2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/ Lussumo Vanilla & Feed Publisher http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299417#Comment_299417 2011-06-25T12:44:47-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 warrenellis http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2

Saturday Night Open Mic: for those newcomers who don't know the drill, Saturday Night Open Mic is for venting, posing, talking about your future, and trying not to spill drink down your ...

Saturday Night Open Mic: for those newcomers who don't know the drill, Saturday Night Open Mic is for venting, posing, talking about your future, and trying not to spill drink down your shirtfront.

Tell me about your week. Tell me your ambitions. Tell me one thing you want to have done by year's end. Tell me... hell, tell me what your new favourite thing is, what you're listening to right now, tell me anything you want me to know. Get something off your chest, make me laugh, or simply touch yourself furtively in the dark.

Photos are always good, but not essential.

Speak now.

-- W]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299419#Comment_299419 2011-06-25T13:04:17-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 Akiramich http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=3613

Warren, I live in Pittsburgh Pa and this weekend is the 7th anniversary of the David L Lawrence Convention Center hosting Anthrocon. Which means there are furries everywhere. And much discussion ...

I live in Pittsburgh Pa and this weekend is the 7th anniversary of the David L Lawrence Convention Center hosting Anthrocon. Which means there are furries everywhere. And much discussion in my office about the difference between plushies and furries, and how a number of people went to "Furry-oke" last night and made badges identifying themselves as trappers or poachers or some variation. Also it has been damp and rainy here the last couple days and Im worried that the furries might be a bit musty.

To go along with this, the Toonmuseum [in the same area] decided to have a superhero block party and are encouraging people to come dressed as super heroes and are having a lot of activites for the kids and such. So apparently there is a menage of superheroes and furries a couple blocks from my office but I can't be bothered to go check out the scene.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299420#Comment_299420 2011-06-25T13:08:08-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 Ninewhilenine83 http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=8787

Hello Warren Allfather. I have decided finally to become a more regular denizen rather than a lurker of this glorious webspace after finally realising the massive potential the internet holds for ...

I have decided finally to become a more regular denizen rather than a lurker of this glorious webspace after finally realising the massive potential the internet holds for me in particular, rather than just the world.

My week has been pretty shitty. I need to find another job because this one just plain isn't working out. But enough of that.

My ambitions are get a netlabel I've been gestating for a manner of weeks - Aural Sects, for those who are interested - into something workable that benefits all involved. We're following a very dangerous democratic formula, moderated by myself (all decisions are made by a consensus, meaning lots of to-ing and fro-ing) which makes sense as we're all in the same little pocket of resistance that doesn't grab too much attention in the music world, and is pretty much the only way we can do things properly when we all live in different timezones.

The one thing I was before years' end is to put out an honest-to-gods old fashioned album. I have been making pop music for less than 3 months, and two of which were spent doing drag mixes - before that was all dots on manuscript and gatherings of pianos and string players... I have the thing planned out in entirety from start to finish because structure is, like, my "thing", but no motivation to do it. I keep thinking the last thing anyone needs is yet another Witch House wannabe.

I'm currently buzzing my tits off to Light Asylum and our own Texture's remix of one of his tracks, Assassin's Creed (forthcoming on Aural Sects [shameless plug]). My favourite thing WAS turntable.fm which has been cruelly denied to me after three days of obsession.

The thing I need off my chest... I'm becoming increasingly aware that sharing my partner with another is not fulfilling my wants. I have what I need, but by Christ I want more of her. The only comforting thought I have is that it's better than nothing at all.

I think it would be almost impossible to make someone as brilliantly humorous as yourself laugh but here it goes:
What do Prince Charming and Wolverine have in common?
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Adam-Antium.

I am going to dye of shame in the corner. Touching myself furtively in the dark, just to cover all bases.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299422#Comment_299422 2011-06-25T14:09:01-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 ian holloway http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=6961

have something like 40 essays and assignments to mark by monday. not impossible but made inconvenient by my asthma rearing it's unwelcome head and the discovery that there was only one squirt left ...

not had time to listen to much new music of late which is annoying as i have a huge stack of submissions for the zine next to me waiting to be listened to. one more week of term and then i can start wading through them.

I cannot wait for this academic year to end it's been rewarding but has taken a severe toll on my health. i haven't felt this run down and tired in about 10 years.

am going to celebrate the end of term on friday with a couple of friends making cocktails (none of us have ever tried them) and recording an album of drunken improvisations.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299423#Comment_299423 2011-06-25T14:18:16-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 Andre Navarro http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1561

Filming on location is a nightmare. One would think shooting inside an apartment would be easier than, say, filming in a restaurant with customers and waiters walking by in the background and ...

One would think shooting inside an apartment would be easier than, say, filming in a restaurant with customers and waiters walking by in the background and talking very loudly. And usually it would be, if the apartment in question wasn't located in Santa Teresa.

Santa Teresa is a hill on the Lapa district. It's like a tumor growing out of a turd. Lapa is, during the weekend, the city's nightclub district and an absolute shithole. During the week, Lapa is just a shithole. Santa Teresa is slightly different. It's also a shithole. But which you climb a hill to get to.

I'd been warned by my colleagues that filming in Santa Teresa was a test of your will to live. And they were right. The neighborhood should be renamed Cacophonia.

First of all, no-one in Santa Teresa is aware that there's nothing wrong with talking to someone while standing next to them. No, people in Santa Teresa seem to think other people are radioactive and keep a distance of fifty yards from one another. Conversations go like this:

"HEY! PEDRO, HOW ARE YOU? ALL OKAY? SEEN THE SOCCER GAME LAST NIGHT? YEAH, THAT WAS A FOUL!"

When they finally shut up, I raise the boom mic, the director desperately presses the record button, the actors try to say their lines fast enough to finish the take but are invariably interrupted by another asshole yelling. Or all the dogs in Santa Teresa suddenly barking. Or a car going by. Or a bus going by. Or a fucking streetcar going by. Or a chainsaw. Or the director suffering a nervous breakdown.

We were also relying on sunlight. If we weren't done by sunset, the lighting would be ruined beyond the magic of post-processing. The constant noises were a huge delay, coupled with the usual problems we face in any shoot -- memory cards and batteries needing to be changed, finding power sources, cords that are long enough to get to them, sound configuration and so on. All this done by two people, the director of photography (me) and the director. Our third crew member couldn't be there that day.

At one point, we were filming outside the apartment. Minutes away from sunset. The actors were standing on their marks, I was holding a boom mic above them and the director was next to the camera, prepared to press the "record" button.

And this cunt comes up to us and goes --

"Y'all filming?"

The director was seemingly stunned silent by the sheer retardedness of the question. I nodded frantically, as in "YES GO THE FUCK AWAY" but the dumbass was looking at the director, who remained frozen.

"I just have some information I'd like to share with you," said the imbecile, "we have a movie company too, and we'd like to turn these stairs into seats so people can watch movies on a big screen we'll put up. We want to turn this spot into a cultural place, which should help the neighborhood..."

... and on he went for five precious minutes. I desperately tried to will the sun into going back up but surprisingly I failed. Meanwhile the director continued to listen silently, trying to think of a delicate way of telling the jackass to fuck off. You have to be careful not to hurt the brain of someone who actually believes it's a good idea to put a big, noisy movie screen right next to other people's apartments in a neighborhood that already has a noise problem.

We got the take finished but couldn't film anything else. By the end of that day's shoot me and the director were a fucking wreck. We're probably going back tomorrow to finish the job, and oh the joy that will accompany us shall make flowers blossom everywhere we pass.

But still it's a very fun job, it's what I always wanted to work at, and I got to direct my first short film. I shall be directing another, very different one soon.

So I can't complain. Although I just did, at length.

This is how I look these days:

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Today I made these: Oreo stuffed chocolate chip cookies, which I've dubbed diabeetus chip cookies, for a reddit meetup my wife is attending at the moment. I'm not cool enough for that scene, so I've ...

Oreo stuffed chocolate chip cookies, which I've dubbed diabeetus chip cookies, for a reddit meetup my wife is attending at the moment. I'm not cool enough for that scene, so I've settled in for a night of drinking alone (my favorite kind of drinking).

After a fit of rage over my atrophied art skills, I've signed up for Drawing 1 at my local community college for the Fall semester. I'm super excited, despite the fact that it's 8 am to 2 pm every Saturday. So for the next two moths before it starts, I've vowed to draw something, anything, every day. I'm going to draw some goddamn comics someday, 15 year old me, I promise!]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299426#Comment_299426 2011-06-25T14:29:27-07:00 2011-06-26T01:47:25-07:00 razrangel http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2075

Good day to you, Grandmaster Ellis. Early afternoon here and I have to tell you if El BatSpurioso doesn't keep up some kind of SNOM I will be very sad, indeed. These always encapsulate what a ...

Early afternoon here and I have to tell you if El BatSpurioso doesn't keep up some kind of SNOM I will be very sad, indeed. These always encapsulate what a fine community you created here at Whitechapel.

It's been a very quiet week of some work and some lazying out of work and some hanging out and some being afraid of the neighbors. Some problems with my oldest brother, the likes of which make me contemplate myself and how I've changed over the last dozen-ish years. Namely that in my early 20s I would have written out the sticky details here, but now I'm good with simply noting that my brother is not right in the head and the rest is a private matter for my family. I wonder if I'm embarrassed and that's all. i don't feel ashamed though. Annoyed that we have few options, certainly, but I don't want to share. It's peculiar really. I used to be so ready to bleed on everything and everyone, and now I want some mystique? huh?

whatever. Two voice classes this week up in Burbank, 40+ miles from where I live. Thankfully I have brilliant friends a lot closer who are eager to let me borrow their couch and a sleeping bag. I wonder what I should think of myself, couch surfing in middle age. But I think nothing other than I have brilliant friends. Trucked up for a class on preparing myself & my material for a voice demo. My teacher is Steve Staley. He's not coaching us just guiding us toward copy that will best suit what we can do in the booth and as such hm... I'm trying to think of a decent analogy that captures the careening energy at the same time that he's still and focused.... Can a riot be silent and still? Maybe a rampaging elephant that is very, very smart. At any rate his keen sense for copy and judgment of our voices has made me a bit sharper about this whole voice thing. I keep flip flopping on how ready I feel to make a demo. Sometimes I'm dead sure I could lay down something that would rock. Sometimes I'm dead sure I'd fuck up anything in front of me.

The second voice class was for animation with my previous coach, Melique Berger. I can't for the life of me find a decent list of credits of hers online. }:/ Now this lady is a crazy good time. Her personality is huge and the madder she gets, the easier it is for me. At least, it's really hard to be nervous if I'm laughing my ass off. But she taught me the basics of reading for commericals, now it's on to being a cartoon. The sort of voice work that I've fucked around with since I was kid and entertaining my siblings with renditions of Roger Rabbit, Sylvester the Cat, Darth Vader, GI Jane and The Baroness.... Gonna be a good time, I just know it.

Between classes I hung out at the aforementioned good friends' house, which I've named the HP Haus, but also refer to it as my home away from home and my forward operating base. The people there are Burners, as are their friends in the house next door. And it all works out like one extensive tribe of warm and generous people about 98% of the time. But there's 2% of the time when there are folks who abuse the generosity, who demand continuous attention and/or strife, or who take the openness and tolerance to a degree the others don't feel comfortable with. I try to step lightly around because usually it's a balance that works out beautifully. But this time a couple things got out of control just a titch, enough that friends weren't as shiny happy as usual. But I think - hope - it'll settle soon enough.

For me the downside of the HP Haus was that this time the couch betrayed me and fucked up my back somehow. Two days later and if I move wrong I'll get shooting pains stabbing up my back. No good. I have shit to do and I'm already prone to laziness. One more excuse is so not what I need.


As you can guess, I'm aiming for a voice over career. In the fall I'm planning on resuming my Japanese studies. I want to take myself seriously as an actor. I want to be trilingual (which means I need to up my Spanish a little, right now it's too casual). I want to travel to Japan as well as around Latin America. I want to write and speak professionally in these languages. I'm a decent writer, I reckon, having already made a living writing copy and doing a fair job of articles and essays here and there. I want to fix things, make the world better, and that.

But narrowing the scope, I want to be able to converse, even if it's simply, in Japanese by the end of the year. I want to have a demo and have done at least one professional commercial (e.g. one where I got paid, even if it was non-union, regional radio...).

New favorite thing... thinking my way into non-thinking. I like being present to every moment. To rub up against its edges, lick the ambiance, take its reality in deep. But that's no kind of way to move forward. Professional success requires being ahead of the experience, even if its just by the skin of one's nose, and knowing your shit is going to land just the way you planned. I got too good at not thinking ahead of myself, maybe. (Though probably not.) And I have to break with that. Kill my mind in order to free it. So the new favorite thing is really the old favorite thing, but in a pretty new hat.

Listening to Charles Mingus. Earlier it was traditional Mexican music, which I don't really mind, that my parents were playing. I've grown up listening to it and some of it's a lot of fun to sing to. At any rate, of the music my parents play it's far and away better than the soppy English-language lounge standards they love.

I've gone on for far too long. I'm putting off joining my folks at the park a couple of while away. Family reunion of sorts. Being at the park I can't hit the drink every time some old biddy asks me how i'm doing in college. Moreover, it's bittersweet. Well, bitter-blank. I'm not in a hurry to memorize my cousin's names and their herds of children. And most of my aunts and uncles that I once looked forward to seeing again...well I'm not going to be seeing them, at least not today. Probably.


Last, but not least, Warren, I don't know if you've seen this - the 10,000 year clock - but as I read the post I kept thinking, "What will the Warren Ellis of 1000 years from now make of this? I wonder if he'll think we're complete idiots but also indulge a little smile somewhere in his alcohol-inoculated heart."]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299429#Comment_299429 2011-06-25T14:48:16-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 RobSpalding http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=647

Evening all. I'm currently into the second day of 4 of being alone in the house. This marks the longest time since I got ill 8 years ago that I've had to fly solo. Seem to be coping alright so ...

I'm currently into the second day of 4 of being alone in the house. This marks the longest time since I got ill 8 years ago that I've had to fly solo. Seem to be coping alright so far, but forward planning of pre-packed foods was essential.

I am getting drunk and being followed around the house by a very confused dog. Who is getting more confused the more drunk I get.

By years end I want to have started a small press ebook publisher. Have already bagsed a novella off a mate, now to organise logos, websites etc.
I would also like to have sold a piece of my own writing, but I have no real control over that one.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299430#Comment_299430 2011-06-25T15:17:53-07:00 2011-06-25T15:20:43-07:00 Warped Savant http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2376

New this week: I bought a house. The dining room looks like this: The ceilings are carved wood, and it is pretty darn nifty. My wife and I have been spending the last week getting it sorted. ...

The ceilings are carved wood, and it is pretty darn nifty.
My wife and I have been spending the last week getting it sorted. Still not even close to done, but it's looking better... I really have no idea what to say on these things.
Owning a house is something that I've always known I would do eventually, and something that never occurred to my wife.
As for something that I want done by the end of the year: Getting some of the plaster redone would be nice, followed by painting. Possibly ripping out the carpet and refinishing the fir wood floors.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299433#Comment_299433 2011-06-25T16:00:54-07:00 2011-06-25T16:20:46-07:00 chris g http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1829

Hello, Cyber Swami. Hope you are well and have your nurses at the ready to top off your Red Bull IV drip. I was going to go to pro wrestling academy but they wanted like $150 on the spot. That is ...

I was going to go to pro wrestling academy but they wanted like $150 on the spot. That is probably reasonable if you have nothing better to do than spend mommy and daddies money but I work for what I've got and well, I'm not THAT desperate to feel alive and beat some ass or whatever.
Anyway, the new Space Shark (#28) strip has been taking me all week to draw. I am becoming miserable because I can't finish my stupid comics, so I will cap things off at #30, nice even number. It's time to do something else for a while. Thanks for holding an open mic once again and for your support!

Anyway, SDCC next month! Fuuuu--

domino masks are cool :P]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299434#Comment_299434 2011-06-25T16:14:55-07:00 2011-06-25T17:37:53-07:00 Will Ellwood http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2556

I've had a good week. Today I went to part one of Alt Fiction, the science fiction, fantasy and horror convention in the East Midlands. Also seeing a comic I've written finally be published online ...

After a tutorial from Graham Joyce, I've decided that my ambition really is to become a Zen master of short stories. I want to learn how to write taunt wiry short stories that climb their way up up a massive cliff face balancing only on quartz crystals the size of pin heads.

I'm listening to Four Tet. You should know that the SF community is still bloody infuriating.

Decompression TV and sleep needed now. No pictures.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299435#Comment_299435 2011-06-25T16:17:31-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 Seantaclaus http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=6498

Good Evening Warren, Si, Whitechapel... The mundane: After over 2 months of ongoing issue, maintenance actually found the massive leak in the air conditioning unit that's been plaguing my roommate ...

The mundane: After over 2 months of ongoing issue, maintenance actually found the massive leak in the air conditioning unit that's been plaguing my roommate and I. Apparently, one of the pieces of copper tubing connected to the roof part of the unit had slowly vibrated loose over the last 25 years, causing part of the unit housing that the tube was rubbing against to act as a crude hack saw. So, functional AC is finally back in order. Now it's a matter of seeing how long it takes them to address the leaks and black mold in the bathroom, as I showed it to them on Thursday when they repaired the AC, and they acknowledge that it was a priority issue. Downside is that the maintenance guy who was here specializes in HVAC, and is the only one they have for 700+ properties (not counting individual rental units within the properties). The upside is that he said he's going to bring it up to his supervisor directly about having it looked at, and that he actually gave me his cell number (which he doesn't hand out), and told me to call him if I don't see someone here by Tuesday. All in all, while I don't care for the slumlord management company that my temporary roommate rents from, I have to give credit and respect to the HVAC maintenance guy for being willing to grease the proverbial wheel of his own accord like that-- many (perhaps even most) wouldn't.

My plans: Keep moving forward, no matter how slow it may feel at times. Sometimes it's the slightest of movement, but any movement is better than none, and eventually things get closer. I think we all find ourselves at moments of self-perceived stagnation at times.

Artistically, I need to find a good way to set up a streamlined commission ordering system on my website. Just as importantly, if not more so, I need to find an optimal way to make prints avaibable of my artwork. Any input on this would be appreciation, including options for POD ordering, and high quality prints. There are probably a number of creative types on this site that would be interested in this info, actually. One thing I don't want to do is be the home laserprinter person--I have one very talented friend who sells prints of their art, and upon seeing the prints they're selling, it looks like a bad home printing job. Not only does that detract from one's work, but it's also a potential letdown for anyone ordering a print that expects a decent quality. Whatever option I take, it will be at least next week before I'm able to start putting time into looking at it, as I have one looming priority right now. By year's end, I hope to have these things well in place, to have steady work in the gaming industry from a couple sources, and to be at a point that I can be back home in Kansas City, where all of my stuff is currently in storage with friends.

This weekend is my 20th High School Reunion. I've been C O M P L E T E L Y disinterested in going. So, while numerous people from high school are in town, and one event was just scant blocks away from me at a bar last night, I've just opted not to go.

Yesterday I caught up with a very old friend, who's in town for said reunion, and made some new friends. Then, I went to visit another old friend, who works at the comic store that I bought my comics at when I used to collect. He still works there, albeit with a handful of years away somewhere between when I stopped collecting in '95 and now. While there, the owner stopped in, who I hadn't seen since I stopped collecting-- he's owned the shop for over 30 years. We talked for a bit, and I mentioned that I recently discovered that my comics were still in existence, although I'm not currently sure of the state they're in. In turn, I offered them first shot at selling them-- they may not get much, given that the comics market isn't what it was, but to be honest, anything out of them is basically unexpected bonus, given that I thought they were gone, and if I can allow them to pull a profit off of it in the process, all the better. They're good people, they were good to me, and all these years later, it would be nice to show that I still have appreciation for that. All in all, yesterday was a good day, better than I expected.

Here's a picture of me with the friend in town for the reunion:



The pizza dough on my head is courtesy of the 10yr old son of one of said new friends. No, I didn't kill him. Nor did I deposit him in the trash can. I promise. ;)

Now I sit here, ready to do a major push on a cover that I'm coloring. You'll probably see it here when I'm done, but I'll leave that up to Emmy's discretion as to when I'm able to post it. There's a honeyed brandy on the rocks next to me, a large flagon (read: plastic fast food cup) of sweet iced coffee next to it, and, waiting for me in the fridge, a can of this:



(ingredients actually include red peppers, salt, spices, and garlic...)

Courtesy of my roommate, who brought it back from California, where he found it for $0.50/can.

Needless to say, tonight should prove interesting... Pray I don't die, otherwise Emmy has to find another colorist to complete the job (AWKWARD).

As always, thank you for your hospitality.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299436#Comment_299436 2011-06-25T16:18:47-07:00 2011-06-25T16:19:13-07:00 HEY APATHY! http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=9019

I am getting older. I knew it would happen but it never really occurred to me that I would be so conscious of it; actually feeling my skin wrinkle, sag and begin to droop under the chin. Hooray for ...

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299437#Comment_299437 2011-06-25T16:22:23-07:00 2011-06-25T16:23:03-07:00 Yskaya http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1359

Hi Warren, *Cough* the thread as mentioned by Will Ellwood *cough* Made a start on making good on things I'd promised in 2010. It's been a busy few months. I've been moody and hidden myself ...

*Cough* the thread as mentioned by Will Ellwood *cough*

Made a start on making good on things I'd promised in 2010.
It's been a busy few months. I've been moody and hidden myself from the internet, or from another perspective,
have not exposed myself on the internet that much.

Annnd I gained another superpower!



Hope the evening finds you well.

ta!]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299438#Comment_299438 2011-06-25T16:49:00-07:00 2011-06-25T16:49:28-07:00 oldhat http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=75

The past...hell, two weeks have been pretty fabulous. I went to NYC again last week. Sadly, for not much time, but I managed to meet a few Whitechapel folks and a few friends. Next time I head ...

I went to NYC again last week. Sadly, for not much time, but I managed to meet a few Whitechapel folks and a few friends. Next time I head back it will be for longer and Katelan Foisy and I have already decided that we'll be heading to Coney Island for a shoot. The place is absolutely fabulous and I was impressed with myself for finding a Freak Show with a bar within five minutes of arriving in that strange land.

This week was essentially hitting the ground running, allowing for now recovery time from the trip. At the office, a client is launching an album while another is releasing a music video for the first time in five years. On the homefront, I had things to do which was exciting. It was wonderful to visit with the ever-talented and wonderful Veronika von Voklova, who was visiting Toronto for a bit. We had dinner, schemed on photo stuff and went out to take some photos around the Danforth area.It was wonderful. Other nights, I went to a client's release party concert, and on friday a performance I was INCREDIBLY excited about, the Glenn Miller Orchestra. I had been listening to Glenn Miller along with Ray Noble and many others since high school. So it was a...big deal for me. I took off work early and made an effort to glam myself up best I could.

My Beer blog, The Thirsty Wench is starting to get...noticed. I'm finding posts are being linked by breweries and, most notably, the Ontario Craft Brewer's Association. It's...interesting.

Photography, sadly, is being limited to exercises and excursions for me. With a little luck, I'll be collaborating with some folks and doing some concept pieces that are more up my alley VERY soon.

Here's a bad cell phone pic of me from last night on the way to the Glenn Miller Orchestra.
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finally finished my master's thesis. sat on it for almost a year until i had to defend it in front of a jury last friday. it was a grueling two hour session in wich my work (teaching art to k-12 ...

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299443#Comment_299443 2011-06-25T17:35:51-07:00 2011-06-25T21:07:30-07:00 trini_naenae http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=183

Week: I have discovered that I really don't enjoy the responsibilities that bosses usually have. I've had to basically keep things going with two new-ish workers, who are both people I like, except. ...

Ambitions: Hah! I think for now it's best if I don't think about that.
Have done by year's end: Be a little saner. I think I can do that. Maybe. Actually, move out of my parents' house.

I don't think I have any new favorite things now, or anything that I'm listening to that is worth mentioning, and I'm not sure you want to read what I'm thinking right now. Is is sad that I'm more comfortable telling strangers on the internet about what's going on with me than my therapist? The depression is getting worse, and I'm not sure what to do next, because right now counselling is an awkward waste of money. It's become fairly obvious that I can't even push myself to draw something simple like a pear, on top of the nerves in my arms/wrists/hands having issues. I'm starting to suspect that I have some sort of narcissistic disorder as I can rarely think much of my own artwork without someone else with good taste telling me it's good. I've been taking photos still. I've got at least 200 photos to go through so that's something. I'm getting to be needy again, and it seems I'm alienating people no matter how careful I try to be. I'm so fucking lonely, it's almost hilarious.

I may post a photo when the other computer becomes available so I can actually get the photo I want to use online.
Edit: Self portrait added:
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@Warped Savant if I moved into that place I'd spend at least a week laying on the carpet, staring at the ceiling. Lovely place.

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299445#Comment_299445 2011-06-25T17:50:30-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 infomancer http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=5161

It's my birthday. 29 years. Seems weird.

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299446#Comment_299446 2011-06-25T17:53:38-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 trini_naenae http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=183

@infomancer: Happy Birthday! My birthdays have been feeling weird for a while now.

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299449#Comment_299449 2011-06-25T18:29:24-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 Dextra http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=279

I've had a very strange time lately. I've been going through a bout of depression coupled with panic attacks for the last week or so. Fun! Or not. It's made the simplest things difficult. Thankfully, ...

This was a good idea, it seems. Yesterday I was fatigued and miserable and spent most of the day in bed watching tv. Today I woke up and made things. I tried doing some things that I had initially waved off, like working on some art, taking some time to be alone, and singing out my frustrations. I'll be damned. It worked. I feel a million times better than yesterday.

I think just a lot of things that I've been having to deal with ganged up on me at once. My grandmother is dying, there's family drama by the truckloads, my job is stressing me out, I'm going to be moving in the next few weeks, etc. I hadn't quit with the drugs a couple of years ago, I'd be doing my best Linday Lohan impersonation about now. So learning how to deal with all this without the chemical assistance is a lot like learning how to walk again. I'm wobbly as fuck, but getting my footing.

And I cut my hair just a little too short. I'd post a picture, but I hate it. Thankfully, it grows like wildfire, so I won't have to deal with this for too long.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299451#Comment_299451 2011-06-25T18:40:55-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 used_bandaid http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1741

Hi, Its been years and years but I've finally found a job which is part time and pays me just enough to pay rent and eat. I'm finally able to draw and make comics again and it feels great. All ...

Its been years and years but I've finally found a job which is part time and pays me just enough to pay rent and eat.

I'm finally able to draw and make comics again and it feels great. All I've been doing for the past month is sitting up in my room drawing and wearing fat man pants. Its been fantastic.

My goal is to work on my comic and maybe in the future make some extra income from it. Also I'm building a portfolio for children's illustrations. Truth be told I don't really like children but if I wanna draw for a living thats where the money as at (or so I've been told)

Anyway thats me for the moe.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299452#Comment_299452 2011-06-25T18:44:39-07:00 2011-06-26T04:19:44-07:00 Beamish http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=8236

Well, this week I am about the start the mid point week of the summer semester and continuing through the shit hole that I call work as I eagerly await graduating so I can get out of there, enough of ...

This upcoming week will also bring my second sermon in a long time, a Linux command line midterm exam and more shit slinging at work. The upside is my second speech for my communications course, "Comics Are(n't) Just for Children," in which I mention the work of Mr. Ellis and others who bring adult themes and issues to comics.

As summer has rolled around I switch, musically, over to hip-hop, specifically Blackalicious. By the end of the year my comic should be produced and hopefully printed, somewhere.

This happened, by the way I work in finance, for now.



And this is me watching some tv.

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First post woooo! Long time lurker, first time poster, blah blah blah. Just haven't had anything that interesting to say I suppose. ...And continuing in the that vein, I'm not really doing shit, ...

I was out running an errand today, and I pulled up to a stop sign right next to one of those “assisted living” sort of places. You know, the buildings where old people who’s families have abandoned them go to die? Yeah. Well I guess someone bit the dust, because there was a bunch of EMTs outside the building with a stretcher that clearly had a body on it, but was completely covered up and no one seemed like they were in any sort of rush. (so I’m pretty sure it was a corpse). Anywho, as I pulled up the stop sign 2 of them starting rushing over and flagging me down. I had to explain to them that I just drive a hearse for fun and wasn’t actually there to pick anyone up.

Although… I must admit, for a second there, I was pretty tempted to tell them to just throw the stiff in the back…

Here's a picture of M.A.U.D.E. She's a 1972 Cadillac.
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Despite most people in here having stressful or otherwise subpar weeks, my week has been pretty stellar. There is a distinct possibility that I feed off of the unhappiness of the human race. There ...

There hasn't been a single event or even a set of events that have made this week good for me. I think that I just really enjoy being productive, which up until now has been an unusual situation for me. Hopefully I'll be able to keep going like this in the future, as I think I am finally starting to develop some decent habits around getting things done (for those that want tips: don't work at home, especially when you have many shiny distracting games that your mobile computer can't handle). I've gotten a whole bunch of programming done this week, and today I managed to chew through over half of a short story for Steevo's super-short fic thingy. It's looking like I'll be able to finish this one, too, which is a bonus.

I think another part of it is that it is finally starting to sink in that I'm done with school. I feel like I've been waiting for the other shoe to drop since I finished just less than a month ago, and just recently someone came along and swept the first shoe into a corner when I had my back turned.

This evening has turned out ruddy brilliant, so I'm going to spend the rest of it sitting back and enjoying some tasty beer.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299460#Comment_299460 2011-06-25T20:18:03-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 infomancer http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=5161

@trini Thanks! Good to know this is a common side effect.

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299461#Comment_299461 2011-06-25T20:21:11-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 Fishelle http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=8854

This week has had me mostly frustrated with a boy, but that seems to be the thing I always talk about when I come here, so I'll spare you that this time around. This weekend we have had a family ...

This weekend we have had a family reunion for my mom's side. I'm not close to an of these cousins, and found I had nothing to talk about with any of them. There's one that's trying out for the Olympics next summer, and that didn't even come up. It was just the usual small talk, where's are you with school/work/whatever. It lasted maybe 3 minutes. And that's the longest conversation I've had with anyone here.
I also failed once again to purchase Comic Con tickets. My hopes weren't high this time around, but it still reminded me of the heartbreak I had the first time I tried to get tickets, after saving for it for a couple of years and whatnot. It's all for the best, really, as the money I had saved wound up going to a trip to New York, and I wouldn't have been able to afford it anyway. And I doubt there's any hotel rooms available that weekend in San Diego.
Instead I'm going to try and go to a Printmaking conference in New Orleans this spring with my new school. My old printmaking professor and friend Adam informed me that they do that there, and they sell prints as a fundraiser. Looking forward to that. Hoping I can find a way to pay for it.
Other plans include getting an etsy store up and running this week. I need better images of a couple things first, but I'm hoping to put stuff up on Monday. I've basically got the listings ready for a handmade book of prints, a large print, a small print, and some old prints I'm sick of owning so I'll be selling for like $3 each. Once I have a working printer, I'd like to start selling my one finished comic. Once I have access to a printing press I'd like to list more stuff. And I've got more prints and drawings lying around. Hopefully something will sell, and I'll be able to use that money for New Orleans fund or the Give Trishelle Money So She Can Eat Because It's Healthy To Do That Every Once In A While And Sometimes She Gets Sick of Being So Skinny Fund.
I started a new comic this weekend. I'm currently using a 4 panel grid and calling it "Distance Makes the Heart Grow Fonder" because that's what my boyfriend told me before the summer and I've been thinking about it a lot lately. Not sure if it's true or not, but it seems to be in some cases. For my summertime day job I'm working with an old friend who used to live across the street and we would play Barbies and watch Sailor Moon together as kids, and I'm really realizing just how much I missed her and how sad it is I suck so bad at keeping in touch with people. But when it comes to the boy, distance just makes things more frustrating.
I don't know where it will go, if I'll ever finish it. I'm coming to realize that my art is autobiographical narratives in all the mediums I use. The pieces I'm most proud of are the ones that make me cry when I talk about them (and my Woman in Training print because no one will shut up about how much they love that thing). I think this comic will be one of those. I just have a hard time with comics because they take me such a long time, and sometimes I feel different about the subject midway through the work and they don't feel true anymore. My last comic was a struggle, as a lot of it was time spent with the boy, and he dumped me when I was half done inking it, and the last thing in the world I felt like drawing was the two of us together.
I want to do comics. I want to make autobiographical art. I don't know how much I really want to do autobiographical comics though. But it seems to be the obvious option.
I am listening to family playing Settlers of Catan, a game I don't much enjoy, but have been asked to play about 50 times this weekend. I'm listening to a terrible children's show on the television in my uncles cabin. I'm listening to people that I'm physically close to at the moment speak, and I'm contemplating the idea of distance some more. I'd rather be listening to my pencil moving across some paper and my friend Becky's songs, but I've been very antisocial about this thing, and there's currently no screaming children. I can wait.

Thanks, Warren, for everything.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299462#Comment_299462 2011-06-25T20:27:33-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 rickiep00h http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2930

Tell me about your week. Not much to tell besides my best friend coming down from back home. He came to go to GearFest, which is a big fucking tradeshow thing that my wife's employer puts on for ...

Tell me about your week.
Not much to tell besides my best friend coming down from back home. He came to go to GearFest, which is a big fucking tradeshow thing that my wife's employer puts on for music geeks and nerds of all sorts. Alan Parsons happened to come this year, and I was, frankly, bored to tears. I'd love to pick his brain over a pint, but he's not great in front of a crowd. HOWEVER, I also sat in on a couple other presentations, including one with Dave Ellefson (from Megadeth) and Frank Bello (from Anthrax) and I got to ask a question during Q&A! It was pretty sweet!

My friend, he's a drummer. I am not. So we finally worked out a drum bit that has been bothering me for a while in a song I'm working on. Don't know if it will get to full song level, but at least it's better now that it was.

Oh, and I'd be remiss if I didn't mention that I got published in a lit zine my friend put together. Since I neglected to put the link up anywhere else, you can check it out at Magcloud. Page 12 is all me.

Tell me your ambitions.
Right now it's getting into and finishing school. If I get in this year and manage to graduate, I'll be 34 when I get out. I think that will be enough avoiding the real world for one person.

Tell me one thing you want to have done by year's end.
I'd like to a) get published somewhere that isn't run by a personal friend, or b) finish an EP's worth of good songs. I've been spinning in a rut for a good three years. It's time to get out of it.

Tell me... hell, tell me what your new favourite thing is,
Toontrack Superior Drummer 2.0. It's a lot of fun when you're triggering it with a Rock Band drum kit.
what you're listening to right now,
Lately it's been bouncing between thrash metal and Lady Gaga. I also finally got a good mp3 copy of Ziggy Stardust, so I don't have to fire up the turntable every time I want to annoy the hell out of my wife. (I play the opening progression to the title track on my acoustic, and it drives her insane and I giggle madly every time she half-heartedly attempts to kill me. Having it on my computer, available without warning, delights me.)
tell me anything you want me to know.
Alan Parsons is freakishly tall. There must be something magical about tall, bearded Brits named Alan.

Get something off your chest, make me laugh, or simply touch yourself furtively in the dark.
1. Nothing much to say. I do hope that The Transition is painless and that you'll come tickle our brains occasionally here.
2. I am terribly unfunny. I can't even think of a good Dead Baby Joke right now. You've probably heard them all anyway.
3. I'll get to that later. Hopefully I can make arrangements to have it done for me.

Good night, Herr Ellis, and I hope this isn't the last one of these threads we see.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299466#Comment_299466 2011-06-25T21:17:08-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 CamyLuna http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=3271

Yesterday I took a standup paddleboard lesson and was always last in the group. I wasn't trying to go easy. Even though I thought that I was putting in the same effort as everyone else, the result of ...

Last summer the little place where we were learning was filled with hundreds of stingrays and leopard sharks. I'd like to go out before they start coming. I probably wouldn't notice until I was in the middle of it all wondering why the water was black and moving strangely.

If they start to mass again this year, I'll take pictures.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299467#Comment_299467 2011-06-25T21:22:21-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 Alan Tyson http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1299

It is disturbingly likely that I just saved someone from an emotional crisis just through the simple act of talking to her about poetry. Just be there for other people when they ask you to be. ...

Just be there for other people when they ask you to be. That's all you have to do, I think - that's your debt re-payed, right there.

@m4dh4tt3r: M.A.U.D.E. is one classy lady.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299468#Comment_299468 2011-06-25T21:27:25-07:00 2011-06-25T21:28:47-07:00 FC http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=146

Tell me about your week. It's been somewhat busy. One of those 'hurry up and wait' weeks where i rush to get stuff done and wait...and wait... and wait... for client input. But i've more or less ...

Tell me about your week.
It's been somewhat busy. One of those 'hurry up and wait' weeks where i rush to get stuff done and wait...and wait... and wait... for client input. But i've more or less accepted this is just part of the process. I have been finding things to occupy myself in the mean time.

About a month ago, I volunteered to do some photographing for a charity benefit in my area - the event happened two nights ago;12 local bands raising money for an organization that provides funding and education for music in Canadian schools. Fun stuff, good experience.

Tell me your ambitions. Tell me one thing you want to have done by year's end.
I want - and need - to push my illustration and photography beyond 'hobbyist'. I feel a little tired of my current field and while i don't want to abandon it completely, feel like i need to return to my roots creatively and establish myself further. By year's end I'd like at least to be partially employed (not casually) in either field. I definitely need to set aside the time to make that happen. Hopefully once i'm over and done with the three work projects i've got now, i'll be able to do that.

Tell me... hell, tell me what your new favourite thing is, what you're listening to right now, tell me anything you want me to know.
As an odd delinquent child, i would *not* do my homework. I would *not* be a responsible student. Instead, I would watch TV. It was so insidious that my parents rigged up a wooden box installed around a timer, which the TV was plugged in to... so I'd just grab a screwdriver from my Dad's toolbox and take the box apart.

Just to watch reruns of classic TV mysteries. Like Banacek. The Rockford Files. McMillan & Wife. Remington Steele.

Columbo.. It goes without saying - RIP Peter Falk.



In other news, I attended a KD Lang concert last Friday - it was incredible. Then two days later, performances by Joey Wright and John Southworth. I think i've been spoiling myself for music lately.

Summer is ramping up here. So is festival season... and just events in town in general. There's so much i want to do and see but so little time. I really wish i didn't have to wear so many hats but I'm resigned to the fact that I want/need control over all parts of my business and find it difficult to manage otherwise. It's that or take on a 9-5 again (and I think I've pretty much ruined myself for that at this point). Not that normalcy wouldn't be nice, but weathering months of emptiness then months of utter frustration over being ridiculously busy would be easier if i didn't have to do it alone.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299469#Comment_299469 2011-06-25T21:35:05-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 agentarsenic http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2955

This week I took two finals on my long ambitious road to becoming a webdev with a degree. My favorite thing right now is A Song of Fire and Ice. I'm listening to the audiobooks now. Today I'm having ...

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299472#Comment_299472 2011-06-25T22:19:46-07:00 2011-06-25T22:34:24-07:00 StefanJ http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=961

First somewhat relaxed week in some time. Rumors, lost deals, and cancelled projects at work, and consequently long sleepless nights wondering if I'd be getting the axe, for reasons having nothing to ...

Ambitions? Cripes, I found myself day-dreaming about winnng the lottery. I like my job fine, and it pays well, but since getting into the high-tech high-pressure thing I can't think about the future or things I'd like to do past the weekend.

I kept sane the last few weeks by working on a spontaneous project:



Beautiful perfect sunny Oregon day. Got stuff done on my car, saw the X-Men movie, got my watch fixed, sanded and painted model rockets.

If I can wind myself down enough, I'll spend tomorrow reading A Wise Man's Fears and a Jim Woodring FRANK adventure.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299473#Comment_299473 2011-06-25T22:22:45-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 outlawpoet http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=3601

This week I'm just trying to recover from crunch time at work. Also, trying to get this damn EEG machine to work for a crashspace project.

]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299475#Comment_299475 2011-06-25T23:03:02-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 DavidLejeune http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=4220

Hello the internet. A handful of Big Things happened since last we spoke. I got a promotion at work (effective July 11th), so now I are a Lead instead of a Specialist, and that is good. This ...

A handful of Big Things happened since last we spoke. I got a promotion at work (effective July 11th), so now I are a Lead instead of a Specialist, and that is good. This past week I got approval for the apartment that I wanted because I am fairly certain that it is the only place that will make living in Phoenix bearable for me, being within walking distance of a couple of cool little bars and art galleries and a pretty nice organic grocery place that sells vegenaise (I was very worried that I wouldn't be able to get that in Phoenix). On the other hand, my experience of Phoenix when I was out there apartment hunting soured me on that city even more than I already was, so I'll be even more desperate to get myself a job back out here in California as soon as possible. Also I am moving at the end of July, which puts a pretty hard deadline on me doing the rest of my Farewell L.A. Tour.

Spent all day at a family function in Santa Barbara because cousin from Australia and cousin from Canada were in town. Fun to spend time with my nieces, but I always feel awkward and slightly guilty around my grandfather because he is so old and frail now and I don't visit him as often as I should because I don't want my last memories of him to be of him as old and frail.

I liberated my trombones from my mother's house and have played a bit on one of them and discovered that my chops are pretty much completely gone, which is to be expected since I haven't played regularly since high school, or at all for about five years. I think that I will be spending rather a lot of time driving my neighbours crazy teaching myself to play again.

Here is me in my fancy clothes for shits and giggles playing my '40s vintage Olds:
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Whatup Warren. I'm writing this on my mobile device, sitting in a hotel room full of empty beer cans, a half gone bottle of brandy, a cashed bottle of some fancy liquor shit with an orange label, ...

I'm writing this on my mobile device, sitting in a hotel room full of empty beer cans, a half gone bottle of brandy, a cashed bottle of some fancy liquor shit with an orange label, and an unopened bottle of champagne. No, this is not a typical Saturday night for me. Someone is naked lying next to me, dreaming of multiple conversations at once ala an Altman flick. The television is stuck on some disgusting infomercial loop selling some sort of elaborate cardio machine. Juice, juice, juice. We got a winner. Outside the window and about 20 floors down there is a group of people congregating near a parking garage. They're standing in a circle pointing at things and laughing. It is just now 2 am. I can't help but think about my next album, my novel, and the supposed brain life-span after death. What in the fuck goes on in a brain after death? What is going on across the hall and a door down? And why does my reflection in the mirror look like some person I've never seen before? Thankfully it isn't a bear head. At least.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299478#Comment_299478 2011-06-26T00:30:29-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 Oxbrow http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=894

It's my birthday, and what I want above all is for the Edinburgh Book Festival website to work now that tickets are on sale. Grrr.

http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299481#Comment_299481 2011-06-26T01:10:26-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 MagicSword! http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1309

I'm now 31 and now I feel older, which I didn't last birthday. I go back to the old country in about six weeks, though only for ten days, and after that things will probably change for me in one way ...

And I'm in a weird place, both in my relationship and with regards to friends in general. In the last year most of my good friends here have gone back to their own countries, which is natural, but I can't deny it's pretty lonely, and being lonely gives you more time to obsessively try to over-think every decision in your life.Well.

I've been immersing myself in music, both making and listening to it more recently, so I've been dropping the writing and drawing side of things and that's probably what I should've done a long time ago. I think I need the focus. And today I've been wrestling with RSS feeds and all those little gadgets and apps and shit that, if I can get them all lined up would make my life easier, but it's doing that isn't it? It's getting them all lined up without one of them breaking. Anyway, I was inspired to sort that shit out by Warren, so it's all his fault.

Yesterday I found a big, gorgeous art book of Gilbert and George's work in the clearance section of a bookstore. Awescore! And it was too cold here yesterday, which I was overjoyed about after a few days of genuine heat. When I say I hate the summer, I really, really mean it.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299483#Comment_299483 2011-06-26T01:43:31-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 Rachæl Tyrell http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=552

The most recent photographs of me, as Audrey Horne... and accidentally looking frighteningly like Daisy from Spaced at the Simon Pegg signing... Tell me about your week. On Monday ...

and accidentally looking frighteningly like Daisy from Spaced at the Simon Pegg signing...



Tell me about your week.

On Monday celebrated a roommate's birthday by lounging on a private rooftop lounge at a swanky design firm on Park Avenue with a view of the Flatiron and Empire State Building. Yesterday, I saw a free performance by Reggie Watts. These make me happy for being back in NYC, but I'm thinking of... Portland next?

Thursday, I missed the Amanda Palmer show I had tickets for due to throbbing brain pressure. As a follow up to missing the King Lear with Derek Jacobi that I had tickets for, after also missing the entirety of Faith No More last year, I think I'm not going to allow myself to buy ticktets in advance for anything. Also, being that two weeks ago I met Robin at the Shat Ball and managed to remain oblivious that my drink was being perpetually refilled by a redshirt and thus get so dangerously drunk I was without the ability to get myself home, I have decided I'm not going to drink anymore (again). These past six months I'd been sticking my toe back in the pool of lushous inebriation, and I think I am too much a creature of momentum and compulsion to be trusted to drink alcohol. I'll keep it for special occasions in super safe environments.

Being so starkly reminded that my health still ruins things, I've begun a new round of new NYC doctor going. Wheeeeeee.

Tell me your ambitions.

To be happy. To be in love with someone who is in love with me back. To get my brain decompression surgery. To travel. To write. To get a college degree. To perform on stage. To paint. To read all the books I own. To learn how to not compulsively eat. To not feel haunted by the ratio of my age and lack of accomplishment.

Tell me one thing you want to have done by year's end.

I want to be secure.

Tell me... hell, tell me what your new favourite thing is, what you're listening to right now, tell me anything you want me to know. Get something off your chest, make me laugh, or simply touch yourself furtively in the dark.

Right now, I'm watching the Columbo episode "Last Salute to the Commodore". It's my favorite episode. At the time of it's filming, it was thought to be the last episode, due to contract disagreements. It's the only episode to NOT show the murder happening first. It was directed by Patrick McGoohan, and it's so brilliant and awkward and weird and I love it.

Yesterday I was thinking of those "That awkward moment when..." things I keep reading. All the ones that come to my mind are terrible, wrong, and (to me) hilarious:

That awkward moment when, days after being released from the mental hospital after the abortion induced psychological breakdown, your best friend discovers she's pregnant. And she's keeping it.

That awkward moment when, after repeatedly telling one friend how superior your other friend's heroin is, they meet and discover they have the same dealer.

That awkward moment when you realise your bad-idea sex bruises are camoflauged by your drunkenly-falling-down-subway-stairs bruises.

That awkward moment when you realise that you are already older than Bill Hicks was when he died, and you've not done a goddamned thing.

Ha ha ha... hah.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299484#Comment_299484 2011-06-26T01:54:56-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 razrangel http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2075

Well now, I finally found the upper limits of characters permitted in a post here. I hadn't meant to, it seemed better to add the below to my original post than give a SNOM Round 2. I'm not taking ...

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Just a few minutes ago I realized something: my old pen name of "nobody" doesn't fit me any more. I gave it to myself somewhere around the age of 12 or 13 and used it well into my 20s. My first IRC nicknames were "nobody" or variations thereof, and I continued using it on my first blog and even my Myspace page. But I was starting to prefer other nicknames by the time I got on Twitter and now I haven't felt the need for this nom de plume in three years or so. It's been in my mental space somewhere around 20 years, so realizing such a huge part of my self-image has change so certainly is a little bit breathtaking.

I used to wish, fervently at times, that I could be a non-etity. The opposite of an entity. I wished I could just be intelligence, floating about, watching everyone and taking pleasure in observable existence. I hated looking after myself. I was embarrassed at the space I took up. That absolute flip between completely silent and making even the slightest noise felt like an offense to me. But still I had my opinions and my feelings and I couldn't help by feel driven to make them known. It was how my emo confusion manifested itself in my teens and carried on into adulthood. I don't want it to sound trite; I'm not playing it down. I had severe mood issues when I was younger and still bear the scars. It's just that, like anyone, I had to find a way to see the world so that I could cope with it. But I've outgrown it. Maybe.

Damn, I really want my ouroboros tattoo now.
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While I'm at it: Happy birthday! to Mssrs Infomancer, Oxbrow, and MagicSword! I've already had a bit to drink, I'm retroactively making it in your honor!

'Night!]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299486#Comment_299486 2011-06-26T02:03:18-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 JP Carpenter http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=2485

@Rachel - very cool!!! Hello Whitechapel "We watched our friends grow up together And we saw them as they fell Some of them fell into Heaven And some of them fell into ...

Hello Whitechapel

"We watched our friends grow up together
And we saw them as they fell
Some of them fell into Heaven
And some of them fell into Hell"

It's now Sunday morning. I'm in a flat in Cambridge, the guy upstairs is belting out opressive gangsta rap that seems to be focussed entirely on murdering hos and bitches.

Have gone away for the weekend to stay with a friend who I hadn't seen for 18 months. I'd walked out on him previously as his drinking had become horrific and upsetting to the degree that I felt I could no longer be around it and couldn't help any more - was extremely shocked to find out that the last time I saw him he'd been fairly close to death from it (which was the catalyst for sorting things out). He seems to have really turned things around though and seems happier and healthier than I've seen him in 10 years. Other mutual friends haven't been so lucky and are still wrecking themselves but I'm just pleased and relieved that someone at least has come out the other side.

We've just drunk coffee and talked, and am going back to my family later this morning. Feels like a bit of an lull in the storm though - there's so much going on, work is totally relentless, am going to have to log in and catch up later, I can't see any respite at all until September. Have a day off tomorrow as I'm going to an appointment with my partner and am already fretting about how much needs doing on Tuesday.

Eldest daughter is doing really well though - she had a vocal solo in a play the other week which she sang beautifully (dead shocked, given the caterwauling that usually takes place in the house) and she's auditioning for more. Middle child is apparently in the doghouse for calling Mother In Common Law a 'fat pig'. Which I might somehow get blamed for. Youngest child is still a cute bundle.

Creatively, am full of musical ideas but with no time whatsoever to execute them. Which is frustrating. The rubbish summer so far has stilted my garden and all my vegetables have so far come to nothing - doubling the frustration because I devoted so many weekends to planting and potting when I could have been making music.

Tonight though, I'm going out with my partner, the first time we'll have been out together for two years, so I'm looking forward to that.

Peace to all.



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It's Sunday morning here in Maine. I've made my first cuppa coffee. (I have an Aeropress that I bought a month ago, and I'm loving the coffee it's making. I'll probably never go back to drip ...

So here's me working on a pose for the comic.



Actually been a decent week, despite it raining here all week, and weekend. The wife got a new (daytime) position at her job. Yeah!!! Now, with any luck she'll be able to sleep properly, and not be tired and grumpy all the time.
Some asshole ran into my parked car the other night, while the kids were out to a beach swimming. Scraped up the rear quarter panel, and bent the rim on the tire. We couldn't get that tire off to put on the spare (Hyundai's are notorious for this say my mechanic brother-in-law), so it needed to be towed, and I still don't know the extent of the damage, hoping it's just the tire rim, and cosmetic. Today, my allergies are killing me, I hate not being able to breathe with out weezing.

Ambition: Finish "A Wicked Little Town", and move on to something else. I have plans, and stuff that I'm working on in my (limited) spare time. "Wicked" should be finished in August sometime, and then I need to color it for the print edition, and then I'm free until Glover hacks out the sequel (or is it prequel), which may be a while, since he's a busy, busy man at this point.

Thank you Warren, for another SNOM, and for letting us vent to you.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299498#Comment_299498 2011-06-26T06:50:46-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 mybrainhurts http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=1584

This week I attended a poetry slam and a zine launch, saw Simon Munnery, learned my (extremely conventional middle-class) dad once tried heroin, got hassled on my skateboards by cops who wanted to ...

It's been a pretty strange, but good, week, all told.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299501#Comment_299501 2011-06-26T07:41:48-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 shannon.gilly.3 http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=8549

so, my saturday night postmortem: work, bar one (too packed), bar two (empty, walked in at last call),beer, bar three, beer, bar four, beer, steak, back to bar one, beer, drive to bar five, beer, ...

work, bar one (too packed), bar two (empty, walked in at last call),beer, bar three, beer, bar four, beer, steak, back to bar one, beer, drive to bar five, beer, cuba libre, cheese fries, coca cola, sunrise, drive to near bar two, two hours of taking pictures while walking roughly two miles, internal plotting for the future, drive home, internet.

I know, my life is absolutely thrilling.

random photo I took with my phone, since laptop can't efficiently process the RAW files from my main camera:


i guess that's it.]]> http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/comments.php?DiscussionID=9976&Focus=299506#Comment_299506 2011-06-26T08:33:40-07:00 2013-05-21T19:41:02-07:00 Oxbrow http://freakangels.com/whitechapel/account.php?u=894

Cheers razrangel, and to fellow birthday-ers. And for the record, no the Book Festival website was not helpful, nor was the phone line, but the people at the physical ticket getting place were ...

And for the record, no the Book Festival website was not helpful, nor was the phone line, but the people at the physical ticket getting place were after a couple hours.]]>