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      CommentAuthorrazrangel
    • CommentTimeJul 27th 2012
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    Finally got see my best friend after a few months. Got a couple extra friends as superawesomeyummy icing on top. too, too long.

    YAY FRIENDS
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    Okay, this was new.

    My life has been sort of intense and complicated for quite some time and I'm pretty much habituated to constant stress and activity so that nothing happening scares me. I haven't been in financial trouble, but my finances have been Interesting, with running a company, doing jobs here and there, etc. For the last three years there's been a dip in the overall income and this has forced me into a very fucking annoying game of three card monte that has been gnawing my ass all the while, since because of circumstances I haven't been able to just Arrange It Away before this. So, I finally had enough brain energy to hit Excel and generally just Take Care of Business. I just managed to do that, stepped out, there was a flood of relief and the weirdest thing: it felt like something inside relaxed, and it was suddenly physically easier to breathe. O_o And I hadn't noticed it being exceptionally hard before, but wow. I certainly don't hate the feel of this.

    Body-mind interaction. Not just fluffy new-age stuff.
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    @Vornaskotti - good on you; I guess I should do something similar. My finances are like pumping up a punctured air bed, money goes out faster than it comes in...

    I'm in the garden, with the last of the sun, and a pint of cider, having criminally wasted today. Eldest daughter is off having an MRI scan, she's been a lab rat since birth, as my partner signed up to the Southampton Women's Survey - a long term study project about the effect of diet in pregnancy, she goes off for scans and tests every year. I wanted to have a T-shirt made with her skeleton on it, like Nigel Tufnel in Spinal Tap, but we haven't had a clear enough picture come back for that.

    Am pretty chilled this week, last year's holiday was a disaster, as I was coming to the 'go splat' point of a long depression and couldn't relax at all. This time, I've been too far in the other direction, so laid back I can hardly move - didn't get up until 1pm today. Then on Sunday we're off to Wales for a week. First proper holiday for three years. Should be nice.

    @Razrangel - YAY FRIENDS
    • CommentAuthorflecky
    • CommentTimeJul 27th 2012
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    @JP - Have a good holiday, lad.

    Instead of throwing cups of it around, I've decided to drink some coffee - with cigarettes, music and a comic. That, and the awful-and-sad knowledge that I have the secret weapon of masturbation to employ to destroy reality whenever shit gets weird, are reasons enough to sneer at existence.

    I'm meant to be sharing a room in rehab - with a male of the species. Maybe if I tell them I'm a bisexual serial killer (who only sleeps in a leap-year), they'll give me a hammock. In a hut. In a tree.

    *sigh* Probably not!
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      CommentAuthorAlan Tyson
    • CommentTimeJul 28th 2012
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    @flecky: Yeah, but, what do you do if his eyes light up and he goes "Oh man, you too?!"
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      CommentAuthorVornaskotti
    • CommentTimeJul 28th 2012 edited
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    Okay, I'm... I don't know, I'll just leave this here:

    "Okay, I'm not really sure if this is a new high or a new low. Hangoverish and in a supremely weird mood, just remembered that back at the time I used to train ventriloquism for over a year, and totally forgot about it, so I just walked around the apartment trying to project my voice. Aaaaaand managed to startle myself, spent a few seconds staring at a juice box with "wtf, did that thing just say something". Yeah. How much of a retard do you have to be to be able to startle yourself by saying something :D"

    Well, made my day. :D
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      CommentAuthorPaul Sizer
    • CommentTimeJul 29th 2012
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    My wife took MVP Blocker in her derby bout last night. Why? Cuz she's a fucking badass, that's why!
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      CommentAuthoroldhat
    • CommentTimeJul 30th 2012
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    • CommentAuthorflecky
    • CommentTimeJul 31st 2012
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    Damn - I'm pushing myself like a motherfucker at the moment. Doing at least one meeting a day, helping to set them up and putting the literature out, reading it, sharing the best I can, walking miles and miles etc. I had one of them moments of clarity yesterday - an epiphany, a sort of spiritual wake-up where you see other peoples sickness and denial for what it really is and then realize your getting a bit better. I feel like I'm on my own version of a pilgrimage, a walkabout .

    Fookin' Kung Fu! Hippy bastard!

    When I isolate and think about my life...it's shit! But if I actually look at it, it's much better than it used to be. Lots better, really.
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    I mentioned my brain strife over on the open mic.... but um, so yesterday was bad. And I was all in my head and sad. And so the lovely fellow I'm sharing bodily fluids with came by unannounced just to cheer me up. And brought roses.

    Yay!
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      CommentAuthoroldhat
    • CommentTimeAug 1st 2012 edited
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    HIV test came back negative, surprising no one. But it was good to get that done and know FOR SURE.

    And while I can't prove that a deranged hobo ISN'T breaking in to my house and injecting me with blood while I sleep, I CAN prove that he isn't injecting me with HIV positive blood. So, THERE'S THAT.
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      CommentAuthorAlan Tyson
    • CommentTimeAug 1st 2012
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    Yay!

    Incidentally, that's good blood you're getting. You should appreciate that blood. Whatever stealthy, smooth dude who is totally not a hobo he's just between jobs right now probably works really hard to steal that blood from old people who when you think about it don't even need it anymore.
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    And he could be selling that blood, and making good money, but no, he likes you so much he's just giving it to you, free of charge! And do you have any idea how hard it is to inject blood in the veins between your little toe and second littlest toe while your sleeping without waking you up? Damn hard let me tell you!
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      CommentAuthorallana
    • CommentTimeAug 1st 2012
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    At the very least, you could leave out some cookies for the poor guy.
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    Been a roller coaster week as my little boy Charlie was born on Monday morning, a couple of weeks early but a healthy 7lb2. Nothing really prepared me for what an emotional battering spawning is; to see this thing that you've felt kick you through a layer of skin for the past few months lying on a blanket squawking at you, totally reliant on you both. Seems to have triggered some weird dust allergy where I get something in my eye doing the most mundane things like shopping or walking down the street...
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      CommentAuthorallana
    • CommentTimeAug 1st 2012
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    In other news, someone bought a digital download of one of my photographs this morning. I am, now, officially, a paid photographer. Only $98 more in sales before I can request a payout! Yay!
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    At the office I intern at, we received a lot of tickets to go see the President speak at Rollins College, and I got one! It was probably the most surreal, oddest thing that happened in my life. Part of it was rock show, part of it was black church, mostly mixed with patriotism.
    I also found out that I'm the first of my family to see a sitting President speak! I also found that I'm actually proud to be an American for once!
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      CommentAuthoroldhat
    • CommentTimeAug 3rd 2012
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    You're right guys, I've not shown my gratitude enough. I'll leave out some cookies for him tomorrow night.
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      CommentAuthoroddbill
    • CommentTimeAug 3rd 2012
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    No cookies. Blood Fairy wants meat.
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      CommentAuthoroldhat
    • CommentTimeAug 3rd 2012
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    Meat cookies?

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