I woke up this morning feeling like a complete stranger to my own life.
I've spent all day trying to deal with this and it hasn't gone away. I feel like some alien presence is inhabiting my brain and going, "What the fuck? This is no kind of life. How can I change this?"
or to put it another way, This is not my beautiful house. This is not my beautiful wife.
I can't live like this for one more day. I want to do something drastic, but there's nothing drastic within my power to do. I have no control over my life and don't know what I'd do if I did.
that's kinda funny, actually. one of my best friends is a Jehovah's Witness. she's given up on trying to save my soul, though; whereas I've done a great deal to expose her to occult-themed video games, books and movies that her life would otherwise have been without. *grin*