2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/ Lussumo Vanilla & Feed Publisher http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332057#Comment_332057 2012-05-18T05:05:08-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 Horrible Warning Si http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1223

A short DO WHAT THOU WILT SHALL BE THE WHOLE OF THE LAW affair, before the regular three-act speakeasy thread returns. Possibly 24 hours. More likely "when I've sobered-up enough to remember ...

Possibly 24 hours. More likely "when I've sobered-up enough to remember to take it down."

#conventionweekend]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332063#Comment_332063 2012-05-18T06:18:55-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 Vornaskotti http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=6665

Fuck this day and the horse it rode in on. That is all.

]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332064#Comment_332064 2012-05-18T06:18:56-07:00 2012-05-18T06:19:19-07:00 Vornaskotti http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=6665

Also, fuck double postings because the browser hiccups.

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332065#Comment_332065 2012-05-18T06:27:07-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 Fauxhammer http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=27

I haven't shat solid in four days, thanks to this sertraline. I'd better be mellow as FUCK That and I'm waiting to see the Weaponizer mag. I must master bating breath.

I'd better be mellow as FUCK

That and I'm waiting to see the Weaponizer mag. I must master bating breath.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332067#Comment_332067 2012-05-18T06:32:42-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 Flabyo http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1306

Another false fire alarm from the vets under my flat earlier in the week. 4am this time. Didn't call the fire brigade out this time though, just had a good nosy through all the windows, waited half ...

Asked them to get it properly sorted this time or it's legal options time. Also sent them my concerns via email to have a written record of the complaint.

I hope they sort it. They're really nice people that work in there and it's not really any fault of theirs that the engineer they had out clearly didn't find and fix the fault from last time. Don't want to have to get environmental health involved but I don't think I have a choice if it goes off again.

And because my brain suffers really badly from getting audio caught in it's loop, I didn't get much sleep the night after either as I kept 'hearing' it going off even though it wasn't.

Bah.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332068#Comment_332068 2012-05-18T06:50:17-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 atavistian http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=6519

Iraq/Afghanistian vet friend of mine just asked me to teach him how to meditate and help him write poetry. Feel honored. Also worry I'm not up to the task. Need whisky.

Feel honored. Also worry I'm not up to the task.

Need whisky.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332069#Comment_332069 2012-05-18T07:15:48-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 badbear http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1879

There is no point getting all riled up when someone acts totally true to nature and does something predictably annoying. This is my lesson of the day. I found out last weekend that a very old ...

I found out last weekend that a very old friend of mine tried to kill herself and tried very seriously to do so and for one reason or another my other friends didn't tell me until now. So I've got that graphic image rolling around in my head uselessly. Is she fine now? Yes. Can I do anything to help? No because it's too fucking late for that anyway and you can't fix life itself. So I feel like kind of an arsehole for the whole thing even though I didn't know and even though I couldn't have changed a fucking thing about it anyway.

Gods. I can't wait to get fucking hammered this weekend.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332080#Comment_332080 2012-05-18T08:57:34-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 curb http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1334

This working week, there have been far too many occasions when I would have been well within my rights to end conversations with the words "there's no need to be a Prick about it". Just a ...

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332083#Comment_332083 2012-05-18T09:38:00-07:00 2012-05-18T09:38:30-07:00 oldhat http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=75

Been feeling pretty lonely for the last little bit, since most of the people I want to hang out and do stuff with are in a relationship (and are thus occupied or complete tools), working to the point ...

Good things happening though:

- I joined a group that does active and awesome things and has people I know it it.

- Picked up a 6 pack of Tempest Imperial Stout, a one-off from Amsterdam brewery that I first had on cask last year and it blew me away. Also, for a future Thirsty Wench post I want to talk about aging beers and think that a couple of bottles of that, along with a few others that Alan might be able to smuggle to America for me (Goose Island's Matilda, which can age for 5 years and Dogfish Head's World Wide Stout). Anyways, I went to the brewery and asked the guy at the store how long the beer could be aged for. He didn't know, so he went to get the guy who FORMULATED THE RECIPE AND BREWED IT, who was a nice guy and, it turned out, is a reader of my site. We talked beer for a bit and in the end he gave me an extra bottle of Tempest that had been aged for a year (a six pack came with one free one) so that I was able to do an immediate comparison of this year's and last year's batch as well as age a bottle. Turns out the beers can be aged for up to three years, so...bitchin'. But yeah, meeting a brewer and finding out they're a reader makes me feel like I'm doing something right.

- Weight is being lost bit by bit. 5 more pounds and I feel somewhat normal and then work towards losing more. Regardless, I'm impressed with how toned I more or less am. Despite being 10lbs heavier than I was last year, I fit in to a shirt that I was unable to fit in to. Still pudge there, but it's TONED pudge, so...yay?]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332087#Comment_332087 2012-05-18T10:17:57-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 Corey Waits http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=453

My grandpa just had a colonoscopy and they found a tumour. Waiting on results from a CT scan to know more. The bit that pushes it into 'Can't Fucking Cope Right Now' territory is the fact that his ...

The bit that pushes it into 'Can't Fucking Cope Right Now' territory is the fact that his wife died in the past few weeks of lung cancer. Mum is simply not coping, and I'm half a world away, feeling totally fucking useless.

So, doing my best to not think about it until the results are in.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332088#Comment_332088 2012-05-18T10:21:47-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 glukkake http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1693

I've been having a rough week. Quite honestly, been having a rough six months. Things I've kept nicely repressed save for the darkest of hours of drinking have been coming back up and don't want to ...

Never had success with therapy, have little interest in it. I talk to one friend only who knows most of the story. I'm otherwise fine except that walking down certain streets, hearing certain names and when a magical combination of events merge I'll just break down for a week or few. Grah.

But otherwise I'm having a decently good time. Finally answered all the emails in my inbox that were weeks overdue, had an amazing party on Monday night, have a really awesome event tonight to run and have gotten the kindest outpouring of messages from people all today.

Plus I ordered myself about $90 of specialty pens and pencils. Fuck yea.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332109#Comment_332109 2012-05-18T15:28:25-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 brittanica http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2296

Uuuuuuuuugh. I hate work and the fucking assholes who order cakes last minute and then bitch when they're not PERFECT and the fucking baker who whistles the verse to Yellow Submarine over and over ...

*breathes*
I got sausage cheese balls in the oven. We're going over to our friends later to watch Supernatural. I bought Kimono My House by Sparks yesterday and spend my entire drive to work playing "This Town Ain't Big Enough For the Both of Us" and "Amateur Hour" over and over; goddamn, those songs are awesome.

Things could be worse.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332111#Comment_332111 2012-05-18T16:04:30-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 razrangel http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2075

Ugh some real problems and Hard Things upthread. I'm stressed but it doesn't seem like a worthy thing to mention. And yet. Firstly, Vorn, *hug* and I hope the day ends up an up note, & the ...

*hug*hug*hug all you people... and Atavastian - yeah that is quite an honor. I wish you well.

Me... originally I would have hung out until it was time to go to a one time nightclub being held tonight at a banquet room in a hotel outside Disneyland David J - David-fucking-J-of-the-fucking-Bahaus - is spinning. I bought my ticket a while ago... but. Stuff. Have to go to rehearsal. And rehearsal is also getting in the way of attending my friend John's Burningman style memorial. I'm missing a New Orleans style funerary parade with stilt walkers, fire eaters, the whole nine.

Have to load up my truck for rehearsal. Have to plan out a few days in advance for eating and sleeping. I have less than a quarter tank of gas. Enough to get my to LA, not so sure about getting back. Wish to God I didn't drive a gas guzzler. But I have no alternative. I have about $10 in the bank. All told I might be able to limp home with that, tomorrow night. We'll see. Trying not to stress over. It's not that big of a deal. Utterly survivable.

Just tired. That kind of spiritual drain that makes me want to hide in my room watching anime all weekend. Hey, I've been catching up on Naruto...some good stuff happening since the new year, reaffirming how much I like the show. But looks like I have to set aside my inner 12year old for a little while. *stress..*]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332112#Comment_332112 2012-05-18T16:08:49-07:00 2012-05-18T16:28:48-07:00 RobSpalding http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=647

6 weeks ago I had the tribunal to contest the Work Capability Assessment over my fitness to work. Yesterday I got a form telling me it was time to start again. 6 FUCKING WEEKS! Like my continual, ...

Yesterday I got a form telling me it was time to start again.
6 FUCKING WEEKS! Like my continual, chronic issue will have changed in that tiny time. Plus, the last report contained outright lies about my life.
Fuck them all, everyone who works at ATOS.

EDIT - No, can't leave that there after Corey's post. I feel terrible he might have seen it.
I hope your Granddad pulls through.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332115#Comment_332115 2012-05-18T16:35:40-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 NickDonald http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=7215

What a miserable fucking lot we've chosen to be. Well, smash your morose faces up against this: I turned 37 last Sunday (the 13th) and got one of these and I couldn't be happier: Fully ...

Well, smash your morose faces up against this:

I turned 37 last Sunday (the 13th) and got one of these and I couldn't be happier:



Fully automatic, tripod mounted, belt-fed with 50 rounds. I've dug in on the high ground and have a shit load of ammo. You pathetic fools don't stand a chance. Bow before your new leader!

Now... Tower assault and take my flag. I dare you.

My life is that good now - thank you plastic gun!]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332117#Comment_332117 2012-05-18T18:41:11-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 hec http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=9790

I had a weird day. I met one of the students in my class to help him write a letter (I'm SEN support in an English language class, but I know everyone vaguely) and felt horribly useless on the bus ...

Having a bloody nightmare ordering a Wacom tablet, I went to the bank to do a transfer today because their online system keeps giving me errors but didn't have enough cash in my account to pay the transfer fees. But then I spent £3 on pens + paper which cheered me up. I have two OU assignments to finish, and I still need to book blood tests for glandular fever. Currently indecisive about further study options (I have a month to figure it out and sort the money) but tomorrow afternoon I'm ignoring the situation and getting a lift to the tip. Trying to strike a balance between resting and ruthlessly cleaning.

Plus side: I met an old teacher on the bus this morning which I think cheered us both up, the aforementioned student bought me a lovely lunch because I didn't want to take money, and I have a Netflix trial that'll keep me occupied until I can go to sleep. I hope that'll be soon.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332142#Comment_332142 2012-05-19T04:29:36-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 texture http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1472

What's so fucking great about guitars anyway, that's what I want to know.

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332151#Comment_332151 2012-05-19T06:41:42-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 munin218 http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=246

I HATE MY JOB. VERY, VERY MUCH. Idiots and crazy people SCREAM at me all day. I am underpaid (many colleagues are paid 2-5 dollars an hour more), I am STRESSED OUT, and I can't seem to get another ...

Its gotten to the point that I am now medicated and talking to a shrink.

I HATE MY JOB.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332161#Comment_332161 2012-05-19T10:46:17-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 JP Carpenter http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2485

Unusually, I don't have a lot of bile to cannon. I mean, obviously, the world's an evil, fucked up place, ruled by liars and charlatans and filled with misery and squalor, poverty and death - ...

But my little speck isn't too bad. Got paid my annual bonus, which allows me to pay my partner back for the boiler and clear one of my credit cards. The smallest one, mind, but baby steps... and stops me feeling like I've got my own personal Greece going on. I had to resist the temptation to say 'fuck the credit cards' and run down to the music store and buy a Johnny Marr Signature Jaguar, and that was damn hard, but that's a first world problem.

The garden is a mess - can't cut it as it's too wet, most of the seeds I put in seem to have rotted due to the obscene weather, and what hasn't rotted the bastard wildlife has fucked up. Found all my radishes dug up this morning, god knows what variety of varmint did that. And the slugs have destroyed pretty much everything else despite a carpet bombing of slug pellets. Even where I've tried to keep things safe in seed trays.

Partner seems fairly happy, if sick a lot of the time. Kids - both elder girls being picked on a bit, which hurts - proud of my eldest though, she doesn't put up with shit, she winds the bastards up back and doesn't roll over, doesn't make her many friends but she won't take injustice. I like that, she gets it from me.

Work's been bloody busy, but I've got through it without emotional collapse and kept my sense of humour going.

And now I have cider, and guitars, and the night.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332179#Comment_332179 2012-05-19T14:50:36-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 nigredo http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2373

Guitars rewl

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332185#Comment_332185 2012-05-19T17:17:15-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 RenThing http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=155

Fuck death. Last weekend brought two deaths, one unexpected (heart attack or aneurism) and another that wasn't expected but not a surprise (fast acting pancreatic cancer). This weekend I just ...

Last weekend brought two deaths, one unexpected (heart attack or aneurism) and another that wasn't expected but not a surprise (fast acting pancreatic cancer).

This weekend I just found out one of the very loved members of my cast passed away. No details but it's hitting me hard. Hers was one of the first classes I took when I joined up with our event and she had been with us for so long she was a god damn institution.

Fuck death, right in its stupid ear.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332186#Comment_332186 2012-05-19T17:29:37-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 Rootfireember http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1551

Survived my birthday, and the knitting event mom dragged me to without having a major meltdown, though there was a massive amount of anxiety, and dizziness either due to new meds, or utter anxiety ...

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332190#Comment_332190 2012-05-19T19:46:14-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 allana http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=4019

At work. Bored. Common story. It was slow when I started, which was a nice way to train and settle in, but it has yet to improve, even with the good weather. Coworkers are getting stressed and the ...

Can't find a second job because the students took 'em all, and I don't want to lie my way into a permanent-ish job if I'm leaving at the end of the summer. Money's cool, but I need something to fall back on / a place less obnoxious / a place to transfer to, because I hate getting stagnant in less-than-amazing situations.
That said, my boss asked me yesterday to start bringing in a few bands and putting on shows. So that might be fun, although I warned him about how noisy my choices would be.

Otherwise, I spend all my mornings in the backyard working on the garden, or shopping, or tanning, or drinking. So that's been cool.

(Haha, as I was writing this my boss came up to me and told me he'd spent the last hour downstairs crying. Did I mention stress and melodrama?)]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332200#Comment_332200 2012-05-20T03:32:27-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 Osmosis http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=866

stagnant in less-than-amazing situationspretty much sums me up! But I am a) applying for new jobs b) applying for new flats c) making new friends. Lesson: if combined with energy, dissatisfaction ...

stagnant in less-than-amazing situationspretty much sums me up! But I am a) applying for new jobs b) applying for new flats c) making new friends. Lesson: if combined with energy, dissatisfaction is good!]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10671&Focus=332201#Comment_332201 2012-05-20T03:59:42-07:00 2013-05-18T06:42:09-07:00 Horrible Warning Si http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1223

E NUFF!

NUFF!]]>