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      CommentAuthorMagnulus
    • CommentTimeApr 8th 2012
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    That's awesome, raz! :D Glad to see you're finding your way as well. :)

    I would say that going for acting for the pay is hardly ever going to work out. Someone I worked with last year said that to the kids he teaches every weekend, he says that you should only choose acting if there is nothing else you'd be as happy or happier doing. For 99.9% of actor's, it's a long, hard slog to even make a living wage.

    As you say, though, you're realising this is where you were meant to be. It's the same realisation I had two years ago, at 28. Don't think it's a waste, though. Everything you did, all the choices you made prepared you for where you are now. You can use that going forward. I have racked up a £40K student loan chasing what I thought was my dream career, and in many ways I'm glad I did. I now -know- what I want to do, and I know myself a lot better.
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      CommentAuthorMagnulus
    • CommentTimeApr 13th 2012 edited
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    Going to be auditioning for this on monday: Neon Ghosts
    Crossing my fingers, because it looks kinda kick-arse and according to people who know them, they're a really good group of people producing it.
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      CommentAuthorrazrangel
    • CommentTimeApr 13th 2012
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    Break a leg, Mag! And thank you. It's definitely going to be a long haul to make VO work but I'm at a stage where I'm redesigning my life and career trajectory. I got stuck in a job that was supposed to be "just a job for now," but "now" turned into 6.5 years, continuous depression and a lot of corporate bullshit.

    Every time I'm in a booth and pushing myself in a class I feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be. It fits. I try not to indulge regret but it does feel like I should have been doing this a decade ago. Better late than never, as they say.

    (Also I'm studying Japanese and continue to stage manage and do dramaturgy for my theatre company.)
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      CommentAuthorMagnulus
    • CommentTimeMay 17th 2012
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    I got the part in Neon Ghosts! The crew and other actors are lovely, and it's very well organised. Really enjoying the production. I'm also doing a Production Diary every day on my phone (filming, editing and uploading straight from the phone) that's going on Youtube, so have a look: Day 1
    Day 2
    and Day 3

    I'll post the other videos as we go along. I'll be trying to talk to different people in the different departments and shtuff. Also, of course, more chat with the director, Stefano. And goofing off.

    @razrangel: I know how you feel. I would have ended up staying in a "for now" job for a lot longer if my wife (then girlfriend) hadn't decided she wanted to do her PhD in Scotland. Keep at it! The main ingredient for success (in the sense of "getting to do what you love for liveable pay", not "EVERYONE ON THE PLANET KNOWS WHO I AM!") really is hard work, and I know you'll make it. :)
    • CommentAuthorThe Brad
    • CommentTimeMay 17th 2012
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    All anybody can do is work their ass off and, barring extreme accident, I think all it can bring is success.

    That's what I tell myself, anyway.
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      CommentAuthorMagnulus
    • CommentTimeMay 17th 2012
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    Absolutely, Brad. I would say that to be INSANELY successful is not just mostly the luck of the draw, but also a mixed blessing. I'd be very happy with my life if I get to stay acting and making a living in obscurity. If I end up being "that guy who did those bit parts in those films" I'd be happy. At the same time, I would do pretty much anything to be given a chance at playing The Doctor. I'm years off having the skills necessary for that, though.

    Anyway, my point was supposed to be: To become a STAR is down to luck (and hard work), but making a living is down to hard work (and hard work, and not being a dick). Luck is not something you can do anything about, so I try to just worry about the hard work and being nice to the people I work with. :)

    I talk too much.
    • CommentAuthorThe Brad
    • CommentTimeMay 17th 2012
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    Yeah, if THE WOLFMAN'S HAMMER opens doors to allow me to live off of movie-making, I'll be happy. I think the attitude of just wanting to work and do better next time is the only one any sane person with perspective can have. Good luck and broken legs to us all.
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      CommentAuthorMagnulus
    • CommentTimeMay 19th 2012
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    Some more videos! I've been uploading them day by day, but I don't want to overstay my welcome with these things. Still having a ball with the shoot. Tomorrow's one of the biggest days in terms of drama on screen.

    Day 4

    Day 5

    Day 6
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      CommentAuthorPaul Sizer
    • CommentTimeMay 20th 2012
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    Seeing you move is really great; you are like a 3-D cartoon character in some ways, but that's not a slight. I love to see people who know how to control their body weight and poise to such a degree, rather than just hitting the mark.
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      CommentAuthorMagnulus
    • CommentTimeMay 22nd 2012
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    Paul: hahah, thank you! That means a lot, it really does. In terms of physical comedy, Jim Carrey and Dick Van Dyke are huge influences for me, though I could never hope to achieve their levels of mastery of their bodies. They're both absolutely incredible at being deceptively precise comedians. Gene Kelly is another hero of mine. His ease of motion as well as his general exuberance just bowl me over.

    Aaand we're wrapped. Currently enjoying a leisurely day in after one day of rehearsals and eight days of filming. It has been an incredible experience, and I really believe this is going to be a fantastic film in the end, and one that many of my friends should enjoy, regardless of the fact that I'm in it.

    We mostly filmed in a damp, drippy and dark place in the bowels of Edinburgh, which gave the whole thing an especially strange and believable feel. Now follows four months of post production for the edit and the special effects.

    I've also been shown one of the other films I acted in this spring, and though there are a lot of problems with the production that shine through (not a lot of planning and forethought lead to a lot of sequences being attempted saved in the edit, and the dialogue is badly recorded) it looks gorgeous for the most part and in most of it I don't find myself cringeworthy to watch, which is a good sign. I'll let you know as soon as that comes online for everyone to see.

    Tomorrow, I'm going to an opening show for yet another of the films I've done. I'm really hopeful for the film as I know that it has been accepted to a few festivals already, and what I've seen of it look beautiful.

    I feel good about where I'm headed. I think it's going to work out all right.

    Here're the last two production diaries:

    Day 7

    Day 8
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    I just realised you're working with an old friend of mine on that.


    Will
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      CommentAuthorMagnulus
    • CommentTimeMay 22nd 2012
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    Really? :D Who's that?
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      CommentAuthorWill Couper
    • CommentTimeMay 22nd 2012 edited
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    Cammy Smart. Embarrassingly, I didn't realise until I saw the wrap photo with you he posted on Facebook.


    Will
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      CommentAuthorMagnulus
    • CommentTimeMay 22nd 2012
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    Heheheh, Cammy's a great dude. A proper geek and really nice. He just came to do a minor character but ended up being there every day, taking care of props, filming some of the diary, etc. It was great to have him there. :)
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      CommentAuthorrazrangel
    • CommentTimeMay 24th 2012
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    It's funny how it goes when I'm a stage manager versus when I'm an actor. Ultimately, I default to thinking about staging as a director and sometimes a dramaturg. But right now I'm a stage manager and thus actors are jumping up and down on my last fucking nerve every fucking day.

    Here's the thing, Mag, 'cause I already have my place to bitch and today I'm from rehearsal so I'm already a shot into my allotment of whiskey, how do I make an actor stop? How do I say "look, what you want? I want it too! But what I don't want to is to have to wear your sensitive bullcrap to get there. So stop. Stop complaining about shit that's already passed. Stop pulling out crap that already happened and has already been addressed and is completely in the past. Stop putting it on me to wear your sadness or your stress or your resentment. Because I have enough of all of that all on my own. And every time you go back to how XYZ made you feel, after we've already established that it won't happen again, after we all agree that we will be proceeding in a particular way, every time you start with 'it's just that...' you make us all have to relive it."

    Fuck me, but I love actors, I really do. But I fucking hate being asked to carry their bullshit. If they want to have their feelings, they're more than entitled to it. But they are not entitled to make me feel it with them. That's just bullshit.

    How can I make an actor understand that's what they're doing? It's bad enough I feel like I have to hold their hand through all the organizing loop de loops we have to do in poor-as-shit theatre. How can I avoid the trap of what is starting to feel like emotional blackmail?
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      CommentAuthorMagnulus
    • CommentTimeMay 25th 2012
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    I don't know the level of the actors you're working with, but if it's at a professional level, you say "cut the shit out or you're out." (though maybe more nicely than that). If it's am-dram, say "cut the fucking shit out, because you're making everyone want to garrotte you, or you're fucking out". :)

    Seriously, though? I have no fucking clue. If it were me, because I have a powerful allergy to drama queeny bullshit, I would probably have taken the person aside and explained that "I don't want to hear about your personal grievance with wossface. Talk to the wossface and resolve it. If it has been resolved, stop going on about it. You will not have the last word, but neither will wossface, because the last word is mine, saying it's fucking over. I don't care what you do outside of the theatre, you can go at each other as much as you like out there, but the moment you set your foot inside this space, you are no longer enemies. You don't have to be friends. Just do what you're here to do. Because that's what the audience cares about and that's what I care about. I do also care about both you and wossface, but this bullshit is making the both of you miserable, along with the rest of the folk here."

    Or something to that effect. I hate drama queening. So unnecessary.
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      CommentAuthorrazrangel
    • CommentTimeMay 28th 2012
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    Hey Mag

    It's 1am. We're finally wrapping from a 14 hour day, second of two, shooting video for the play. Thank fuck tomorrow is a holiday (and also we're required to let the actors rest one day a week) or I'd be right back here. As it is, it's my last day off for two weeks while we haul through final rehearsals, tech, dresses and finally open the motherfucker. Good fucking thing I love theatre or I'd be super damn pissed. None of us have been paid, none of us will be paid till we open. I don't know how this happened but this has been a hard damned show to work - and it's not the most technically demanded I've ever done at this theater. Weird. Annoying

    The actor has a lot to hide behind. membership in the ensemble, a teeny, tiny cast, and the fact that in poverty-stricken theatres like ours replacing actors is a tall fucking order. Not to mention the actor hides behind the Union. Each. And. Every. Time. The crazy thing is usually I'm happy to think of myself as more socialist than not, a fan of unions, set against the capitalist structure, etc, etc, but why is my first big time encounter with a union making me so crazy? Why does it feel like they are making it so we can't get our shit done? Argh. It's why I cave to her requests, and take her comments seriously. But she truly, honestly doesn't get how she's unreasonable with her emotional bullshit and how she is inconsiderate of how hard everyone else is working.

    Fuck. I'm tired. Whatever. I'm getting shit done. I'm a goddamn stage manager and that's what I fucking do.
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      CommentAuthorMagnulus
    • CommentTimeMay 28th 2012
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    Oh well, there are assholes in any trade, I suppose. I hope you manage to get the whole thing sorted. I guess all you have left is trying to appeal to a sense of cooperative spirit or some other such thing that might placate her without giving in to her bullshit. There is a reason she's doing this, and in her head it's most likely 100% justifiable. If you want to sort her out, figure out where the bullshit comes from and try to find a way to help her with that rather than the superficial requests.

    I'm not saying assholes should be pandered to or that all assholes would be lovely rays of sunshine if only you could Get Through to them, but it might help to try.
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      CommentAuthorMagnulus
    • CommentTimeOct 2nd 2012
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    I know, I know. This thread has been resurrected so much it should by rights be nothing but a husk of skin and bone by now, but here it is again. I've grown quite fond of the thread, actually, as it's the most consistent and concise summation of my progress so far anywhere. You'll be the first to know when Peter Jackson or Jim Jarmusch or Spike Jonze or one of the Coens call me. :)

    Updating now because I've finally finished my first showreel of actual film work. I wanted to wait until I had a few more films to chose from, but this is what I've got at the moment. Come january/ february, I should have three-four more films to add/ pick from.

    Showreel Magnus Sinding: Spring 2012
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      CommentAuthorrazrangel
    • CommentTimeOct 2nd 2012
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    Hah. It's good to see what you're up to Mags. I've fallen behind in my own pursuits but at least working on another play as a stage manger. New, "fun" skill I'm leaning? Dealing with a stage mother. Yep her precious child is in the show being all freaking adorable, but mother dearest wants us to recognize her eight year old as a professional actress. Uh sure. As soon I'm allowed to hold your kid responsible for getting distracted easily I'll start seeing something professional about her.

    Keep at it Mags, it's exciting. }:>