I am resolving to let my hair actually grow out for once... Really... I am not going to shave my head again (not going to shave my head again not going to shave my head again)
edit to add: They are watching...
Not a self portrait, but don't you feel like this somedays? Ready to kick a lot of ass, musclebound and shiny? Today I do. I climbed a tree!
Lemme show you how I've been feeling the last two weeks or so: ...Okay, so that's my "life is fucking great"-face. I kinda suck at smiling when self-portraiting. Guess I'll just rattle on instead: When I joined here, little over two years ago, I'd just flunked out of college. Well, I'd just finally admitted to flunking out of college, after having gone around not telling anyone, including close family, for months. There was a whole shock/denial thing going on there for a while.
Anyway, I thought I'd FUBAR'ed my educational prospects, had no idea what I wanted to do next, and spent the next two years first wandering around in shock that I could've fucked up like this, and then - aside from the occasional fit of trying to move on and make the best of it - mostly just wallowing in delicious depression and self-loathing, and, of course, trying to pretend everything was dandy.
Fast forward to Wednesday before last, when I found out that I actually STILL have funding for 3 years of college. And, after adjusting to the fact that suddenly I had to think about what I wanted to do, instead of just trying to find a job - carrying only a high school diploma - that wouldn't make me want to blow my brains out after a month, I realized I wanted to go back to the field I'd left - just a slightly different branch.
So, September, I'm starting my Chemical Engineering degree, back in a lab, twisting and breaking and assembling, and generally just bending fucking molecules to my will. Until then, plan is to earn as much fun-money as humanly possible. Shitty jobs are a lot more easy to swallow when they're just a temporary means to a visible end.
I'm back. I feel like me, for the first time in years. I've got plans, I've got means, I've got momentum. I'm so betterstrongerfaster I'd make the 6 Million Dollar Man look like a victim of extreme inflation... Well, more so. I've been standing still for two years, in pretty much every possible way. I am fucking raring to go again. Stand back, people.
How awesome am I feeling? I actually like that picture. That never happens.
@ Digitalyn - Wheeee! We see you! (It's been a while.)
@ Zoetica - Lovely. A particularly good image for use of the polaroid aesthetic.
@ Keighter - "I am resolving to let my hair actually grow out for once... Really... I am not going to shave my head again (not going to shave my head again not going to shave my head again)" - Meeeeee toooooooo. Not dye it, not shave it. Really. No matter how bored I get with the color, or how hot the summer heat gets. siiiiiiigh.
@Rachael \o/ Yeah wasn't really in the right mood to shoot myself (err wait... this sounds like the opposite...) Also joining the club of "let's let the hair growing". Just the front though... And can't promise I won't dye it, I'm actually trying to repress myself to dye it purple this time. "When in doubt, dye your hair" should be my new motto. :D
@lx: really loving the pictures. Instantly tried to click and fav on flickr but they weren't. Eager to see more of them, really nice!
and what I did to my mortarboard. Points for the first person to get it. Hint: the band geeks were the ones who called me out and decided I was super awesome. And no, I'm not gonna apologize about the angle. The color is correct for it and you can see just enough to get what it is if you know.