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    • CommentAuthorRenThing
    • CommentTimeMay 19th 2012
    Fuck death.

    Last weekend brought two deaths, one unexpected (heart attack or aneurism) and another that wasn't expected but not a surprise (fast acting pancreatic cancer).

    This weekend I just found out one of the very loved members of my cast passed away. No details but it's hitting me hard. Hers was one of the first classes I took when I joined up with our event and she had been with us for so long she was a god damn institution.

    Fuck death, right in its stupid ear.
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    Survived my birthday, and the knitting event mom dragged me to without having a major meltdown, though there was a massive amount of anxiety, and dizziness either due to new meds, or utter anxiety (I did not fall off my chair though). Got my mom and step-grandad's approval of the parents of future hypothetical dog, and a chunk of the service dog paperwork done for my therapist and doctor, though it's not due for a while. I feel utterly exhausted, and my mind's more than a bit scattered tonight, but I have survived today.
    • CommentTimeMay 19th 2012
    At work. Bored. Common story. It was slow when I started, which was a nice way to train and settle in, but it has yet to improve, even with the good weather. Coworkers are getting stressed and the melodrama/gossip-mill is miraculously even worse than usual.
    Can't find a second job because the students took 'em all, and I don't want to lie my way into a permanent-ish job if I'm leaving at the end of the summer. Money's cool, but I need something to fall back on / a place less obnoxious / a place to transfer to, because I hate getting stagnant in less-than-amazing situations.
    That said, my boss asked me yesterday to start bringing in a few bands and putting on shows. So that might be fun, although I warned him about how noisy my choices would be.

    Otherwise, I spend all my mornings in the backyard working on the garden, or shopping, or tanning, or drinking. So that's been cool.

    (Haha, as I was writing this my boss came up to me and told me he'd spent the last hour downstairs crying. Did I mention stress and melodrama?)
    • CommentTimeMay 20th 2012
    stagnant in less-than-amazing situations
    pretty much sums me up! But I am a) applying for new jobs b) applying for new flats c) making new friends. Lesson: if combined with energy, dissatisfaction is good!
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