2013-06-19T04:39:12-07:00 http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/ Lussumo Vanilla & Feed Publisher http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10746&Focus=335715#Comment_335715 2012-07-03T17:09:12-07:00 2012-07-03T22:19:38-07:00 Rootfireember http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1551

I've never much been one for hope. It's something I've usually found too fragile to hold on too, too easily dashed by the recklessness of others (well-meaning or not). It's easier to be wary, to ...

But it seems like this service dog thing might be real; and the hole in my heart that was made when my boy Hunter died, might find someone new to settle down into that patch of my life, so I won't be so alone, and at the mercy of the whims of my mind's illness, or the side-effects of my medication (which hunter did not know how to do. He was a good dog, but a couch potato).

I don't think it's real hope. Not the butterflies-and-rainbows type; but something borne out of need. I have to believe that someday this dog will exist and will be waiting for me, because the alternate is an unthinkable horror;-decreased skills in dealing with the world and increased dependence on increasingly dangerous medications.

I'm nowhere near my goal; but I'm closer to it than when I started; and have found the internet has been supportive and helpful, and understanding whereas my own family has had trouble understanding the concept of a service dog for something other than mobility and a pet (But they are slowly getting around that).]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=10746&Focus=338804#Comment_338804 2012-08-20T10:14:38-07:00 2013-06-19T04:39:12-07:00 Rootfireember http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1551

Almost enough money to put down on a puppy *fingers crossed*.