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      CommentAuthorrazrangel
    • CommentTimeFeb 28th 2013
     (11003.1)
    YEah yeah resolutions are for New Years, to be forgotten within the first week of January.

    But! this year we're trying something different. This time we are - or I am, at any rate - going to check in and stay honest about how this shit is or isn't getting done. The only way to hack a life is to just fucking do it. So ...here goes.

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    Fought for my shit this month. I didn't get most of what I wanted done, but I put at least a tiny bit of effort into the majority of days. (Leaving a minority of days when I barely made it out of bed. *heaves a sigh* I'm actually relieved that the number is getting smaller.)

    I may have lost a couple of pounds. My eight year old scale makes it hard to tell. But I did get to exercise twice as much as last month.

    Reduced some of my fast food habit but haven't zeroed it out yet. Ugh. The worst thing is knowing that shit is shit. It doesn't even taste good. But I get so careless that I'm out and about and allow myself to get hungry when there aren't any better options. I need to let myself be comfortable again with just and edge of less than fully satisfied. I used to be able to do it and felt strong and good.

    Anyway, read out loud a little more but that's almost it. I haven't pushed much of anything toward professional voice work. A little bit of poking at finances but I'm practically laying down on the job.

    Next to no Japanese practice. I really need to get a penpal.
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    Refreshers: New Year's Wishes
    Month 1 Check-in
    • CommentAuthorArgos
    • CommentTimeFeb 28th 2013
     (11003.2)
    Survive Wedding Planning Almost there! I just have to finish some origami flowers for the favors, and make my bouquet, the bouquets for the flower girls, and some boutonnieres. I also have to finish the centerpieces but I can't make those til next week or the few real flowers I'll be using will get gross. We've finished paying off all of our vendor balances, just wrote the ceremony script last night, and got our final guest count in. Shit is getting real. Like, REALLY real.

    Pick an artistic skill and work on it. Uh, I've been procrastinating on my wedding origami. But, with a week left for the wedding, that should be changing within the next few days >___>

    Get back to working out once wedding is over. On hold.

    Find a job Still on hold due to wedding since I can handle only so much at once. I did start volunteering at the aquarium again, so it'll be nice to be update my resume to include a current gig, rather than having this 1 year gap, even though it's just a 1x/week volunteer job. I overheard the aquarists talking about needing to hire someone in the nearish future since one of them will be retiring, so uh, I'm gonna see if I can jump on that without being too pushy about it. I'm still getting the hang of the whole "being assertive" thing. Every time I try I feel like a pretentious jerk.

    @Raz: I do that all time, too, where I let myself get too hungry and I just have to eat and all there is around is shit food. I find it helps to make my own lunches or at least carry apples around to hold me over while I get somewhere with healtiher food.
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    1. Get better at drawing full scenes, from various different angles.

    I'm working my way through these books, and recently drew an assignment scene from one of them that looks pretty good, honestly. Nothing to get excited about, but it's a relief that the thing is not as insurmountable as I feared. I'm learning a lot and working hard, and am kind of proud of myself.

    2. Succeed at making drawn characters look the age they're supposed to be.

    On pause while I work on scenery and framing. To be addressed soon, though.

    3. Reach target weight (this is the one I failed at last year) and get blood pressure in control.

    I lost one pound this month. Slowly but surely? The blood pressure is swinging up and down pretty wildly lately. And of course it was perfect, 110/70, when I went to the doctor to talk about it, so I had a hard time conveying my concern to him. The next week it was 135/96, and then 110/75 the week after that. WTF.

    4. Plan my website for selling prints.

    ...I'm still trying to think of a name for my store. That's serious business.

    5. Learn to drive, get my driver's licence.

    Putting it off, because I'm a coward, for a thousand reasons that make lots of sense, really.


    @razrangel - Thanks for keeping this going - coming back to our goals once a month was a brilliant plan of yours.
    @Argos - I totally understand the assertive problems, and want to encourage you to go for it. Better to feel a little pretentious and have a chance for the job you want, than to wonder if you should've asked, yeah?
    • CommentAuthorArgos
    • CommentTimeMar 1st 2013
     (11003.4)
    Definitely! I just gotta work myself to actually do it, but I *really* don't want to miss out on this one because it'd be a job I really love if I got it.
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      CommentAuthoroldhat
    • CommentTimeMar 1st 2013
     (11003.5)
    1. Write the Beer Appreciation book. - Have had no time. Work has been all-consuming.
    2. Lose weight by April. - Sort of floating around the 10lb mark, but it's getting there. I bought a new pair of shoes this week and am starting to run again.
    3. Use the slowcooker more. - Still on hold as my slowcooker actually broke.
    4. Make beer. - One more week until it should be good to drink!
    5. Get a part time job. - Nope. Again, current job is all-consuming.
    6. Continue to be there for certain people. - Trying best I can.
    7. When growing season hits, ROCK THAT GARDEN. - Not growing season yet, but I'll be preordering Cascade hop rhizomes soon.
    8. Done
    9. Try and get out a bit more. - Bit by bit, I suppose.
    10. Look in to what is needed to start a bar. - On hold.
    11. Drinking. We're cutting that down significantly. - Doing well with that.
    12. Counselling. Get it. Sort that fucking head out. - Not happening. I just can't get the time off work.
    13. Be as awesome, strong and amazing as you know you are. See yourself as others, especially POS, see you. - Yeah, not yet.
    14. Keep doing Thirsty Wench stuff. - Just got hired to do a tasting for a fundraiser so...yeah, that's going well.
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      CommentAuthorglukkake
    • CommentTimeMar 1st 2013
     (11003.6)
    1) Cut Away the Dead Weight - Dead weights have been cut down as much as I think I can. I'm fairly streamlined now

    2) My Own Projects - I lost most of this month to being sick over and over and to mourning hard for a friend who died. I did, however, finish 99% of a book of illustrations and even snuck in a poster illustration for a friend's party. I'm still figuring out how I want to release the book - presale myself, Kickstarter presell it, shop it around to publishers, or just release all the images over time as prints and move on from it.

    3) Stop Being Behind the Scenes - I am officially set for being a guest speaker at a NYU grad school program for my work with Sketchys. My friend who promoted my poster illustration for her accidentally linked to the wrong website (d'oh!). I went out and helped at a live print gig with my Print Lab. But mostly suffered from the mourning lethargy.

    4) Don't Procrastinate Spiral - Again, mourning lead to ignoring everything which lead to a lot of procrastinating. I seem to be doing better now and getting back on that horse. I promised myself I'd finish my taxes this week and need to finish that up.

    5) Keep Traveling - no plans. I think I'm giving up on the trip to Phoenix for the Ostrich Festival just 'cause it's a chunk of money that I could spend on other things - taxes come to mind first, then I've been debating either getting new tattoos or some hair removal just to make my life more convenient. A friend promised that after the Shell Game show is over in April he'll take me with him to Montreal cause he has a bunch of music gigs booked up there from now through August. My first visit to Canada! I've also decided that I will never spend another February in NYC if I can help it. Current favourites are New Orleans or Melbourne - only warm places with lots of sun.
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      CommentAuthoroldhat
    • CommentTimeMar 1st 2013
     (11003.7)
    @glukkake, Alas, no drunken Ostrich jousting for us. One day!
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      CommentAuthorglukkake
    • CommentTimeMar 1st 2013
     (11003.8)
    @oldhat I know =( It's a shame that flights across the whole damn country are so pricey. It's like $400 now from NYC!
    • CommentAuthorArgos
    • CommentTimeMar 1st 2013
     (11003.9)
    I think when we went to Boston from San Diego last June it was like $500 or so :|
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      CommentAuthorglukkake
    • CommentTimeMar 1st 2013
     (11003.10)
    @Argos I had a friend fly me out to SF one time on less than $200, but I'm guessing it was some crazy special he found. I might need to figure out those listings that share cheap flights. My friend is going from NYC to Easter Island for a ridiculously low amount of money.
    • CommentAuthorArgos
    • CommentTimeMar 1st 2013
     (11003.11)
    Oh man, I gotta find out how to get those! Part of it for us was that we went out for his brother's ordination (har har, my atheist partner's brother is a priest), so we didn't have any choice for the dates we wanted to go. I know sometimes seasonal discounts are offered, so if you're just looking to go somewhere for fun that works, but for specific dates it can bea really tough to find cheap flights. Booo.
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    1) Wii Fit/Health/Weight Loss: Not using the wii fit for much more than checking my weight, which basically just goes up and down. So I need to get better about that. On the bright side, my soda consumption has gone down since my dependence on caffiene isn't so extreme.

    2) Work on Website/Sell Art: Proofs arrived, yay! Ordered prints, paid for prints... prints have not arrived. *headdesk* Probably should work on website more, and am planning to do some shopping for what needs to happen once the prints do arrive (especially since I've paid for them, I have no issues with being a super hassler now). Going to give a local printer another try.

    3) Consistently Clean Apartment: Since I started taking the new meds, I find myself organizing and even borderline cleaning. It's amazing! Doing actual cleaning, especially the dishes however... not so great.

    4) Improve Job Situation/New Job: My application etc finally made it to the manager, but the job listing is gone and she hasn't contacted me. So either they already found someone or they don't want me. Either way, it's a no go. Boo. Going to have to look at the job listing website on a regular basis. There are a lot of interesting jobs that pay well posted, but they are all for the tourist season, and are as a result are temporary. Once the allotted hours are used up, no more job. Bugger. New meds seem to also be helping me with the current job. I think.

    5) Work on mental health/be well enough to date: New meds are helping and I'm finally getting started with the exposure therapy. Progress! Actually found a decent match on okcupid (who is very local!) that I am corresponding with. Now I just have pretend I am actually normal long enough to find out if I want to date him (etc).

    And I didn't have this one on my previous lists, but it is something I have been working on that needs to be done.
    6) Get my finances back in order so I am filling instead of draining my savings account.
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      CommentAuthorrazrangel
    • CommentTimeMar 5th 2013
     (11003.13)
    Today was another didn't-really-make-it-out-of-bed day. Real life might force me to be organized about my day. I've never had this kind of demand but...I guess people with kids do it all the time. My dad is 87 and my mom wants us (me, because my brothers are useless and I want to be slightly less useless) to check on him more and make sure he eats plenty and regularly. That means getting up in the afternoon and forgetting to eat until dinnertime just won't work.

    I haven't the slightest idea how to do this. Though I suspect if I make a schedule to make sure this works out for my dad and stick to it then the bulk of my issues will be solved right there. Maybe?
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    razrangel - My friend and I check on her dad in a similar way. If he doesn't have someone to walk him to dinner at his retirement community, he just eats junk food in his apartment and doesn't socialize.

    I find that waking up, dragging myself through some exercise, and checking on him for lunch means that I can't just sit in front of my computer in my bathrobe all morning on my visit days, and it can even make the day more productive. I set alarms and reminders on my phone so I don't forget or lose track of time. I also wake up earlier than I used to, so I'm not scurrying out the door in a panic to get there on time, and that took some self-control to go to bed on time and wake up to my alarm, but is totally worth it.
    Taking care of someone who is infirm, even when it's a relative who you love, can be more saddening than you might expect, though. So find someone to talk to about it, and if he's doing poorly and y'all find it hard to manage, you should consider options like hiring a professional care-giver. Insurance sometimes covers that.
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      CommentAuthorrazrangel
    • CommentTimeMar 6th 2013
     (11003.15)
    I still have *the* hardest time getting myself moving. I just don't... what the fuck...

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