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    • CommentTimeApr 6th 2012 edited
    (With apologies to ol' T.S.)

    Hey there!

    I just pre-cached a 10 mile radius around 9th & Hennepin onto my "phone". If I find a girl behind a counter with several tattooed tears, I may die. (Or give her a hundred dollars? WHO KNOWS.)

    What's the haps, chaps?
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    6 months of going to Al-Anon meetings. Fiancee just passed 6 months of sobreity about 2 weeks ago. (I started going to Al-Anon a couple weeks after she checked into rehab) Going to pick up my 6 month chip tomorrow night. Feels good. Haven't found a sponsor yet; I have a hard time trusting people. I really like that she's found a sponsor; she's been a great influence on my fiancee. I'm still getting used to that word. It's been a little over a month since I proposed, and while not much has changed, some things feel different. We've been discussing having a kid (at some point in the future). I never thought I'd get here. Not panicking, but still unsure how to react when things are going good; waiting for something bad to happen, because trouble I can deal with.
    • CommentAuthorSteerpike
    • CommentTimeApr 7th 2012
    Wound up going to the writing workshop at World Horror Con. After another workshop person read my assignment out loud (which I could only see the flaws in) people applauded. Seriously. One guy was nodding his head to part of my description of a place. So maybe I'm not entirely talentless. Now to stay with it.
    • CommentTimeApr 7th 2012
    I had artwork featured on the Suicide Girls Blog, I've lost 5 pounds this week after discovering a salad I can actually be enthusiastic about*, I found an HBO having friend with whom I am now able to watch Game of Thrones as it airs. April feels pretty decent so far!

    * Spinach leaves, broccoli, mushrooms, onions, peas and broiled diced chicken with an herb vinaigrette dressing. It is actually filling. Like, I'm not hungry for a couple of hours after eating it, and it tastes very good!
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    I've been trying to take the outlook that my life is always going to have massive amounts of pain and terribleness, and the best I can do is drown it in so much awesome that I can overlook everything else. These two weeks have been pretty fabulous.

    I am living as upstate NJ as I can, while dogsitting with a car to use for friends on their honeymoon. The daily dogsitting has actually been physically rough on me, but...

    I keep going north for drives and wandering the forest and farmland of the upper parts of Jersey right where New York and Pennsylvania borders meet. (I haven't taken many photographs of the drives, because, well, I've been driving.) Old barns, sloping pastures with hillsides dotted with cows or horses or sheep, winding bendy roads with a speed limit of 35 where everyone zips about going 50, and people so nice and friendly! I'd driven by a farm where two young men were inspecting a roadster from the 30's, I had a staring contest with a Turkey Vulture, I hung out on Sunrise Mountain for the past two nights at dusk, and definitely got my fill of diner time.

    I've successfully drowned the awful. Everything is really awesome at the moment.

    PS. Also! I went to the ER to get a tetanus shot, and I was in and out with a 'script for antibiotics in under an hour and a half. AMAZING!
    • CommentTimeApr 8th 2012
    It doesn't get much viler than this:

    Three in the Sofa
    • CommentAuthorRenThing
    • CommentTimeApr 8th 2012
    An old high school friend of mine and a co-writer on a fiction review blog just stopped by my house because he was in the area and gave me a signed copy of The Essential Clive Barker.
    • CommentAuthorroadscum
    • CommentTimeApr 8th 2012
    I have what may be the makings of a red white and blue camera strap,
    and love fudge. Today was good.
    • CommentTimeApr 8th 2012
    That is one smiling-ass cat.

    Pretty, pretty, good weekend. The UK is basking in two back-to-back public holidays, so it's currently day three of a state-mandated four-day weekend! Friday I slept a lot, read a lot, then went for drinks and a screening of Headhunters with two good, old friends. Yesterday I went to Chiswick to watch the Boat Race with two good, new friends, which consisted of an afternoon drinking in the open air and about thirty seconds of watching burly men boating past. Then we played Scrabble in the pub. (My best word was LIBEL on a double letter and triple word. Boom.) Today I was at the Imperial War Museum Duxford, sketching the hell out of lots of museum-piece aircraft. Lots and lots of aeroplanes. So many. SR-71 is just incredible close up, and they have a experimental test model Concorde open to walk through. So I was on board a Concorde today!

    And tomorrow is another day off!
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    Mixed weekend, slept all of Friday, felt ghastly half of Saturday before remembering I get hayfever (forget every damn year), and the oilseed rape is out, which makes my sinuses go into meltdown. But when I realised, allergy pills sorted it out quite fast...

    Today, my eldest girl was being ganged up on by the younger two, who had cut her out of everything. She's normally pretty immune to this sort of crap, but today she was getting really upset and tearful, so I said 'tell you what, why don't you come down to the study and we'll watch Lord of the Rings together?' Which we did, just the first film, but she really dug it, and made smartarse comments all the way through, and it was the first thing I've done with just her for ages.

    And then I went and planted seeds in the rain. My garden shall be beautiful...
    • CommentAuthoricelandbob
    • CommentTimeApr 9th 2012 edited
    Sitting here with some really good news regarding my NITcasts that i can't divulge for at least another couple of days, but dayum it's really good news.

    also meeting Vertigo Jones and Nigredo on Good Friday. Alas no pics (We were too busy ranting and drinking), but t'was a good session....

    Edit for factual fuck ups...
    • CommentTimeApr 9th 2012
    Finally done on the most disorganised shoot I've been on. I've been outside in the cold every day, today scrambling up Pentland Hills in Edinburgh in the rain and filming a fight scene... Against myself. That was the fun bit, though. And now I'm discussing a sexy double shoot with someone. There are some good ideas in there. Very exciting in so many ways. :D
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    meeting Singularity Jones and Nigredo

    You're confusing my musical alter ego with the magnificent Mr Vertigo Jones... shame I didn't manage to catch you this time you were in town :-(
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    This weekend was amazing. I had the house to myself. I spent the first half of Saturday in the recording studio laying down the last tracks and burning the first demo version of the album I've spent the last 2.5+ years working on. There's already a few things I want to change, but it feels amazing to be able to see the finish line. I then took my acoustic guitar to the beach and practiced some of my new songs and a couple of covers, singing to the ocean, and quite possibly the young couple who came and sat down not too far off for a cuddle. It was cold, so the session didn't last as long as I would have liked, but it felt great. Yesterday I got over 10 pages done in my comic script. Fewer than ten to go and I'm done with all eight issues. First draft, at least. Then it's rewrites and actually stepping up to my novel. I know the general sense of what's going to happen with three parallel, yet very different themed threads. I'm even seeing some of the points where they tie in together. I'm still at the flirting before the first date stage with the project so everything is still sexy.

    Speaking of... my love life is still a shambles, but it's a comical shambles and while she made me feel like the last crash and burn was my fault, the more I think about it, the more I'm convinced her own issues were at the heart of it and she dealt with it poorly, so perhaps I'm better off. Though I'd give her another chance if it came down to that.

    OK, I'm off to take a beating from a customer now. Thank you sir, may I have another!
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    @JP Carpenter....

  7.  (10600.16)
    What an awesome Easter holiday. Started with finishing the IF game and submitting it to Spring Thing 2012 contest, then a day of idling and an evening of friends, Tarkovsky's Solaris, good food and vodka; a Saturday at Hacklab in a smart textiles workshop with cute geek girls, then off to sign the papers for a genre fiction publishing co-op I joined, then to see Hunger Games and off for a great night-long bender with pals old and new; a Sunday with the mother in law visiting and bringing good lamb and other foods; a Monday of high art visiting Amos Anderson art museum's exhibits that were about political art from the 60's and 70's and some weird stuff that hit my urban exploration aesthetic sense pretty spot on. An evening of lazy chatting and gaming online.

    It feels like I had a two week long holiday, although it was only four days. Time well spent ^^
    • CommentAuthorflecky
    • CommentTimeApr 10th 2012
    I know it's not the appropriate place and, for that, I apologize, but...

    I'm in a world of self-pity, despair, anger, irritability and, to be honest, I long to be dead. The only time I feel OK is when I'm asleep and, even if I'm having the worst nightmares on offer, It's preferable to the shit-stink of reality. Truly, I've devolved into a malevolent bastard. I've tried to talk to people but their bullshit just makes my head hurt. When I go to Narcotic Anonymous meetings and I hear light-weight fucks go on about the beauty of life I flinch in horror; but go to them I must, as I can't get better on my own. In my future all I see is bastard withdrawals and chemo to ravage my fucked body to get rid of the hepatitis.

    Still, I've not used, which is the only thing that's keeping me going.

    Sorry about that! As you were, Whitechapel...have a hug on me and enjoy life!
    • CommentTimeApr 11th 2012
    Today a pretty well known artist that I had to study the work of for a class last semester named Laylah Ali came to my college to do an artists talk.

    This morning she did an open critique of the student show, pulling names out of a basket and talking to people about their work. When there was about 15 minutes left, she decided to pick a piece to talk about instead of getting a random name. She wanted to talk about the little intaglio photopolymer comic I did. She said such nice things.

    So, yeah. My day was made.
    • CommentAuthorBankara
    • CommentTimeApr 11th 2012
    @flecky, man there is nothing inappropriate about it. You feel like shit and wanna unload so you don't get loaded then fuck all and give us both barrels, mate! You need a support group outside of NA as well and I don't think anyone here'd deny it to you. You have identified the one bright light in what sounds like a shit-ton of misery and that is that you don't go out and use because as bad as things might feel now you know how truly bad shit can get. I am glad to hear that you care about yourself more than to chuck it in and say "fuck it, not worth it."
    I am sorry to hear that you feel the way you do and I can only hope that you don't still feel that way today. Massive hugs right back at you.
    • CommentTimeApr 12th 2012
    Rain made the world fresh. Cool in the shadows and warm in the sunlight, crystal clear air.

    Lunch, long and heavy, with my dad and niece. We ate our fill and then some and he and I talked about history of all kinds of places. Japan, England, America, Africa, Arabia, Indonesia. It's our thing.

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