2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/ Lussumo Vanilla & Feed Publisher http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269832#Comment_269832 2010-11-13T13:45:38-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 warrenellis http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2

Saturday night open mic: a thing for venting. Tell me what you want, tell me what you hate. Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful. And, in fact: tell me what art you make, if you make art. ...

Saturday night open mic: a thing for venting. Tell me what you want, tell me what you hate. Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful. And, in fact: tell me what art you make, if you make art. Do you write, draw, push pixels, dance, photograph, sew, model, sculpt, weld, sing, hammer, play, design... whatever... tell me what art you make?]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269837#Comment_269837 2010-11-13T14:01:47-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 CaratheWalton http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=3266

I do, indeed make art: I teach high school, so I perform on a daily basis. I also like to do tie dye, batik, and take pictures. I used to do origami, but haven't had much time to do it recenlty. ...

I want . . . to be done with grad school and to have the self confidence that I've been hunting for my whole life.


I hate . . . some of the people in my life who think they know everything when they're really full of shit.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269839#Comment_269839 2010-11-13T14:06:49-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 kyu915 http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2962

I'm an aspiring writer and am focused on screenplays right now. I probably have a book in me and I'd love to write comics at some point. I finally got the nerve up to post my latest ...

I finally got the nerve up to post my latest screenplay(Dedicated with as little ass kissing as possible to my main inspirations, Warren Ellis and Grant Morrison) for peer review on a website. I hope this doesn't violate the fiction posting rule because I really don't want the arse eels(and I have no problem with it being deleted if it does).

Here's the link: Stellectic]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269841#Comment_269841 2010-11-13T14:12:49-08:00 2010-11-13T22:11:28-08:00 Alan Tyson http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1299

I'd like to write for any medium that I can gain an understanding of. I've got comic scripts, audio dramas, a novel, and a few short stories being kicked around right now. Some friends have invited ...

Currently being led around D.C. by an old friend. Excellent day, all told.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269843#Comment_269843 2010-11-13T14:18:23-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 lazarus corporation http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=630

I'm just recovering from a nasty cold - snot and fever are both ebbing away. I'm an artist - for a long time (since finishing my fine art degree back in 92) I worked in assemblage and collage, but ...

I'm an artist - for a long time (since finishing my fine art degree back in 92) I worked in assemblage and collage, but in the past 2-3 years I've been working in Letterpress, Lino & Wood cut, and Book Arts/Bookbinding.

At the moment I'm overflowing with creative ideas - I'm in the middle of a Book Arts project (which I'm also going to make available as a POD book through Lulu or similar) and I've got the germ of an idea for a web comic, which is something I've never done before. My day job leaves me so little time or energy, but I'm determined to do these things.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269849#Comment_269849 2010-11-13T14:41:07-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 Dovryn http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2562

Greetings Whitechapel, I hope you are all doing well Arizona might actually become the 15th state to pass medical marijuana in the US. Cool huh? As I mentioned in my tumblr, 'I’m not going ...

Arizona might actually become the 15th state to pass medical marijuana in the US. Cool huh?

As I mentioned in my tumblr, 'I’m not going to celebrate just yet. Not that I would anyway, for me it would be a huge sigh of relief… not a celebration.'

I hate being trapped in my apartment. I hate how my arms and shoulders hurt all the time now and I hate not being able to sleep. I hate spending most of every day with pain, pus and blood and I miss being that wild desert barbarian that always blew peoples minds. I miss walking from Tempe to Mesa in one afternoon and I miss my job working the docks at Robinson's May. I fucking loved that job.

However, I love hearing things like... "Oh my god, you were that lannik? Your a legend! Best RP I ever had, hands down." and "Bro, you put things into perspective for me, thank you."

My struggles have not 'robbed me' as I sometimes feel.
I have good people in my life, I just have to remember that sometimes.
That is probably why I hang out here reading and posting with you people when I should be doing my Nanowrimo... Doh!]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269850#Comment_269850 2010-11-13T14:42:26-08:00 2010-11-13T14:44:20-08:00 Alastair http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=287

life... ETA: RABBIT!

life...


ETA: RABBIT!
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why the hell did I agree to duplicate tapes real-time and hollow-out olde books to house them in? aarrgghh.

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269853#Comment_269853 2010-11-13T14:56:16-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 dorkmuffin http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=6719

And I just refreshed the page, losing what I'd typed. Excellent. This week has been pretty rough for me. My grandmother died on Wednesday after being pretty sick for a few years. While I did ...

Excellent.

This week has been pretty rough for me. My grandmother died on Wednesday after being pretty sick for a few years. While I did know she wasn't in the best of health, I had thought she was gonna live at least a few more years. That said, my siblings have been a pretty great support system.

I also just started a new job, which I have some reservations about. I'm starting as a part-time seasonal sales associate with the idea of being able to be promoted from within to do some display art for the store/company. This was communicated to me in my interview and when I was hired. Because I'm starting sales, I'm not making much money at all, and I'm not getting great hours, so I'm pretty worried about cash. I need to start putting myself out there for freelance jobs.

Things I want: my drafting desk to come (!); more friends in the city; the will to get off my ass and out of the apartment most days; more money at my job; freelance gigs; a scanner
Things I hate: Lordy, Warren. Really? LONG list. I'll keep it at my habit of finding delightfully escapist TV shows and going through entire seasons of them in a matter of weeks.

Things I make: I draw, I paint, I write sometimes and rarely let anyone see it, I push pixels, I design.

An old photo that's pretty representative of how I feel right now:

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Evening, Boss. I hope you and your family are happy and in good health. Tell me what you want, Fabulous riches. tell me what you hate. The sociopathic individuals who've spent years ...

Tell me what you want,

Fabulous riches.

tell me what you hate.

The sociopathic individuals who've spent years looting our economy.

Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful.

I watched A Serbian Film last night. It was horrifying, repellent and vile, featuring such images as the rape of a newborn infant and a man having sex with a spurting headless corpse, but nonetheless a powerful artistic work.

And, in fact: tell me what art you make, if you make art. Do you write, draw, push pixels, dance, photograph, sew, model, sculpt, weld, sing, hammer, play, design... whatever... tell me what art you make?

I'm a painter. I make large, loud, obsessively-detailed art which can take many hundreds of hours per canvas to complete, over the space of twelve to eighteen months. Right now I'm working on a composition based on the architecture of my new home city.

There's an archive of my paintings here for anyone who's new and hasn't seen them before, and another collection of paintings and random archived photographs here.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269856#Comment_269856 2010-11-13T15:09:15-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 razrangel http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2075

BUNNY!! )#@&*(^$#%fu&%$#!@#ing@#)$*)(#$*&!KEWT GAH!!! We used to have rabbits - well my sister did. Three or four in a sequence. They have a nasty habit of wanting to run outside. ...

Little to rant about. Little to scream and dance about. Lack of money is closing in again so I need to get animated. Do something, sell something... but it's so much easier to lounge in bed with the laptop, listen to the wind try to knock the house down and sip some tea.

For some people ambition roars away like a bonfire on a dark night. For me it seems to be barely embers that I have to constantly stoke lest they fade out completely. I have ideas aplenty about what I'd like to do but the drive to do it I have to invent on a daily basis. It's quite tiring.

No theatre projects on my plate - in fact no real projects at all, other than NaNoWriMo, which of course is slipping swiftly away from me. I intended to write every day this month but it isn't happening. Laziness, chronic and unavoidable is owning me lately. But I do write sometimes. And I do dramaturgies or stage manage or direct plays when the opportunity presents itself. Have the idea to pursue voice acting. I need to stop waiting for the drive to show up and just make it myself. But see above for how "pulling oneself up by one's own bootstraps" is just a saying and not something people actually do.

Dissippated. Somehow keeping thoughts coherent once they leave my brain has been a problem lately. Even I can see how my writing isn't making sense. Maybe this is what happens when a reasonably competent writer keeps to herself entirely too much.

I take photos for myself, for fun, to remember. I sing along with the radio and dance when I can and don't give a fuck who's watching. That's all I got.

Also, I'm learning Japanese. I suppose I could go into a rant about confusing "desu" and "arimasu" and why the hell anybody needs two alphabets and mountain of pictograms for one stinkin writing system. But eh...]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269858#Comment_269858 2010-11-13T15:14:29-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 nigredo http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2373

Hi. Contracted a nasty virus last week, which fucked up my laptop and almost caused me to lose all my files. Recovered successfully, even if I had to waste my one day off in the process...have to ...

Contracted a nasty virus last week, which fucked up my laptop and almost caused me to lose all my files. Recovered successfully, even if I had to waste my one day off in the process...have to work this weekend, which I wasn't that happy about either.

Started reading R. A. Lafferty's incredible FOURTH MANSIONS though, which makes up for a lot of that. I'd read stuff by him before but this is something else. I can think of writers and novels that I think it resembles in certain ways (see Book Club thread), but it's almost completely unlike anything I've ever read.

Other than that, I've been working on the first Mysterians record, which I plan to make available on Bandcamp in the near future (hopefully). I will have some new tracks up on either my Myspace or soundcloud pages soon, for a little taste of what's to come. Really happy with them. I've also been doing a bit of writing for my PhD but, alas, not enough.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269861#Comment_269861 2010-11-13T15:26:43-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 Oddcult http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=214

Just started 'The Young Person's Guide to Paganism, the Occult and Witchcraft.' Unofficial subtitle is 'The antidote to Silver Ravenwolf'. Already lined up some very good subjects for case studies ...

Unofficial subtitle is 'The antidote to Silver Ravenwolf'. Already lined up some very good subjects for case studies and interviews. The synopsis and plan is sound.

That's the closest I've come to art for the past few years.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269865#Comment_269865 2010-11-13T15:35:06-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 Vixen_ http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=9430

Good Evening, Want / Hate and Art are smudged in hue & tone. I want a fucking book deal that includes film options, I want validation in every selfish which way possible as nihilism makes ...

Want / Hate and Art are smudged in hue & tone.

I want a fucking book deal that includes film options, I want validation in every selfish which way possible as nihilism makes too much sense. I want the agent who has my MS to rip next week apart in her hurry to tell me she loves it. I hate beyond anything I can ever express the frustration and yet acceptance I have regarding the rejections from the few agents who have read it & said 'almost' - I hate the fact I didn't crack it, I hate knowing I bled onto the fucking keyboard - that I did my best - and failed to nail it. I hate the fact I want it so much. I hate all of it. But there is nothing else. And I know I can do better now. I hate the fact I sound totally loopy.

And on a much more chilled out note, I also take photographs - done some cool rock gigs.

I also truly hate the fact the UK economy is shot to fuck & that house prices are beyond ridiculous.

As for something filthy strange and wonderful - Gary Barlow in the Take That popumentary on the telly right now said they were just '5 guys who came together in a gay club in Manchester.']]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269867#Comment_269867 2010-11-13T15:49:36-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 icelandbob http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=5250

@Dorkmuffin - Sorry to hear about your loss Caroline. Keep strong Evening Captain Ellis of the Essex Auxiliary Air Force.... Well it's Saturday night. My wife is out with a couple of friends ...

Evening Captain Ellis of the Essex Auxiliary Air Force....

Well it's Saturday night. My wife is out with a couple of friends having several drinks (good for her) and for another weekend i'm stuck at home with the kitteh. It also doesn't help that i'm still trying to shift a low grade cold and sore throat which has sapped my energy and the will to live. Lots of low swinging moods of isolation and anti social behaviour....

So this week has seen myself portraying one of the drones from the Matrix, except that nothing happens to me. Ok, well that's not true as i did take part in a short film on Sunday. I played an "aggressive english football fan" who gets to beat up the lead character. The script was rubbish but i was allowed to ad lib, so i screamed a lot at the lead calling him "A fucking arsewipe muppet" and a !Lanky streak of piss" before i hit him. Yes i accidently punched him in the face when we were practicing our positions when the filming would start. On the plus side, they didn't need any more fake blood for the rest of the shoot. I also didn't read the whole of the script as i also had a full on kissing scene with the lead actress in the final scene. Luckily i acted like a trooper and a professional, but you should have seen the look n Siggas face when i told her what happened. She's so understanding. The film is being premiered in 3 weeks, so that'll be an interesting watch....

The rest of the week has been spent listening to lots of music and writing columns and music reviews. Thought that the newspaper has badly censored cut several paragraphs from a live review i did. This meant a rather passive/aggressive e-mail as to why they did this. Of course it was apparently just a fuck up when it was being uploaded, so they felt sheepish and i felt like a complete dick. Hurrah for everyone!

Oh and i fixed my sink today after watching rugby. Grrrr now i feel like a man!!

Everyone have a good evening. You're all lovely (wibble...)

And here is something wonderful. A pic of me promoting my friend Aðalsteinn's tape from a couple of weeks ago. He makes lovely noisy music. He is the creator here...



just a couple of Bros chillin', getting their sweater vest vibe on....]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269868#Comment_269868 2010-11-13T15:49:45-08:00 2010-11-13T15:52:35-08:00 roadscum http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=7712

Evening all, hope you're all good or getting there. Vent? Hah! I have looked around and seen a few things and i am not particularly impressed. The universe is cruel and arbitrary, if it has any ...

Vent? Hah! I have looked around and seen a few things and i am not particularly impressed. The universe is cruel and arbitrary, if it has any kind of sentient creator then it is most likely one which would take pleasure in pulling the wings off flies. The only goodness and compassion there is is that which we put there ourselves and there is precious little of it. You may take that as a hint.

...well you did say vent.

Me? a lot better than i was but still pretty rough and creaky, certainly well enough to get away with a little alcohol and caffeine now and then. Working my arse off to refill my coffers so i can have a bit more time off next year. If i don't drop down dead first. Doctors again on monday and this time i have some small hope they might be getting somewhere.

Art? Well i suppose there may be some art in squeezing a large lorry into a space only slightly too small to fit, without touching the sides. Other than that, i play little tunes to myself but nothing i'd be happy to inflict upon anyone else, not at the moment anyway. I take the odd photograph now and then, some turn out better than others. More of a clueless chimp with a camera than a photographer, sometimes frustrating, often great fun. Writing? Yes, i'm up to something there, though with work the way it is it's hard to find free time when i'm awake enough to think clearly. Hmmm, excuses. Tut! I should concentrate more on all the inspirational scenery i've been driving through these last few weeks, from golden autumnal landscapes to bleak subterranean concrete hells. Oh yes, i've got a few ideas, but they're worth nothing until i pin them to the page. We shall see, time will tell.

And i hate self portraits, at least, ones of me. So, by way of an offering to the Lord of Eels and very small hippopotami,

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Tell me what you want, I want my life to become so filled with splendour that everything that taints my experiences in childhood, adolesence, adulthood; my relationships with family, romance, sex, ...

Tell me what you want,

I want my life to become so filled with splendour that everything that taints my experiences in childhood, adolesence, adulthood; my relationships with family, romance, sex, friends; my fuck ups and those of others that have betrayed me; my health (or lack thereof); and the countless doors of once promising future opportunity I've missed out on from the aforementioned troubles - I want my life so amazing and wonderful and filled with fabulousness that it will actually ECLIPSE the doom of my life thus far. I want it to all be worth it, or at least... I'd like it if the now could be good enough to at least put up a fight against the past.

tell me what you hate.

Generally, I hate that I've been trying to find people to write me letters of recommendation for art school, and the only responses I've gotten are "you write something, and I'll sign it." Granted, I can't afford the application fees for all the schools i want to apply to, so maybe I shouldn't mind.

Right now, I hate that my uvula has continued to swell. I hate that all summer long I hid away from the heat again, and as soon as summer began to cool and my ability to be OUTSIDE and ACTIVE returned, so did my lyme disease with headaches and joint pain and ooodles of painkillers... and that this ABSoLUTELY PERFECT autumn weekend of 60-65F has me a tonsilectomy zombie.

I also hate that these Lyme painkillers that I've been on (barbituates, and something similar to morphine), even though I've been taking them less than half as often as recommended, have totally decimated any effect that this liquid codiene is supposed to have on my lasered throat flesh AND the uvula that has continued to swell, which is beginning to remind me of those "drop me in water and watch me grow!" things you buy in dollar stores....

Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful.

Filthy and strange? This probably fits:



Not so wonderful, I suppose though.

um. Peel a clove of garlic, cut off the scratchy end, sew a piece of thread through it for a pull-handle about 8 inches long, tie it off, and VOILA! You've got the best cure for yeast infections of the lady parts! Just poke it on up there for a night! There! That's filthy, strange, and wonderful! Yay for healthy genitalia!

And, in fact: tell me what art you make, if you make art. Do you write, draw, push pixels, dance, photograph, sew, model, sculpt, weld, sing, hammer, play, design... whatever... tell me what art you make?

Me. I model, photograph, write, draw, paint.

I am working on new sites (but I hate making websites) for my different work, since my current one is waaaay outdated. I've been relying on Tumblr for now.


Sorry you've been having such a time, Dorkmuffin. Maybe once my throat heals, I'll come visit the city.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269872#Comment_269872 2010-11-13T16:34:50-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 Fauxhammer http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=27

My tenth wedding anniversary is this week; we're taking a weekend in Myrtle Beach to celebrate. I write. I have several short stories and am writing scripts for two comics intended for the ...

I write. I have several short stories and am writing scripts for two comics intended for the web.

I'm fuckin' exhausted.

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@Dorkmuffin - condolences to you. Vent... Another tense week. Not coherent enough to vent about anything in particular. Work, domestic stuff, physical hopelessness, commuting, the evil vindictive ...

Vent... Another tense week. Not coherent enough to vent about anything in particular. Work, domestic stuff, physical hopelessness, commuting, the evil vindictive fucks in the government. My eldest daughter (8) isn't having a good time at school - she's not made any good friends, if any, during the term she's been there and she doesn't seem to be getting on that well with her teacher. I'm sure she'll be fine, but I worry about her, she seems very sensitive and subdued. Both my partner and I had our confidence crushed by crap teachers and I don't want the same thing to happen.

What I want: Above all, energy and mental clarity. I hate feeling like my brain's stuffed with candy floss.

Filthy strange and wonderful: If my partner gets pregnant again I'm 'allowed' to buy a Fender Jaguar.

Art: Yes. I photographise and make music. www.singularityjones.com

Singularity Jones - Ultramarine.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269879#Comment_269879 2010-11-13T17:21:46-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 trini_naenae http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=183

What I want: I'll admit that I'd love to get more attention when I post shiny things, but I also remember that I'd have to be better about consistently posting stuff, become a better artist, and ...

What I hate: Car expenses. Usually it's a non issue because my car is fairly fuel efficient (at 18 years old). But right now I need to get some gov't paperwork stuff done, which is expensive, and then do some salvage body parts ordering so I can have a less rusty car because here in WI that's a bad bad thing with the salt in the winter and all. And there's some other repairs that need to happen someday and oh look! I think that's at least a months worth of pay going down the drain.

Filthy, Strange, and Wonderful: I've been collecting feathers and I've got two frozen birds that were found. I've been thinking of getting one of them (a kingfisher) preserved to use as a model/reference and using the feathers and skeleton from the other. Except I know just about nothing about that sort of stuff. It also feels a bit odd but the anatomy and everything is so fascinating.

Art that I make: Drawing is my first love. I've been drawing from the point that I could clutch a pen/crayon/pencil/etc and put it on paper. I also do photography, printmaking, collage, and mixed media (transfers and drawing together). I've done some painting, but it just doesn't do much. Maybe someday I'll get better at it and I'll get at a point where it comes naturally and feels alive, but right now it doesn't really. I've also done some found art/collections sorts of things and I've done some mask making.

An old photo from when I had long hair:
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Tell me what you want I want some damn stability in my life. I want to stop living in this constant transitional flux where it feels like I'm going to be homeless by the end of every day. I want ...

Tell me what you want

I want some damn stability in my life. I want to stop living in this constant transitional flux where it feels like I'm going to be homeless by the end of every day. I want to do the thing we're all evidently supposed to do where I become self-sufficient and stop feeling like I'm mooching off of everyone else. I have spent the last four years of my life going from couch to couch to guestroom to floor to closet ( literally, a closet ). I have switched jobs in my twenties exactly 15 times and changed residences about once or twice a year. I've been out of work for about six months and the department store job I seem to be starting this week pays exactly minimum wage which is neither enough to support myself with food, clothing or shelter OR enough to afford to finally break down and get a driver's license and/or save for an automobile, both of which I should have done years ago. With a year and a half to go before I hit the big 3-0, I want my relationships to stop suffering because of my state of perpetually sorry-ass empty pockets and manic depression. They diagnosed me with that years ago and I could never afford the medication, matter of fact I haven't been to a doctor in over 8 years because I haven't been able to afford insurance. Last year, the girl I dated on and off for over a decade, the girl I gave all the expensive jewelry I couldn't afford in the first place but blew credit on ANYWAY left me holding the bag and I really haven't been right in the head since. I want someone to genuinely love me who won't abandon me in my time of need just because things get difficult. I can't go home to my parents, for a list of reasons I can't even begin to name. I'd go homeless like I did for a while in college again, but that's part of the reason why I didn't graduate ( the other part being I completely went into debt ), and with winter coming it's liable to get me killed. I am currently on a friend's couch who wants me gone in a week. I want to stop questioning all of my friend's motives, but after living with several people into very nasty, deadly habits ( read: they sold drugs ), I find it very hard to trust people easily, as people are too easily corrupted. I want to be able to trust people again. I want to not be a dime a dozen, considering there are 40-70 guys over at the local emergency shelter every night who I could easily turn into. I want to scream at everyone on my Facebook who see so little outside of their comfortable, material convenience that I am suffering and that they should care but in reality there are people who have it so much worse than I do that I feel arrogant proclaiming such a thing. I want to be able to trust the crooked cops and politicians who have conspired every day to create a system that puts young people like me, and ten years younger than me, in cages, just for walking around late at night and saying the wrong thing to a person in uniform. But I can't.

I want to stop feeling so damned helpless. I want my father to not have to continue to bust his ass working for the school system. I want my mother to be able to do her spoken word and her beautiful music and not have to live in a run down, insect infested house. She's performed with some notable people I could name, but why should I? They aren't helping her renovate that house, or co-signing on a car so she doesn't have to walk miles for groceries for my five siblings. I almost wish I could sell my ass for Kanye-money, the "fuck-you" money all of America seems to want, just so that the people I love and care about didn't have to keep getting their asses kicked by life. But what would be the point? I don't need to be rich, nor do I really want to. Too many suffer for the dollar. Life is suffering. Maybe what I really want is to stop having to suffer for the dollar. In America, maybe that's not going to happen any time soon. Maybe I need to start thinking about being somewhere else. But that requires money and resources I don't have. Catch 22. Sigh.

Oh yeah, and I want some damn headphones, because netbook speakers are awful. And a decent coat might help, it is November, after all.


tell me what you hate.

Lately, to be honest, it's the hipster label I keep getting. I can't win for losing. If I like something mainstream or popular, I get accused of trying to like it "ironically", like I am incapable of legitimately enjoying a song, a comic, a movie, whatever it may be, with no hidden agenda of trying to establish some vague, barely defined sense of authenticity that people are assuming I lack due to my appearance. If I tell someone that I like a band's older work as opposed to their most recent radio hit, I get accused of pulling the "Oh, I liked them before they were big", which is too often not the case. If I like something obscure, I get people rolling their eyes. Someone recently pointed out to me the recent phenomena of Twitter and Tumblr causing you to greatly enjoy or love people you don't know and Facebook making you hate people you know. I find this to be exactly right on the head of the nail. I don't get why I get the label. I think it's a useless catch-all people love to throw out whenever they see a fitted trucker hat, a PBR, or a fixie bike ( none of which I have ever owned or tried on my person, natch ). Maybe it's because all of my friends are finally latching onto Scott Pilgrim, and don't exactly know what to make of it given their personalities ( most of them aren't male twenty somethings deep into music and videogames with failed love lives like me ), and having heard the word splashed several times throughout the film, maybe they just enjoy having a term "new to them" to throw at people. However, it's really fucking annoying.


tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful.
Well, the BBC Radio 1 Xtra stream is up with Fabio and Grooverider, so that promises to be a bit of all of those things, doesn't it?
http://www.bbc.co.uk/1xtra


tell me what art you make?

Well, I have a couple of unfinished novels that I've been thinking about trying to serialize as short fiction. I'm not sure WHERE exactly to serialize them where they'll be seen, is my problem. I'm somewhere between Tumblr and Livejournal. Also I'm writing for a spoken word VS witch haus / chillwave project that I can't talk about too much, but you can hear snippets here:
http://drop.io/tgmflxe
^CAREFUL, there is a picture of a penis there. And apparently Drop.io is being shut down on Dec.15th because their assets have been bought out by Facebook? I was not aware of this until this moment.


( I'm very sorry for the above pissing and moaning. I am aware that this isn't my blog, and I'm usually not so childish and emotional. But I really needed to vent, and feel a little better having gotten it out. )]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269886#Comment_269886 2010-11-13T17:58:00-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 trini_naenae http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=183

@dorkmuffin: I'm sorry to hear of your loss. Hugs?

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269887#Comment_269887 2010-11-13T17:59:42-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 antistigma http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2592

@dorkmuffin My condolences, very sorry to hear that.

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269889#Comment_269889 2010-11-13T18:05:05-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 Mono http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=9270

I want a happy life. I hate all the people who, in all the ways imaginable laugh at other people and make them feel embarrassed, ashamed for trying diss their fellow human ...

I hate all the people who, in all the ways imaginable
laugh at other people and make them feel embarrassed, ashamed for trying
diss their fellow human beings' attempts to do, make, create, perform, dream up things
state that to try you need talent.

Fuck them.

I don't make art.
I have no art.
But I sing in the shower
and I toss words, paint around.

Because it is fun.
Fuck talent.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269890#Comment_269890 2010-11-13T18:14:24-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 rickiep00h http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2930

Tell me what you want, tell me what you hate. Well, I'm in a bit of a holding pattern these days. The massive energy drain of purchasing our house is now almost two months gone, and I'm doing some ...

Tell me what you want, tell me what you hate.

Well, I'm in a bit of a holding pattern these days. The massive energy drain of purchasing our house is now almost two months gone, and I'm doing some repairs here and there, but most of my time is spent ferrying people around. My wife to work, my daughter to half-day preschool. I want it to be next year, so my child is out for full days and we have a car that's not on the verge of falling apart. I want to get some sort of productive schedule worked out that I can and will actually stick to. I want to figure out what I want to DO during that productive time.

My hate list is actually really short. I guess I mostly hate things like having a gunfight break out a local club, having two people die in it, have the police brand it as gang-related, and then having the fucking club owner BLAME THE POLICE because they have a policy against off-duty officers working private security. AND THEN having one of the people that was injured in said shooting get picked up three days later for taking part in a drive-by earlier this month. I'm starting to think the cops here (and the city administration, and the citizenry as a whole) have a "eh, just let them kill each other off and we won't have to deal with it anymore" mentality, and it's slowly driving me insane.

Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful.

Filthy: me. My hair is full of drywall and sawdust from repairs. And also I tried severing my thumb off with a screw gun. So there's some blood around, too. Strange: Curtis Got Slapped By A White Teacher. It starts out with a good point: Curtis got slapped, and that's not funny. But then she starts making demands. Many, many demands. Wonderful: the refrigerator that's been taking up space in my kitchen (okay, the EXTRA refrigerator) is finally, actually, really going away tomorrow. And we're getting money in return for it. No more having to choose between opening the pantry door or opening the basement door. (Bonus Wonderful: my wife works for a certain musical instrument sales company, and Avid--the makers of Pro Tools--finally sent her the "rewards program" gear she earned last year: an M-Audio Axiom 61 MIDI controller. Yay free gear!)

And, in fact: tell me what art you make, if you make art. Do you write, draw, push pixels, dance, photograph, sew, model, sculpt, weld, sing, hammer, play, design... whatever... tell me what art you make?

Well, I do some (terrible) writing, none of which is fit for dissemination. I play some (terrible) guitar. The only thing I really feel comfortable about is my photography (Flickr is here), and I don't do nearly enough of that, nor am I nearly good enough in my post work. But hey, there it is.

And for an image, well, here's one from an earlier SNOM that I sort of like:
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My birthday was Thursday. I turned the big two - four. It was a nice day spent with my family (My mother and her husband for lunch, then just me and my two brothers for a few hours, then dinner with ...

Plus my closest friend texted me that night. We hadnt talked for a while, and she had even blocked me on facebook and twitter. She asked if I was busy today and we were gonna hang out but then she helped a coworker out and took their shift. I hope things get back to normal. Not sure when we'll hang out, but I'm glad we're sorta talking again, at least.

I miss my friend from the desert. She wants to drive up and visit me, but she's been very sick for a week or two now. I'll see her around thanksgiving, I think, though.

I dont know. BUT NEXT FRIDAY ME AND A PAL ARE GOING TO SEE MARC MARON. And I find him to be hilarious. I am super pumped for that.


I poorly doodle comics loosely based on my life, but with robots and stuff. Some people seem to like them. My first issue is cheaper than ever now, and the shipping is reduced. Issue 2 is not available at this time, though (I am super low on copies, and all I have are spoken for, but if you want a PDF/CBR of it I can hook you up). I am in the middle of writing/doodling issue 3, and a short, unrelated comic.

http://www.etsy.com/shop/animalcrackerparade


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Evening. I've just returned from a friends' wedding, where the groom fainted on the altar. I suppose that counts for purposes of filthy, strange and wonderful, at least according to some ...

I've just returned from a friends' wedding, where the groom fainted on the altar. I suppose that counts for purposes of filthy, strange and wonderful, at least according to some standards. The wedding was lovely, and I once again had an excuse to don a tuxedo, which is always nice.

HATE: Cynicism of the nay-saying kind, so pretty much what @Mono up there said. Incidentally, it should be emphasized Mono is very much in the things-I-do-not-hate-camp, because Mono is awesome. Also, I missed her party tonight, on account of the aforementioned wedding. Times like these, I wish that cloning/teleportation tech was already in beta. Because, man, I'd be there/there.

ART: Yes, music still going on here. I'm going to put out another album by the end of the year, as the tour was not a thing that was feasible this year. Need to finish something else then, I figure. I'll probably put demos up on soundcloud, as they develop. Need to read up on a few things before that, too. Like panel grids as a system of time divisions.

This week's extra hugs go to @dorkmuffin. Condolences.

Hope this finds you well.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269897#Comment_269897 2010-11-13T19:14:46-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 mjmartinejohn http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=8529

I spent all day designing hair for people, or cutting it, or just plain butchering the shit out of it. Art you could say...but I prefer the term "craft", because I have hated every single ...

Anywho, I am having a nice mug of tea (a mason jar with a towel wrapped around it) and have an aching shoulder.

In better news, my comic has been promised to be published, and I take some pride in that fact. I just have to remember to fill out that contract. Now! Night.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269898#Comment_269898 2010-11-13T19:15:39-08:00 2010-11-13T19:17:42-08:00 snafu http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=4347

Good Evening, I want a job. I'm still looking. Some interest out there but nothing that makes me sit up and say that's the one. I hate no talent suits trying to direct artists. Bad ...

I want a job. I'm still looking. Some interest out there but nothing that makes me sit up and say that's the one.

I hate no talent suits trying to direct artists. Bad experience with that recently.

Nothing strange, but had a wonderful experience the other day. There's a very nice path along the coast in Sydney that runs from Bondi Beach to Coogee. It takes about 2 hours to walk. Once a year there is a sculpture show with large installations along part of the path. Some very interesting work this year. Some of it very serious while other pieces tend toward whimsy. Made a morning of it with my beautiful wife. It was a lovely day.

I animate. I've been doing it for over 20 years. Started in 2d and 10 years ago I made the transition to CG. Some films I've worked on:

Cool World
Cats Don't Dance
Stuart Little 2
Matrix Reloaded
Polar Express
Open Season

Recently I've been animating less and working as an Animation Supervisor. I supervised on the following films:

Robert Zemekis' Beowulf
Watchmen - I oversaw the animation of Doc Manhattan. We also did Bubastis, the sequence on Mars and the destruction of New York City
Sucker Punch - I worked on the Dragon Fantasy sequence.

That's my story tonight.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269900#Comment_269900 2010-11-13T19:29:14-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 chris g http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1829

vent/hate/want: I dunno. I hate driving to work, babysitting the same pussified nobody-salesman that I super-duper hate so much it makes my blood boil. and then driving back home or wherever. I ...

vent/hate/want: I dunno. I hate driving to work, babysitting the same pussified nobody-salesman that I super-duper hate so much it makes my blood boil. and then driving back home or wherever. I really used to like coming in to work to bust my ass when I had to or just relax and scribble the day away. Even our two guys who do the deliveries/truck driving don't work like they used to: can't believe it takes both of them to move a coffee table on their square dolly, and right in front of the fucking boss. No one believes in busting their ass anymore. I feel like a man out of time: everyone around me acts like a pampered pussy afraid to break a sweat or scuff up their hands. Things aren't the same is all I have to say. I don't give a fuck anymore. I'm just showing up for myself so I can get paid :P

I've been so bitchy and tired and uncomfortable in my own flesh lately. It's made it hard to focus on my comics. I take this as a sign that I don't have what it takes in the bigger picture of things. I created Space Shark to save myself from the b.s. and the boring monotony of the real world but I don't know if I'll truly get anywhere with it. I am grateful and it blows my mind that in that first year of Space Shark I made new friends and people have been so supportive and interested in my creation. Really appreciate that. I dunno, I just miss the me from 2008: staying up until 3 in the goddam a.m. just dicking around and drawing my heart out and having fun. I hate that I can't be that guy anymore. But I am determined to hang in there and keep the Shark from Space going strong. Never give up, never surrender.

So yeah, the other morning I saw a yucky garden spider when I came out of the shower, so I killed it! Then I looked up omens and found out a spider in the morning means you're going through grief/sorrow, and if you kill it you will bring on rain. No rain yet, but it was right about me feeling miserable. Anyway, good thing I have drinky tonite so I can forget about all the bullshit that wants to weigh me down. I've been meaning to start the next Space Shark as far back as Halloween but I just can't focus anymore and i'm low on inspiration. It's time to go back to The Source.

Anyway, I'm gonna get me a ticket to see Faith No More this December. My whole life as of 2006 has been building up to this, hahaha.

This is what I make:

moar here: SPACE SHARK

Cheers, you crazy FUCKS. You are my people.


Dorkmuffin: sorry bout your grandma. I hope I can pitch in enough money to help my mom travel to see her mom again for the 3rd time this year. Grandma is pretty up there and well it could be any day or any year now, ya know?]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269905#Comment_269905 2010-11-13T20:04:21-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 dorkmuffin http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=6719

Man, you guys are awesome somethin' fierce. Thanks. This is a pretty amazing community, and the thoughts are really damn comforting. @antistigmata, hang in there. That sounds pretty overwhelming. ...

@antistigmata, hang in there. That sounds pretty overwhelming.

And now, bed. For I have work in the morning. Bleh.

But seriously, thanks guys.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269908#Comment_269908 2010-11-13T20:11:29-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 CaratheWalton http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=3266

dorkmuffin-I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. I lost mine a few years ago, and even if it's expected, it doesn't make losing that person any easier. Take care.

Take care.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269914#Comment_269914 2010-11-13T20:41:13-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 allana http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=4019

i haven't done a SNOM in ages! because i don't have the internet at my house, you see, and what could possibly chase me out of my own goddamn house on a saturday night? grrr. right, what art do i ...

grrr.

right, what art do i do? i knit, and i sew, and i photograph, and i dress up funny and twirl around, and i make mixes, and i hot-glue, and i'm thinking about putting chalkboard paint on unlikely surfaces, and i used to write but don't really anymore, and i will be lino-cutting again soon, and then maybe i'll record a cover of linda ronstadt's "different drum." can anyone second me on this, how great is that song?

doing nothing much right now. finished a Buddy Holly biography today; the descriptions of the plane crash were a bit more detailed than i was expecting. not usually the queasy-belly type, so that was weird. also i think my chainsaw is dying, which sucks because i was just getting into the firewood-harvesting spirit, and was about to attempt some rudimentary sculpting.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269916#Comment_269916 2010-11-13T20:43:41-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 epalicki http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=170

I write. Comics, mostly, which I then try to push on you all here and at other places on the web. You can read them here. In fact, that's what I'm doing tonight. Everyone else is out in the ...

here.

In fact, that's what I'm doing tonight. Everyone else is out in the world, drinking and having an adventure. I'm at home, writing comics.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269917#Comment_269917 2010-11-13T20:49:53-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 stsparky http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2311

Tell me what you want, tell me what you hate. Tonight I want a CISO banana machete and one of Lofty Wiseman's bush knives for my knife collection. 1. 2. I hate that some stupid people think ...

Tell me what you want, tell me what you hate.
Tonight I want a CISO banana machete and one of Lofty Wiseman's bush knives for my knife collection.
1. 2.
I hate that some stupid people think Glenn Beck is clever. And they don't want to believe in evolution. I can't imagine being willfully ignorant. I hate missing people at work who don't miss me.
Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful.

For some reason, the brunette in this picture haunts my dreams ...
And, in fact: ... tell me what art you make?
I design. I can't stop the mental tinkering - I designed this game in 1983 -

I draw. I paint. Here's the rough I did for the Jeff Hawke piece ...

Oh - this is me:
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Sorry for your loss Dorkmuffin, I just had a gathering to remember someone extremely close to me who died 5 years ago. It's intensely rough, but I find a large group, some booze, and many, many ...

Tell me what you want: :
I want a student of mine to get the Rhodes this year; we worked hard his year, and she's a finalist. She's a "change the world" kind of kid, and she'll do great things if she makes it to Oxford.

I want to hear back from the Here theater about whether or not I'll have a play up there in the winter. It's a been a long road for this one, and it would be nice to see it on its feet.

Tell me what you hate:
That I've had many wonderful things happen over the last five years (marriage, job, art, home in Park Slope, Brooklyn), and my best friend didn't live to see any of it. Cold -blooded murder by a jealous internet hook-up is a fucking hell of a thing.

Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful:
Not my thing, but still fits all these descriptions, two of my friends who barely knew each but had to work professionally together on occasion, suddenly, found themselves showing up at a party in the same fetish scene. Just, bang, holy shit it's you! (Damn good thing no one I know in real life is a member of this forum) Filthy: well, obviously. Strange: both are incredibly straitlaced, not a kink visible in either, so it was a shock to both. Wonderful: It helped erase all the "oh my god! I'm some kind of perverted deviant! guilt for both. Now, everyone is comfortable and wonderful experiences abound.

Tell me what art you make:

For relaxation, I make music and have recently begun doing some automatic drawing after I was knocked completely out by a rather extensive Unica Zurn exhibit.

Semi-professionally, I'm a playwright, and that's where my passion lies. I've been a member of a NY theater company for 5 years, and I've had some stuff out there. The most surreal moment of my writing life occurred about a year ago. I had a reading go up in a decent sized Off-Broadway theater, it was the middle of the week with a good sized crowd, and I sat there while they watched Anna Chlumsky (star of the "My Girl" movies, and more recently, an actress doing fantastic work in movies like "In the Loop") play a character who gets terribly, terribly violated in what is without a doubt one the roughest endings I've ever written. I killed many a childhood that night.

]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269922#Comment_269922 2010-11-13T21:02:37-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 StefanJ http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=961

I'm a freelance writer on the side. I disproportionally value the trickle of money and recognition I get from this. Coming up in a week or two is an actual comics-related item, an adventure for the ...

Villains and Vigilantes role playing game.

I want more of the energy and confidence to do more of this. Maybe enough that I could break out of the high-tech gold collar worker ulcer factory.

I really need to stop thinking about the stuff I hate. There's so much.

I spent a good chunk of the day standing in a light drizzle on a muddy field with soggy socks on. The last model rocket launch of the season. Three or four dads shows up with their kids to launch rockets. Nice to see people enjoying a hobby that doesn't involve sitting in front of a computer. The standing in the rain thing shows real dedication.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269923#Comment_269923 2010-11-13T21:10:53-08:00 2010-11-13T21:29:17-08:00 krakatoakatie http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2991

I make all the art I can- sometimes I can't stop. Current focuses are photography, painting and embroidery. I've also been known to do mixed media, various textile things like silkscreening and ...

Current focuses are photography, painting and embroidery. I've also been known to do mixed media, various textile things like silkscreening and costuming, metal work, interior design and block printing.







I post progress shots and other junk on katiecowden.com, which is where my tumblr feeds.

As far as filthy, strange and wonderful goes, I find myself falling hardcore for a friend who is much younger. I'm going to the special hell.

I hate living in Texas, even though I live in the one cool city in the entire state.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269937#Comment_269937 2010-11-13T22:18:02-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 dispophoto http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=4498

what i want: a job that has the scheduling flexibility & freedom to do my projects (and possibly will, if funding comes thru for one project i'm involved with!!!) and also to see my family on the ...

Dorkmuffin: *hugs* so sorry to hear about your grandmother.

what i hate: being away from my girlfriend. i'm back in toronto at the moment, as seen here:



i guess this would fall under the "art" category, especially since i'm also using my homemade fig rig that i'm holding onto.
we're filming instructional videos for a literacy program, which is so incredibly fun, compared to the many previous translation jobs i've done (and am in the middle of at the moment)

strange/wonderful: hm. i've to be up in 5 hours to film the other half of the videos, and already my muscles are starting to ache, ones that i haven't used for a long time. the result of a complacent life. ah, median love, when you're neither young nor old.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269939#Comment_269939 2010-11-13T22:32:48-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 gwferguson http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=495

I want... stuff: high-end fountain pens, rare coins, precious metals, signed 1st edition books in pristine condition, a small cottage in a not-too-rural rural setting, original art, an army of ...

But I'd settle for having just enough money not to sweat any purchase over $100. Which leads me to what I hate--my low-paying, dead-end government job featuring tyrannical bosses with the collective IQ of a sessile sponge.

The NaNoWriMo Emo Cosplay girl I met at a write-in Thursday has several disturbing-but-erotic pictures on her website, which is all well and good (hmmm... still in Nano mode... cliches increase word count with little effort) except she's half my age. This doesn't inhibit my inner Fantasy Factory at all, which is working 24/7 to generate inner images which are filthy, strange and wonderful.

I write with varying degrees of success. I draw, but not well. I paint about as well as I draw. But I'm not too bad with a digital camera:
]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269940#Comment_269940 2010-11-13T22:35:20-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 Greasemonkey http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=4625

I just came home from the Toronto meet-up. It was successful in that I met four other Whitechapel regulars and got very drunk and talked art nerd shite for five hours. Must go and fall down now.

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269942#Comment_269942 2010-11-13T22:47:07-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 Dmitri http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=3463

Pike off, I'm working... Wait. No. I need a break from said working. Might as well hit the mike for a moment! It's the weekend before Steamcon, my wife and kids are unconscious already, my ...

Wait. No. I need a break from said working. Might as well hit the mike for a moment!

It's the weekend before Steamcon, my wife and kids are unconscious already, my girlfriend/lover* and I have finally gotten over the HUGE number of issues we've been having in the last few months, and right now, I'd really rather just be vegetating in front of the TV. Possibly playing video games.

Instead, I'm busy trimming paper off stickers, building extra-spikey gauntlets, finishing off utility belts, and getting more displays ready for a con next week. Welcome to my life.

Filthy thing: I lost my virginity in a coffeeshop restroom.

Strange thing: My eyebrows now seem to have gained a twisted mutant life of their own- spreading and curling upwards like something out of Lynch's production of Dune.

Wonderful thing: I'm 33, and rather happily surprised to discover that I'm not dead yet.

I do indeed make art. Tons of stuff. I do masks. And gasmask art. And leatherwork. And digital art stuff as well- which have regularly been posted up around here, but hells, have a couple bits- click any for bigger versions or ordering pages, or whatever:



Questions?

*Yes poly relationship, no there's no big scandalous affair or anything. I figured if I can't come out and admit that kind of stuff on Whitechapel, then where can I?]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269943#Comment_269943 2010-11-13T22:47:40-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 mrmcdaniel http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=8837

@antistigma while my situation is not as dire, i know the feeling of frustration and anxiety you are experiencing. I often feel like any minute the thread I'm dangling by could break and my life ...

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269944#Comment_269944 2010-11-13T22:58:55-08:00 2010-11-13T23:01:05-08:00 mrmcdaniel http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=8837

What I want... To be able to make a living from my art and leave the world of custodial work far behind me. Also have a strong desire to move to Eastern Europe (Preferably Russia). What I ...

What I want...

To be able to make a living from my art and leave the world of custodial work far behind me. Also have a strong desire to move to Eastern Europe (Preferably Russia).

What I hate...

At the moment, large gatherings of people... b/c it means I'm going to have a large mess to clean up!
Something filthy
While cleaning the women's restrooms at work I regularly find soiled women's panties in the sanitary napkin receptacles.
Something strange

the noises my dog is making right now as he sleeps at the foot of my bed. It's like he's having a doggie-seizure or something
something wonderful
the sound of my wife's breathing beside me.
art

I make a web-comic. I've stalled with production a bit lately, b/c i've been so busy with "life" (excuses excuses!) however, things will pick up again shortly, I PROMISE!
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a thing for venting: An older friend of mine passed away earlier in the week due to complications when he went in for surgery to remove a bit of cancer. He's the 4th person that I've known that has ...

a thing for venting: An older friend of mine passed away earlier in the week due to complications when he went in for surgery to remove a bit of cancer. He's the 4th person that I've known that has died of cancer this year. I'm getting rather tired of it.

Tell me what you want, tell me what you hate: No, I don't want to.

Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful: There once was a girl that was quite infatuated with me, I was quite intrigued. We met once, only once, and I did my typical thing of being spiteful to mySelf just because I thought it would be funny to see what happened. It wasn't, and I still regret it every once in awhile. Especially when I hear a specific song. I'll let you imagine what it is because if I told you that would ruin it for you. It's probably completely unremarkable to anyone else but it will always remind me of what I did. I'm honestly not sure if I'll ever forgive mySelf for it and that worries me.

Tell me what art you make: When I was younger I use to draw. I stopped because I tended to copy what someone else had done before and I became tired of people telling me I should do it for a living. I haven't sketched anything for a few years now. I started writing short stories a few years ago and put them up on the 'web. I made sure that they weren't like something I had read before, at least, as original as can be expected from anything. Some people really liked them and a few of them started telling me that I should try to get them published. Again, but for a different reason all together, I stopped writing.
Now to use my imagination I design kitchens. I don't think it's nearly as creative as my mind needs to be but I'm not sure what I want to do instead (or as well) right now.

And here's a picture of me from a few years ago. (I don't have my picture taken often so you all have to deal with wedding pictures.)
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I want to sleep. But I think I need to go drunk-sit the friend who just broke up with her boyfriend of a few years. Or failing that, get drunk with her and bear the brunt of whatever ranting may ...

want to sleep. But I think I need to go drunk-sit the friend who just broke up with her boyfriend of a few years. Or failing that, get drunk with her and bear the brunt of whatever ranting may occur.
Filthy and strange definitely covers the boyfriend, who has been a couch hopper for some years now, who I have seen do disturbingly convincing Halloween drag, and who I also consider a friend, if a bit of a bastard. He's a likable sort of bastard, most times.
My art tends to be doodles, and aspires to be comics, but I am weak and focusless and have little to no drive. That bit I rather hate. Anyhow. Here is art that I made today, watching my cousin play high school 6-Man football, in a town so small the aging bleachers stood across from a field of goats guarded by a giant Pyrenese dog.

Any 'art' made from this point on tonight will be apple tarts to perhaps put something in a drunk stomach. Those are kinda fun to make, though.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269951#Comment_269951 2010-11-13T23:34:16-08:00 2010-11-13T23:37:30-08:00 oldhat http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=75

Well, just got back from a day full of successful gaming and meeting up with fellow whitechaplers. Had a really fun time. What I want: I think the big thing I want is a job that pays well on a ...

What I want: I think the big thing I want is a job that pays well on a regular basis. I enjoy being freelance, but I enjoy it even more when I have regular pay...
What I hate: Jeez, long list there. But to be honest one of my consistent hates has been...myself. Whether it's been on my weight, general appearance, artistic ability or just general fucking personality, I've always seen myself as a failure and never deserving of anything good I get. This is something I have to work on/get over and I've already started. Meeting some people with good damn advice helped that. But still...have a long way to go before I start appreciating myself.

My art: I'm a photographer. You can find my work here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/robinlphotos/

Me.
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Tell me what you want, tell me what you hate: I really want to be in control of my own damn mind for once. I am consistently indecisive about just about everything. I second-guess everything I do, ...

Tell me what you want, tell me what you hate: I really want to be in control of my own damn mind for once. I am consistently indecisive about just about everything. I second-guess everything I do, letting the voice in my head drag myself down a long road of "but what if". And I am terribly confused about thoughts I'm having over a certain subject I don't know if I'm comfortable getting into here. I've been thinking about therapy, if only to have someone to help get my thoughts organized, and to keep me from staring too long down the paths of life that I'm not taking. Or at least the wrong paths I'm not taking.

Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful: I went to a live wrestling show last night. That's pretty filthy. But fun! TNA did the last wrestling show to ever be held at the Nashville Fairgrounds, as the city is closing the place down. ...Is it bad that I'm getting a defense ready for my liking of wrestling? I figure, there's different kinds of fans for everything. For every stereotypical redneck who believes these guys are really trying to kill each other, there's someone who respects the fact that these guys put their health in danger for what is essentially performance art. Not to be kind of arrogant about it, of course.

Tell me what art you make: Heh. I wish I had a real answer for that. I've been kind of taken w/ the idea of making my hobby of drawing cards for people into a craft, but I don't have the confidence for it. I just doodle. I come up w/ funny ideas on occasion, but I don't have the talent to really translate them sometimes. God, I would love to make music videos, too, but I suffer the same problems. I have incredibly vivid ideas, but no way to make them exist.

No photo. It's far too late to bother w/ trying to get a picture of myself I like. And I even got my awesome new shirt on, too... damn.

ETA: Almost forgot. @dorkmuffin- I'm so sorry. It's getting close to two years since my grandmother passed away, and I wish I could tell you that it gets 100% better. But I still miss her. I guess it's kind of a good thing, though; it shows how much she meant to me. I don't even know what I'm trying to say here, but /hug regardless.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269957#Comment_269957 2010-11-13T23:55:20-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 mybrainhurts http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1584

It's 7:30am. I've been up for two hours after falling asleep early after a knackering week. Spent most of the two hours trying to pick my favourite 10 Direct Hit! songs. They're a band that have ...

Tough week workwise, my boss keeps telling me off for petty shit like coming in 2-3 minutes late a couple of times a week. He's just the deputy manager but the store manager is off for a few weeks with pneumonia and he's trying to assert his position. There's no way I'll get fired though as the store manager knows I'm the only one who's competent and manages to be a supervisor without pissing all the till staff off. I also got reprimanded for correcting the grammar and spelling in inter-store e-mails and on promotional signs and for writing "THIS IS FUCKING SHIT." on a flier that put on the wall of the staffroom saying that people who have worked at the shop for six months get a bonus, but they're taking that six months from 11 months ago so I get fuck all though I've been there over a year. I told him I was simply representing the democratic values the store claims to embody in its literature. He really doesn't like me. I have to amuse myself some way, writing the word 'HATE' all over said literature repeatedly got boring after a couple of hours and it's never quite quiet enough to get some decent reading done. I hate that place so much. The tedium, the casual racism and homophobia, the mismanagement, the constant hypocrisy. I'm done in January at the latest. It's been far too long already.

Went to an awesome punk show Thursday night. The Menzingers, The Arteries, Leagues Apart and some acoustic duo (acoustic duo seem to open every punk show I go to). The crowd was into it which made me feel awesome. Last time I saw a really good band the crowd did not move for shit. That makes it three Thursdays in a row I've done something good, Michael Gambon in Krapp's Last Tape, Stewart Lee and now this.

Today I'm going up to Manchester to see a few friends, get drunk and go to see Bomb the Music Industry! who I fucking love. They shouldn't work, a synth/punk/ska/acoustic collective doesn't sound like a good mix but it all comes together with such joy that it's irresistible. I love bands that sing about feeling like shit, but sing it in an uplifting way.

I write. I've posted a couple pieces here (generally extracts from a bigger thing) and one of the guys who I'm going to see puts out a zine that I have a few bits in. Other than that I'm trying to finish a novel which is mainly just me ranting about punk rock for a couple hundred pages.

]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269963#Comment_269963 2010-11-14T00:47:36-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 oddbill http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=4272

I'm actually typing this in the lobby of a hotel which becomes kind of a nightclub at night. So, technically, I'm at a nightclub on a Saturday Night full of young sexy creatures drinking and dancing, ...

That's me today at Kinetic Steamworks, which I think is located in Oakland. I'm visiting an old friend in San Francisco this weekend and getting around a bit. Saw a bunch of the big iron steam gurneys that Kinetic Steamworks hauls out to Burning Man every year, and then we went over to a gallery show of art from Pixar. Now, that was an eye-opening show. It absolutely reinforced my conviction that the greatest artists of our era are not in the fine-art world, they are all working in film, and half of them are with Pixar. The quality of work on display, some of it done for thrown away concepts, is incredible.

I draw and I write, these are my off hours creative outlets. The most public airing I've given those drawings though has been this forum. I'm being prodded by friends to put work out in the world more often. I'd like to, but haven't figured out how to yet. I'm working on it.

Many years ago I was an actor, and a good one. I did most of my work on stage and in live performances, no permanent record of which exists. Sometimes it feels like that life never happened. Then, once in a while, someone turns up from those days, or a photo resurfaces, and it's like finding a token of a magical kingdom from which I've been expelled. Cruel, fond reminders.

No reason I couldn't be doing that again, other than my ability to wrestle the effort together.

I hate the inertia of years misdirected.

I want a professional life built around creativity, and I am working on it.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269968#Comment_269968 2010-11-14T01:55:55-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 howyadoin http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1675

Tell me what you want Money, money, money, money. tell me what you hate. Poverty. Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful. Dunno about "wonderful", but a friend's wife made ...

Tell me what you want
Money, money, money, money.

tell me what you hate.
Poverty.

Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful.
Dunno about "wonderful", but a friend's wife made me an offer last night that I had trouble refusing.

And, in fact: tell me what art you make, if you make art. Do you write, draw, push pixels, dance, photograph, sew, model, sculpt, weld, sing, hammer, play, design... whatever... tell me what art you make?
Some of what I worked on today:



That's me fucking around with iridescents, phosphorescents and stencils.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269973#Comment_269973 2010-11-14T02:23:00-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 Seantaclaus http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=6498

@dorkmuffin - I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. That's a rough place to be in. My condolences. @Dmitri - I think that's a safe bet, regarding being about that (being in a poly ...

dorkmuffin - I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. That's a rough place to be in. My condolences.

@Dmitri - I think that's a safe bet, regarding being about that (being in a poly relationship) here. I've noticed an increase in the number of people who are willing to be open about that in recent years, and a lot more open-mindedness towards non-"traditional" relationship paradigms.

Tell me what you want, tell me what you hate.

I want to be in a place of more stability, and am slowly making my way that direction. I hate that I'm not currently in that place. Sometimes my pride gets in the way of asking for help when I should, or causes me to not relent in a situation when it may be better that I do. I think a lot of us are in that space right now, though, both here, and elsewhere.

This week was a learning experience for me. On the one hand, it was shit in a few areas, but at the same point, the learning experience, while harsh, was one that needed to be had. I ended up spending too much time on a project that I should have stepped back from a few weeks ago, when the opportunity was given to me. Other factors pushed me back just far enough that I wasn't going to be able to get it done, so on Monday the AD passed it to another person. Mind you, the AD is a good guy, is aware of the various factors that have caused chaos for me over the last several weeks, and wants to bring me on with a later book that isn't under a hard deadline. While that was a relief, it still pushed me back enough that I wasn't able to get in on the ground floor of another project that I was demoing for.

Like I said, hard lesson, but one that needed to be learned. Both of these were nobody's fault but mine, and at least I can take responsibility for that which is mine. I'll have other opportunities with both, but right now I'm shifting focus so that I can better get my shit in order.

Tell me something filthy, strange and wonderful.

I just painted something resembling a My Little Pony/Cthulhu crossbreed. I think that various parts of that sentence cover all of that... Well, except maybe "wonderful", but I made roasted garlic tonight, so that covers that part.

And, in fact: tell me what art you make, if you make art. Do you write, draw, push pixels, dance, photograph, sew, model, sculpt, weld, sing, hammer, play, design... whatever... tell me what art you make?

I'm a freelance artist. I paint, I draw, but of late it's mostly digital in nature. Here's a shot of my condensed, semi-nomadic setup, where I'm currently staying:



Using a Wacom tablet, ArtRage and Photoshop are my two primary tools, but I also make use of a number of others. I do a lot of custom brush creation and usage in Photoshop. Examples of the custom brushwork can be found in the background of this recent piece, where there was no photo used, just a couple brushes, blend mode play, and some light/shadow/color touch-up:



Here's the aforementioned "My Little Cthulhu" piece, shown at full size. I did it as one of the demo pieces of what quality one will be getting once I put my $5 Icon Art commission option live:



Finally, a picture of me, in what many would probably claim is my natural environment:



Thanks for the hospitality, Warren.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9182&Focus=269978#Comment_269978 2010-11-14T03:23:22-08:00 2013-05-20T07:31:05-07:00 texture http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1472

Seantaclaus, your work is exquisite... such amazing textures. Everybody, your creativity is astounding. Never stop. Tonight's SNOM made me think a lot about Whitechapel as a community, spread over ...

Tonight's SNOM made me think a lot about Whitechapel as a community, spread over so many different time zones, countries, buildings, seasons... it's not made out of those things though, its made out of people. You lot are real, and I love how the SNOM enriches my feel of who you are. There is an honesty here I don't find anywhere else online, and is very rare in my own life too.

It seems a lot of people on this forum suffer from a lot of self doubt, pain and alienation. I'm not exactly immune to such feelings... What antistigma said about soicial networking struck a chord... I just want you all to know that being part of Whitechapel is the most rewarding, reassuring, inspiring thing on the internet, and in my life. Seriously, you're one talented bunch of fuckers. Believe in yourselves or don't, but I believe in you. You people are important to me.

I write stuff, I make music, and I publish other people's fiction, many of them fine Whitechapel folk.

I've got a free hip-hop EP coming out soon on my netlabel Black Lantern Music, and I'm playing a one-day festival at the end of November in Edinburgh with some other bnds from the label. That's keeping me going. Work and life are stressful right now... nevertheless, reading this thread from start to finish has genuinely made me thankful for what I've got, in my life and right here, right now... you people are beautiful.

G'night.

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I make things, out of one thing or another. Glukkake isn't just a name to make people uncomfortable (though it sure is a cruel joke toward internet meet-ups). Currently I am exploring all the ...

Currently I am exploring all the various mediums I have available to me. I'm fixated on screenprinting and I think it might be the love of my life. We're having a bashful courtship, where we can't spend time away without getting depressed and angsty. And we stay up all night chatting on the phone.

I'm still trying to put together a team to make a videogame. It's a clever idea with a beautiful aesthetic and it needs to get out there. The main things I'm missing is a programmer and a reliable animator.

I'm starting to research making paints out of pigments. Because no one takes the time anymore and because I don't want to see this knowledge lost and maybe just maybe I'll make a beautiful new color. Or just have fun playing with gold dust like a decadent chinchilla.

And this is me with a bottle of ill-gotten scotch, starting to feel the sadness of leaving London and everything wonderful that it held:

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@Glukkake - I have industry experience with paintmaking, using both liquid and powder pigments. You're welcome to give me a shout if you need any advice. @Howyadoin - What's going on with those ...

@Howyadoin - What's going on with those stencils? I'm all fucking intrigued now.

@Oldhat - you're pretty cool. Don't be hard on yourself.]]>