decision as to what jobs to work on much easier.

    The Applause: My immediate work-related problems seem to pale into significance compared to some of the other shit you're all going through. The few thoughts I have spare from my immediate predicament are bent in your multiple directions, for whatever that's worth.
    • CommentAuthordnewling
    • CommentTimeApr 3rd 2012
     (10580.28)
    @Roadscum: If you're looking for Easter eggs, it's a pity we couldn't meet up - I could show you how to make them!
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      CommentAuthorLokiZero
    • CommentTimeApr 3rd 2012
     (10580.29)
    1. The Boo: There's a girl out there in the world somewhere that I used to know, haven't seen here in about 9 years now, and she's somehow managed to stay off-grid this whole time, for the most part. She posts a photo on flickr maybe twice a year, and that's all I see of her. I have these spells of nostalgia about her every couple of months, then it goes away. I have to bottle it up inside because I can't talk to anyone about it, especially my wife. I love my wife. 2003 me loves this girl.

    It's stupid, I wish it would go away, but there it is. I've been trying to murder 2003 me for years but the fucker is persistent. It's amazing what a few perfect days can do to the rest of your life.

    2. The Huzzah: I have the next 5 days off of work and I'm going to spend it being creative.

    3. The Applause: I'll get back to you on that one, but you're all awesome!
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    @LokiZero: this?
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      CommentAuthorLokiZero
    • CommentTimeApr 3rd 2012
     (10580.31)
    @Kay yes. that just turned me into a sobbing mess.
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      CommentAuthorLokiZero
    • CommentTimeApr 3rd 2012
     (10580.32)
    Thank you kay.
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    's OK. I tend to feel better when I find a bit of art that encapsulates precisely how amazingly shit I feel. Figured you could use one. The one of his that kills me Every. Single. Damn. Time. is this one because no matter how much better I get, I always feel haunted.

    So hooray! I can join you now.
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      CommentAuthorLokiZero
    • CommentTimeApr 3rd 2012
     (10580.34)
    I actually do feel a lot better, thanks! Well, still shitty, but better. Haunted is exactly what it is.
    • CommentAuthorroadscum
    • CommentTimeApr 4th 2012
     (10580.35)
    @ dnewling: Thank you for your kind offer. I did manage to find a few eggs, there's one here if you'd like to take a look.

    @ LokiZero: By all means remember then, but live now, the world has moved on.
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    Boo: Some rather unpleasant medical treatments for a non-life threatening issue. After said treatment, there's no pain - just plenty of discomfort. GrumbleGrumbleGrumble.

    Huzzah: Birthday gathering for myself at a local pub this Friday will bring together scores of friends from a variety of circles. A grand time shall be had by all. Also, two comics projects rocketing forward - one, a pitch that's being sent out now, and another that will rise to the surface world at the end of May.

    Applause:
    @LokiZero: Sir, when I say that I've been there - believe it. In my case, gal and I broke up in 2000. I even made a couple of extreme attempts at starting over with her, going so far as to move 3k miles at one point. It was only in that last maneuver that I realized she and I were not the same people anymore, and - on a certain level - I was able to let go and move on. Like you, I'm with someone else now that I care for deeply. With fortune and dedication, it might well be the great lasting relationship. That said, this other gal was very likely the love of my life - and an opportunity I let slip away. (Wow! Depressing. Apologies. Your post just kinda dusted all that off for me. Suffice to say that you're not alone, sir. I still dream of this gal from time to time. Used to bum me out. Now, I'm just pleased that I get to see her, even if in a dream reality.)
    • CommentAuthordnewling
    • CommentTimeApr 4th 2012
     (10580.37)
    @Roadscum: Nice photograph, thank you! It looks like that egg came from the moon.
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    Briefly....

    YAY: I'm in my hometown, and it's beautiful, and I've a car to drive, and nature to absorb. I've taken some photographs, too. Also, a new BLU electronic cigarette thing to replace the one that crapped out.

    BOO: Walking dogs daily, with a lack of proper footwear with my joint issues left me in great awful throbbing foot pain. I decided to ignore the headache and terrible walking pain and go out to my favorite graveyard and photograph to distract me from the pain. I did, and I stepped on a nail that went through my boot and into my foot about an inch or so. It really wasn't painful to me, compared to the stabby nerve pains I usually get in my feet, so I just ignored it and continued taking pictures for the afternoon while I still had light. Last night it rained so my head hurt too much to go back out the the ER, and today was too nice to spend all day inside, and now it's nearly dusk, and I'm off to the ER to get a Tetanus Shot, because the muscles of my neck feel like they are starting to fuse.

    APPLESAUCE: Bankara, I find your position enviable, dreadful, and brave.
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      CommentAuthorLokiZero
    • CommentTimeApr 4th 2012
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    Applause: @roadscum for the Dark Tower ref, and everyone else for their helpful words. You guys are great, I need to stop lurking!
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      CommentAuthorFauxhammer
    • CommentTimeApr 5th 2012
     (10580.40)
    Good: I had my review at the office. Glowing, but all they could swing was a 1% raise.

    Bad: Apparently I'm getting paranoiac.I was convinced I was going to get fired, which led to a stupid, crazy train of thought that I couldn't get off.

    Studly: @Rachael: Feeling any better?