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  1.  (10600.21)
    I've had an odd few days. Got involved in a small film project (The Chronicles of Professor Elemental - for the moment, getting a less FB based presence is part of my stuff), and did a good gig... and then ran straight up against the 'casting couch' (the actual, do this and I'll see that, rather than the oppotunistic 'tog sort)... Get to nearly 40 and...

    Still I think I've dealt with it OK for now, and possibly have some good material out of it :-) (so that's the next thing then, getting gigs sorted to do said material at...) I'm itching to do more shoots as well, but not sure how to go about that (pah!)

    Flipside is that I am getting *really* annoyed about living with a whole lot of small(ish) people who aren't dealing well with my working and not being at their beck and call and cleaning up after them... Its nice that they miss me, but I wish they wouldn't make so much *mess*
    • CommentAuthorflecky
    • CommentTimeApr 12th 2012
    @ Bankara: Thanks, mate.

    I managed to get to see a good psychological doctor yesterday and, by spewing all the darkness onto good old paper with pen, I got a bit of perspective on what's going on. Getting there was really hard, as I've become a bit agoraphobic, especially in the area of the city in which I live. Don't get me wrong, it's not the hustle and bustle that freaks me; it's the back streets, where sometimes there are groups of over twenty people waiting for dealers to come and sort them out. For me, I guess, it's like when sober alcoholics have to avoid pubs.

    Anyway, at the moment I'm just really grateful to have a roof over my head and food to eat. Sometimes, it's just the simple things that really matter.
    • CommentAuthorroadscum
    • CommentTimeApr 12th 2012
    Good things that happened to me today: didn't get squashed on the M1 at Milton Keynes this morning. Sometimes the simple things are the only things that matter at all.

    Hang on in there flecky, for what little it's worth, i want you to WIN.
  2.  (10600.24)
    Hey Flecky,

    The other day I was at a meeting for ACOA, and we were talking about how easy it is to get depressed, how many of us, our tendency is to think how things are always going wrong.

    Someone said, "there's always a chance things will go right." Like many things in AA and NA, it's fucking simple, and I kick myself for not seeing those really simple slogans.

    I resisted so much of what these people had to offer, I was telling my girlfriend fiancee that I just see it as another form of brainwashing, and we talked about it, and what we ended up with, is we're already brainwashed, to drink, use, be used, and just like someone getting out of a cult, you gotta get deprogrammed. The only difference is these guys are honest about what they're trying to do. Save your (mine, our) life.

    It's been a hell of a past 6 months for me, and I'm just an enabler. I can't imagine what you're going through brother. But one thing every single one of us here at Whitechapel knows about you, Flecky, is you're a fighter. So keep on fighting, we got your back.
    • CommentTimeApr 12th 2012
    • CommentTimeApr 12th 2012
    We were excused from Japanese class today because at the local university there was a guest lecturer from Japan. He's a producer of anime (and possibly other media like live action movies, but I only caught the anime part) and an avid fan of increasing collaboration between American and Japanese creators. One of the programs he's working on is called Heroman, co-produced with none other than Stan "The Man" Lee.

    I took notes as best as I could but the information came fast and hard and Kaifu-san (our esteemed guest) switched back and forth between Japanese and English, often speaking over his translator. Also, at certain points my brain just latched onto bits of information and wouldn't stop jumping up and down at the implications and possibilities. It seems in 2003 manga started being published for smartphones but was a disappointment, in terms of revenue. That turned around with the iPhone in 07-08. In 2010, with the iPad, manga revenue in digital alone is something like $28million. Not only that but manga grosses in 2010 was in the billions-with-a-B, making it the overwhelming portion of the publishing trade in Japan. Kaifu-san joked (but was half-serious) that if you were a manga/comic book artist and wanted to get published, your best bet was to head to Japan. They'll take your meeting there. Not so much the guys in NYC.

    However, he said, if you want to create animation, your best bet is to head to Burbank, CA. Hollywood is far more willing to produce original animation than the Japanese production firms. In Japan over 80% of all anime is developed from popular manga titles, the other 15% come from other properties including video games and toys. Only 5%, he said, came from original ideas AND that 5% was produced ONLY by NHK (the public station).

    Err... sorry. Info-burp. Loads of tasty, tasty infos swirling through my head. Actually when he started talking about publishing over smartphones and looking at other media for manga and anime I started thinking cross... cross media, cross cultural, cross oceanic.... Wouldn't I just love to design an international game/anime, accessible over smartphone for Japanese and Americans to play/consume ahhh... the possibilities are mind boggling! I wanna! I wanna wanna wanna! I just don't know how. But that's no big. }:>
    • CommentTimeApr 12th 2012
    I got off work three hours early so I could finally send some fucking emails and take a fucking bath and edit some fucking photos that have been continually put off since Sunday. Going home for Easter is great but man am I in a crunch now. This means I can actually spend some time in the backyard tomorrow, maybe, after doing a week-late distribution for the magazine and before going to work again where I will again not be needed because they have again overstaffed. Maybe I will again get off work three hours early and be able to buy some fucking groceries and write a fucking music review or two and do some fucking laundry. Man! Wouldn't that be great!
    • CommentTimeApr 12th 2012 edited
    Soooooooo today was pretty shit. My last job for this week was to write a biography for a client and a press release before I popped off to Chicago. I had two days to complete it, so piece of cake!

    Then my computer had a meltdown and the files got corrupted. Today. At 1pm.

    So at 10:45 in the fucking night I leave the office, confident that my client's biography is good and won't be fucked with too much in the boss' edits. As for the release...I was waiting for some quotes from some industry execs, but those fell through so I don't have to worry about it. But I leave angry, a little crazy and exhausted. So of course, I go to a pub (Thirsty & Miserable) where the owner gives me this:

    After one of those, a Rochefort #8 a Sawdust City Lone Pine IPA and some geeky conversations with the locals of the bar, I'm feeling a bit better about things.

    And tomorrow is Chicago. Six days with the boy mostly to myself. I'm starting to feel good.
    • CommentAuthorflecky
    • CommentTimeApr 13th 2012
    @ roadscum and government spy: Thank you. What you said makes total sense and it actual gave me the drive to go to a local meeting today and open my mouth about what I'm going through.

    I spoke to a lad about the whole deprogramming thing, too. I've been doing that a lot over the past year; trying not to act impulsively on the way I feel and not letting the utter madness of desire control how I behave. Listening to all that crap was what, inevitably, caused me to fuck up.

    Anyway, my brain is so filthy it needs more than a good washing!

    Hugs to you all!
    • CommentAuthoricelandbob
    • CommentTimeApr 13th 2012
    Remeber a few days ago i said that i had some importnat news,but couldn't share it with you??

    Well now i can!

    you know those mixes that i do? The ones that drive Oldhat, Texture and several others up the wall? Well my latest mix, (titled THE ATEMPORAL DEATHLINE) will be aired TONIGHT at 8pm GMT on London's Resonance 104.4 FM. This si thanks to Mr Jonny mugwump of the Exotic pylon who deemed them worthy of transmission.

    I seriously suggest you listen to the bloody thing. I know all your IP addresses. 5 proxies be damned!!
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    • CommentTimeApr 13th 2012 edited
    @ Bob-I will be trying it out on my coffeeshop full of stoners this evening.
  3.  (10600.33)
    @ flecky - This may sound mad, but I suggest sun and dirt. I've been dogsitting for friends in the country, and while my joints and feet are in significant fucking pain and I hurt like hell and I've overworked myself and now have a virus, taking these two beasts for a 25 minute walk 2-3 times a day, smelling nature, feeling the warm rays on my skin, mentally I feel FABULOUS. I've hardly been smoking, my compulsive eating is something I'm recognizing and fighting, and I'm started attacking that pile of bills and doctor appointments and social services stuff I've been meaning to get to. I am getting high from nature, dammit! And it's great!

    My friend, home from her trip, has given me a pair of running sneakers too small for her (which actually aren't UGLY!), and my feet feel far less achey. I am virusy ill and my remaining tonsils parts ache terribly, but I get to be sick sitting on a deck in the sunshine listening to birds, windchimes, and the odd circular saw grinding away in the hills somewhere.

    Also, I've been taking and uploading photographs.
    • CommentAuthorflecky
    • CommentTimeApr 13th 2012
    @ Rachael: I'm glad you've been getting buzzed-up on nature. Good on you!

    Nope, it doesn't sound mad at all. It sounds bloody lovely!
    • CommentTimeApr 13th 2012
    So. I sent the boy-cat to live with my parents because he was miserable and meowly and door-scratchy and keeping-me-awakey. The girl-cat and I are getting along fine. She wakes me up by curling up by my face and purring. She cuddles the brush. She is happy. This is good.

    I am also really enjoying my boss's continually devolving FB page comments. He and his sisters are re-hashing and making even less sensical the plot to Days of Our Lives.

    Also, I think I might write something soon. Not sure. Feels like there's that itch, you know?
  4.  (10600.36)
    I am so happy I could squeal!

    I'm moving tomorrow (to Astoria, for any NYers that are familiar) and I couldn't be happier. Hopefully my roommates won't turn out to be tyranical, crazy assholes.

    I also interviewed for a job today, which I seem very qualified for. If I get it, I'm going to leave my minimum-wage-paying, soul-sucking job behind and say "Suck it!"
    • CommentTimeApr 13th 2012
    @ bob- cheers for the mix there. I think it went down well with the punters!
    • CommentAuthorDarkest
    • CommentTimeApr 14th 2012 edited
    Long time no see Whitechapel. This isn't my first abcense and probably won't be my last. Mostly due to work (Which I will tell you about in a sec) and the fact that my laptop's motherboard blew and so I'm between machines and sharing with my mum and brother.

    Running a comic shop is awesome! I will pay myself and my brother for the first time soon and the sun is up and 6music is on the radio so generally life is good even if I can't afford to move out anytime soon.

    I have startd running again after the longest time and decaying wellbeing and a lowgrade downer and self doubt.

    On the 21st April we will be having our first big event handing over our savings for Help the Heroes (we had some comis donated and we've been putting the money from the sales aside).

    I have been handling comics older than I am by four years, which is awe inspiring. Especially Jamie Delano's run on Hellblazer which leads to this next bit...

    Turns out Jamie Delano's a local (Northampton same as Alan Moore) and we've convinced him to drop by and he's willing to do a signing. JAMIE DELANO! I guess I'll let you guys know when that is.

    In short things are pretty bloody good at Niche Comics.

    Sorry about the lack of order I'm just so glad and stuf.
    • CommentTimeApr 14th 2012
    We've arrived in Chicago. <3
  5.  (10600.40)
    I've just been told that the 7-11 that recently opened on St Marks Place has been attacked by a mob and the windows smashed in. This is awesome, and gives me hope.

    Also, I smell like puppy pee. This sounds rather negative, except for the fact that Iv'e been hanging out with a 3 month old puppy my friends have just adopted, and she's fucking adorable.

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