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    • CommentTimeMar 30th 2013
    Yeah yeah resolutions are for New Years, to be forgotten within the first week of January.

    But! this year we're trying something different. This time we are - or I am, at any rate - going to check in and stay honest about how this shit is or isn't getting done. The only way to hack a life is to just fucking do it. So goes.


    I think my weight is plateauing out at 210. To get below it I need to exercise way more AND change the foods I eat. Bloody hard. It was tough enough just cutting out sugary snacks and fast food - and I'm fixing to ease up on that. I need to keep it cut out, but I doubt I can. Further more I need to get eating to the "small bites every few hours" and eat many, many more vegetables. But fuck it's hard when I don't get to buy my own food (too poor) and all that's available is fatty, meaty, carby stuff. But I've got to press on right?

    At least the working out is actually happening. Not *lots* but a healthy amount, 3 to 4 times per week. I really want to get to 5x but that has proved illusive.

    Still no Japanese penpal. A little bit of practice, but honestly it's been haphazard. I'm just not going to get anywhere if I don't find at least an hour every day to go over notes and practice, practice, practice.

    HAVE practiced reading aloud. That's good. I should do it more, but I really did push that, and it's been good. Now to practice recording. Monday I'm going to restart some coaching. Just a little, but more than zero.

    At the top of the month I spent a day hiking with my sister's family. The outdoors are pretty nice. I should see them more. }:>


    Refreshers: Top o' the year
    Month 1 check-in
    Month 2 check-in
    • CommentTimeMar 31st 2013
    Great that you're keeping it up! It's a really hard struggle, especially when you can't fully control your own diet. On the sugar front, there's a book called "Fat Chance" which - while I haven't read it myself - my wife found incredibly helpful in letting go of her sugar demon. Some of Lustig's points are a bit awkwardly put as you go along, but apparently by the conclusion it all makes sense. I'll be reading it myself soon.

    I don't have any New Year's Resolutions, but I AM still working on my French at DuoLingo. Not as much as I should, but even if I don't feel like it, I try to have at least a quick go at it most days.
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    Oof. Mine aren't looking so good...

    -Finish Game: Failed. Development is on indefinite hiatus due to art issues. Starting to think I should maybe work on some other ideas that have been banging around in my head, just so what I've learned doesn't atrophy, but can't find the energy due to...

    -Get Job Commensurate With Old Job, or pays enough to move out: Failed. Got a job, but there are issues (see my recent Open Mic post for further elucidation). It might pay me enough to move out (still haven't gotten my first paycheck, so I'm not sure), but not to where I want to live, and not as much in the black as I'd like. It's really draining me out mentally, and I don't feel like doing anything once I get home.

    -See More Friends: Also failing. Haven't seen much of anybody since I think February. Depression about job stuff kind of putting me in hermit mode.

    -Get In Shape: Starting to turn this around, finally. Weighed myself and found that I'm up around 220lbs (which probably explains why my dress shirts seem so much tighter in the neck than before), which is unusual because I've been pretty static at 215 for years, so that's got me working on changing some habits. Trying to get back to a 'meat only twice a week' diet, which is thankfully much easier in California than it ever was in Arizona (though still not quite as good as it was when I worked in Agoura instead of Woodland Hills).
    Also taking bike rides on Saturdays, trying to push my range back out, get my speed up, and re-tone my ass so it doesn't hurt so fucking much from the bike seat the next day. Initially was planning to get myself to a point where I could ride the twelve miles to work a couple times a week, but that plan might change if I change jobs. I should probably start jumping rope on week nights again, but I'm not sure that I have enough room to do it in my dad's house.
    • CommentAuthorArgos
    • CommentTimeMar 31st 2013
    Get my driver's license. DONE

    Find a job I can be happy with while keeping in mind that experiencing life is not about having a job. Working on getting back to hunting & applying now that wedding is over. I did just sign up for a SCUBA class so I can get a certification, which is a requirement if I want any chance at working at an aquarium as an aquarist. If that doesn't pan out I can always try and go for the research diver route since I do have an ecology degree.

    Survive wedding planning. DONE WOOOO!!!

    Get back to working out once wedding is over. Ehhh....haven't done that yet >__>

    Pick an artistic skill and work on it. Need to get started on working on different origami patterns now that wedding is over. Also haven't folded anything since the wedding.

    I guess I'm kind of in a lull right now. Part of that was post-wedding rest and recovery, but I really should be back on the horse by now.
    • CommentTimeMar 31st 2013 edited
    1. Write the Beer Appreciation book. - Have had no time. Work has been all-consuming.
    2. Lose weight by April. - Not great. Seem to be stuck at the weight of (oh hell, I'll be honest) 237lbs. Hopefully I'll be back n the 220s by Juno time and then it's on to getting back in to the teens, which I was about two years ago.
    3. Use the slowcooker more. - Still on hold as my slowcooker actually broke.
    4. Make beer. - Last brew didn't turn out great. A ginger weiss is next.
    5. Get a part time job. - Applied to ten places and haven't heard back.
    6. Continue to be there for certain people. - Trying best I can, though I hate that some people make it so my only way of catching up with them is to check the obituaries every week. Sigh. [ETA: Not that I think most of them would kill themselves, but it's the only way I can definitely get an answer regarding their continuing existence. It feels like a response, which is something I don't get often]
    7. When growing season hits, ROCK THAT GARDEN. - Bought hop rhizomes and earlier this week my seed shop will be opening again for the season. Then it's time to plant.
    8. Done
    9. Try and get out a bit more. - Bit by bit, I suppose.
    10. Look in to what is needed to start a bar. - On hold while I look for work.
    11. Drinking. We're cutting that down significantly. - Doing well with that.
    12. Counselling. Get it. Sort that fucking head out. - Not happening. I just can't get the time off work. Been close to doing stupid things though, so should work on something.
    13. Be as awesome, strong and amazing as you know you are. See yourself as others, especially POS, see you. - Yeah, not yet.
    14. Keep doing Thirsty Wench stuff. beer tasting next week.
    • CommentTimeApr 1st 2013 edited

    - Finish the novel:

    Editing the fourth draft as we speak. It looks scarily like after this content edit, it's just the matter of language polish and the fucker is finished.

    - Do another IF-game and try to win some more competitions:

    The novel is a roadblock to any other creative project now.

    - Get my AESD research diver certificate:

    Done all the courses so far and scheduled the rest for the year. Looking good so far.

    @Argos, holy hell, research diving, you too :)


    - Slow down, fucking finally.

    Well, this is the humdinger, but right now all the signs point to good. I've dropped a ton of things from my schedule, and surprisingly Adventure Girl has a hugely calming effect on me. When we do stuff like sports, adventures, gaming nights or whatever together, the brain weasels curl up to sleep. The day job looks to be suspiciously good, although I'm still on my probationary period 'till the end of May and before that I just can't relax. If the job holds, it looks like I can switch the more restlessness-causing side jobs to something that actually calms and relaxes me (research diving instead of hunching over a computer), and... well, generally after having run downhill for over a decade, looks like I'm within an eyeshot of level ground.
    • CommentAuthorArgos
    • CommentTimeApr 1st 2013
    :D I've worked with research divers before and it seems like something I would like to do to, and your posts about it inspired me, too. I figured, hey, it's something that opens doors to some jobs and I think I will enjoy, there's no reason not to go get certified. Though currently I'm getting the cert so I can be qualified to work at an aquarium.
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    1. Get better at drawing full scenes, from various different angles.

    I've gotten to the storyboarding assignments in my books, and am getting rough scenes placed in panels. They're ugly, but they're a step forward.

    2. Succeed at making drawn characters look the age they're supposed to be.

    Well, my adults are starting to look more like the reference photos, but I'm still not good at drawing kids.

    3. Reach target weight and get blood pressure in control.

    I have a basket full of cadbury cream eggs! And look at all that discount candy in the stores! *mixed joy and weeping* I also seem to have gotten the plague at the last art fair at which I tried (and failed) to sell my work. This includes a delightful rash, fatigue, and a swollen lymph node by my jaw. Yesterday's NyQuil excesses made me temporarily forget how my limbs work. To sum up - diet and exercise are hard right now.

    On the bright side, though, I'm not gaining weight, just plateaued, and I talked to my doctor about changing my birth control to a version that will be easier on my blood pressure, so we'll see how that goes.

    4. Plan my website for selling prints.

    I've started tinkering with the etsy shop builder. Working on a banner now.

    5. Learn to drive, get my driver's licence.

    Fingers in ears and humming.
    • CommentTimeApr 1st 2013
    1) Cut Away the Dead Weight - I have actually begun to run out of things to cut out of my life. Now it's just a matter of making sure I don't find myself in wasteful projects.

    2) My Own Projects - Launching that book project next week once I have time to queue up all 26 blog posts. I was originally waffling on whether I should try to publish it (the main guy who showed interest had severe health problems, so I'd be back to square one) or kickstart it & self publish (high start up fees, not sure there's enough interest to make it a possibility in 30 days) or just release it with the option of silkscreen prints. I went with the last, because I want it OUT of the dark back of my mental closet and also because...
    I'm going to SPX this year! I'll be tabling with the amazing Yao Xiao & a nice artist I haven't met personally yet named Robin Enrico. So I'm going to release all the images and eventually go forth with my original plan of screen printing all 26 of them & hand binding them into a limited edition handmade book. Also I'll sell regular, uneditioned silkscreen prints that I'll take with me to SPX in September.

    I just finished screenprinting a hand gilded print for the Amanda Palmer Tarot project - you'll all see a Kickstarter for that soon & I will be whoring it out across all the networks because it's being done right & all 78 of us participating artists are getting paid with its success. I printed mine into a final edition of 7 and I'll post the reproduction image to tie in with the project launch.

    And my super secret Kickstarter project that I've been plotting since last year is in its final prototype iteration stage. Once the final tweaks are made, I can shoot the video & get all my shit together. So hopefully that'll launch by May. I damn near cried when I finally put together prototype v1. It's fantastic to see a thing I dreamed up and that I have no experience in creating before come together and be held in my hands. Also, everyone in the vicinity who saw it when I passed it off to my project partner thought it was the coolest thing, so fingers crossed I'm not wasting my time (again).

    After all this, I need some new projects. I think I'll put 2b) Draw Something Every Day because if there's one thing I'm noticing, it's that I sit and work on a single image for monthhssssss before I can produce anything. And I need to stop treating each illustration so preciously and do something in between "stick figure/gesture thumbnail drawings" & "elaborate illustrations that take days to complete." I've had a number of sketch projects that would be great to fill an entire book with, so I might try to work on one or few of those. Maybe get dedicated sketchbooks to them so I can see my progress instead of having bits thrown across 5 different sized & coloured books in my room.

    3) Stop Being Behind the Scenes - I'm doing my guest talk at NYU this Thursday on Dr. Sketchy's at a class on the sociology of fandom (yes, this is a thing). The 12-14th is the launch of Molly's Shell Game openings so I need to get out of my feral hermit headspace that has me being a raging bitch to everyone I meet outside my home and back into pleasant networking mode. Trim these claws and paint them pink. Additionally, the fun thing of launching the alphabet book is that I'll be posting every day to my website Mon-Fri for the next 5 weeks. Hopefully I'll start getting more traffic there.

    4) Don't Procrastinate Spiral - A few bad points that I'm hoping to fix today with super work load fest. I've had it in my date book for a few weeks to finalize some stuff and it's coming down to the wire. Additionally, putting off the tarot print saw me rush my separations and fuck it up in truly spectacular ways. I'd almost redo it if it weren't going to be so costly to buy more metal leaf, reburn all the screens & spend another 8 hours printing. I know I can do things in the pinch, I need to learn how to space things out so I have breathing room and get less stressed. This method sure ain't helping all those grey hairs I'm finding.

    5) Keep Traveling - Maryland in September for SPX! I'd completely forgotten about my friend's promise to take me to Montreal after April is over, so thanks to this thread, I'll poke him soon. I'm planning on going down to Philly for a weekend for the east coast BME kids party to celebrate Shannon Larratt. My taxes came in and I'm going to be paying that off in installments for the next few months so there's no way in hell I'm sending myself anywhere that isn't on a bus route any time soon. Le sigh.
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    @oldhat-You're beautiful and brilliant!

    Have had a hell of a time trying to lose more weight. The 180ish that I weight now is a whole hell of a lot better than the 248 that I used to weigh, but it's been tough.

    I started the couch potato to 5K program in January and am up to 20 minute runs, which I have never done in my life, so I'll take that as progress. I was up to 25, but injury and illness sidelined me for a while.

    I have entered two art shows, which scares the shit out of me, but I'm attempting to push myself beyond my comfort level both in what I wear (gasp, trying to wear color), and what I do with my art.

    Have stuck with 365 project thus far...

    Now, if I could just stop being sorry for everything that's not my fault, lose twenty more lbs, and stop putting up with people who treat me like shit I'd be in good shape.

    Good luck to everyone.

    • CommentAuthorhank
    • CommentTimeApr 1st 2013
    I hadn't planned any, since I am generally bad with long scope amorphous goals.

    I've run 80 miles since January 1 and started adding upper body exercises in. Less concerned with weight than overall toning now. Dropped weight watchers, since it was gamified to make me lose weight above all. Not the plan for the current future.

    I'm constantly failing at drawing nightly. I need to get my ass in gear on that, I have crap in my head that needs out. Ditto for writing.

    I'm making a huge life change and need to declutter. Haven't started, but started examining the stuff I have and what I actually use.
    • CommentTimeApr 2nd 2013
    @Magnulus & hank - From the beginning I was hoping people wouldn't get fixated on New Years, that's just when I began this series of threads. There's zero point in only making resolutions because of a calendar flip. If you're so inclined, make your resolution NOW and hop on board this train! }:>

    And thanks, Mags, I'll give that book a looksee. Gotta keep trying, of course.
    • CommentTimeApr 3rd 2013 edited
    @Cara, Thanks! And holy crap, you were 248? Way to go! When I started I was about 270lbs and managed to get down to about 210. Sadly, medical stuff along with irregular work hours and a lot of snacking while travelling brought me back up. Trying my best to lose it and am back at running again and have a long term goal of seeing myself get in the 100s for the first time least 12 years. I tried using the Couch25K and it's pretty good, but think I may be hooked on a combination of the RunKeeper and Fitocracy apps for my iPhone, which provide some pretty good motivation. Plus hey, managed to get my first 5K last month. Slow going, but worth it. :)
    • CommentTimeApr 3rd 2013
    Goal: Sleep 7 hours a night with a regular pattern.

    Status: FAILURE
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    @Oldhat-Yeah, 248-it's kind of astounding to me. I think I'm going to try some interval runs, I really need to take my asthma meds on a daily basis so I can push myself harder. You've got me on the 5K, I am not there yet. Keep at it, you can do it.

    And on a totally unrelated note, I got into another fucking art show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Very happy am I!
    • CommentTimeApr 4th 2013
    I've stalled on the Book A Week thing. I'm still plowing away at the novel (and I finally got to commit some scenes to "paper" that I've had in my head for almost ten years, which is a good feeling), and my weight loss has slowed, but it's bumping along.

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